Peaceful Farm Life-Chapter 1892 - 1893: He Can’t Accept Her
An Jing knew that Su Yixing was feeling upset, which is why he was acting this way. Su Yi Jing did not get angry, he simply asked, "Are you upset with me, or upset with her?"
"I’m upset with both of you!" Su Yixing had never shown his older brother a kind face; this was the first time.
At this moment, Su Yixing was genuinely very emotional: "You have no idea how many tears Mother secretly shed because of you and her. Father is also feeling miserable, speaking even less now. He often stands with Mother at the door, looking in the direction you left, standing there for many hours, hoping you’ll regret it and return to them, instead of suffering here!"
The mention of An Jing and Xiao Changyi tightened Su Yi Jing’s throat instantly, causing him pain.
He truly felt unfilial, and he knew it.
"Father and Mother cared so much for us, but look at what you’ve done now?!" Su Yixing was still raging, "Do you know where I came from? I was just at Father and Mother’s place! Ever since you left, I don’t dare to leave! After I received the message from you asking me to come, I really didn’t want to come. You haven’t acted like an older brother at all, but Father and Mother persuaded me to come. They worry about you having problems. If I didn’t come, they’d be angry with me, so I came! If you weren’t my brother, I’d really want to kill you, seeing Father and Mother so upset! I’ve even seen they’ve grown white hair, do you know that?"
The last sentence was yelled by Su Yixing.
After shouting, his eyes turned red in an instant.
Logically, Father and Mother shouldn’t be considered old at this age, they shouldn’t have white hair, but now they do, entirely because of this person before him, his big brother, his own flesh and blood.
Su Yi Jing’s eyes also turned red. He first harshly slapped himself, then grabbed the sword from Huo Qingyi’s hand and shoved it into Su Yixing’s hands, "Stab me with the sword, stab me hard, so that I might feel better."
"What good is stabbing you?!" Su Yixing angrily threw away the sword, "Can their white hair turn back black!"
His heart ached.
As their son, he truly felt the heartache. He originally thought his parents wouldn’t age for a very long time, and he never wanted them to grow old. Yet he didn’t expect that because of his big brother’s matters, they have prematurely grown white hair.
How could he not be furious about this?
How could he accept what his big brother has done?
How could he accept this woman, Feng Feiyan! He couldn’t accept it; he didn’t want Feng Feiyan to become his sister-in-law at all!
At first, he could accept his brother pursuing his true love, but after seeing his parents grow white hair because of it, he simply can’t accept his brother being like this now.
Su Yi Jing gazed at the sword thrown to the ground by Su Yixing, his eyes red, silent, feeling extremely uncomfortable inside.
He didn’t want it to be like this either; but he truly couldn’t come to terms with it, so he came to Wufeng to see if he could create some possibility between him and Feng Feiyan.
He didn’t want to deceive his parents, so he informed them of his plan, asking for their understanding, hoping they would agree to him going to Wufeng.
Now his parents have grown white hair...
Because of him...
He severely underestimated the love his parents have for their son, him. But even if he regretted and felt self-reproach at this moment, it was to no avail. He’s already come to Wufeng. He can only compensate in the future.
In the future, he will surely be a good son to his parents, never doing anything to make them sad and upset again.
Even though he had thought it through, Su Yi Jing’s mood still didn’t find any relief, remaining extremely uncomfortable.
