My Curse? A Different Yandere in Every Reincarnation-Chapter 171: Spear and Shield

"...Saint Beatriz, you seem radiant," an employee compliments me with a smile as she sees me walking down the hallway to the area where I heal people.

"Thank you," I respond with a smile. I am truly very happy; Shizune is fulfilling many of my childhood dreams, some that I had even forgotten about.

There is no way I cannot be happy. I know she is a bit embarrassed to be my mother, but she still does it genuinely, and that is what matters.

I myself know how strange it is for an 18-year-old girl like me to treat her as a mother when we have only known each other for about a month and a few days, but I feel that she is special to me.

She is a gift from God for my lonely years of efforts that were never properly recognized. I have been healing people since I was 12, and the complaints and lack of recognition were frequent.

Even as a saint, I never received the respect I deserved, and as Shizune saw, healing people has practically become a job instead of what it really is. People practically think being healed by me is something natural.

Since the church has no rules related to this, I don’t need to do what I do, as this is not the duty of a saint. The duty of a saint is divided into three things.

The first is to manage the church financially, structurally, and politically basically, the saint is the one who defines everything in the church.

The second thing is to kill necromancers. There are certain necromancers that no paladin can face, and it is in these moments that a saint must go to take care of the problem.

This duty is one of the most important of all because a necromancer that even the paladins cannot handle is a necromancer capable of decimating entire kingdoms, and without a saint, it is impossible to deal with them.

And the third duty is to protect the central kingdom, which is where the main headquarters of the church is located. All saints cannot leave this kingdom, and there is even a law where the saint is prohibited from leaving the kingdom without permission from the neighboring kingdoms.

Because a saint is, in the eyes of many, a weapon of mass destruction, and the fact that I go to another kingdom could be some kind of war strategy to dominate another kingdom.

In addition, if I leave the main headquarters of the church, a neighboring kingdom may decide to attack to usurp the throne of royalty, so the saint is obliged to stay in the country where she is to avoid wars.

So my life is very restricted by rules and limitations, and people have a very narrow view of what I am.

To ordinary people, I am just a girl who can heal them and protect them in dangerous situations.

And to the nobles, I am a weapon of mass destruction that threatens their lives, or even "worse," threatens their positions when I decide to get involved in politics.

It is a fact that the world is governed by the power of religion, so I have more authority than the king, and even the Pope is below me in position. I am basically the most influential person in the world.

But in this way, no one really sees me. They only see what they want to see, but Shizune is different.

She looks at me as if I were a troublesome and strange child, which is strangely refreshing and exciting.

I never had a childhood like other children, so having Shizune treat me this way is like regaining something that should have been a basic right in my life.

Shizune has no idea how happy she makes me just by deciding to be my mother, even though she feels strange and embarrassed about it.

And the best of all happened: I discovered that she is the Mother Saint, after all, as she said, it is impossible for a living dead who produces milk that increases the power of mages and is immune to purification to appear without being the will of God.

Shizune is undoubtedly a gift from God for the thousands of prayers I made for a maternal figure in my life. I undoubtedly respect my birth mother and all the incredible things she did.

But honestly, if it were just to have her present, I wouldn’t care if she weren’t as incredible as she is now.

Moreover, another proof that Shizune is a gift from heaven is how she is absurdly similar to the previous saint, except for the color of her eyes and hair, they are identical.

With all this, it is impossible for me not to be overflowing with joy, even though it was a little embarrassing to drink milk directly from her breast, it was still a wonderful experience.

Honestly, I could get addicted to this. Shizune was so cute, full of embarrassment, like an immature mother who doesn’t know what to do with her first mischievous child.

Even when I deliberately took bites of her, she didn’t react by complaining, she just gently told me to avoid biting.

I need to arrange some free time later for the two of us to do other mother-daughter things. I will also ask for children’s books for her to read to me at bedtime and maybe some toys.

’Would it be too strange for the two of us to play with toys together?’ I don’t know, but I want to try at least once and hear compliments. I can hardly wait to finish healing the people to go back to my room.

Thanks to Shizune taking care of the administration, I can finally sleep well again. It’s been years since I’ve had a good night’s sleep because I’ve been worried about the finances and problems of the church.

Shizune is truly an angel sent from heaven. God does not discriminate against anyone for their appearance or type, which is why she is a living dead it is like a sign from God.

The dead do not lose their appearance; they are like an immutable mirror of reality. That’s why she emerged as a living dead in the church; a normal living dead would stay away from the church.

But Shizune came straight here; there are dozens of signs that indicate how special she is. I was just too slow to realize the dozens of signs that life was giving me.

"I can’t wait for lunchtime," I say, hopping through the corridors full of joy.

Shizune’s milk is delicious, and it’s not even so much for the food, but for the good feeling it gives me. Even when satisfied, I would love to continue savoring that wonderful flavor.

Also, it seems that sucking directly from her breast preserved the flavor even more perfectly by avoiding contact with the air, making it even more delicious.

’I wonder if she would let me suck on her again?’ I ask myself, full of embarrassment. A mother feeding her child would never be a perverted act. Shizune seems not to understand this yet, but that’s okay.

One day, I will be able to show Shizune that everything she does as the Mother Saint is a sacred act that, unlike impure acts, may seem the same, but what differentiates them is the symbolism.

An act can be considered impure or pure depending on the context behind it and the symbolism that governs it. Shizune seems to have little religious knowledge, so she doesn’t understand this.

I need to teach her the divine doctrines of the church, as well as secretly prepare a revelation. I need to gather the entire kingdom to speak about the arrival of the Mother Saint sent by God.

God made it clear, the pure are defended by a spear and a shield. For a long time in the church’s doctrine, it was believed that the spear and the shield referred to the saint and the hidden spear in the church’s basement.

In other words, the saint is the spear and shield that protects the pure in times of need. But now that Shizune has arrived, I understand the truth.

I am the shield that protects the pure, and Shizune, who is the Mother Saint and the Sacred Spear, will protect the pure. They are two people instead of one. Shizune has clearly shown interest in the spear.

I think I need to give her that spear as a special gift. Will she be happy to receive that spear?

’If Shizune is the spear and I am the shield, shouldn’t we get married?’ The thought arises in my head. In the sacred scriptures, the church’s hero always marries the church’s saint.

During the 3 calamities of the world, the saint and the church’s hero got married. There were 3 generations of saints and heroes who married. Shizune, as the Sacred Spear of the church, would be considered the hero.

’No, no, no, I’m moving too fast. We still need more time. Shizune needs to learn the church’s doctrines and become qualified as a heroine!’ She herself said she wants to be a good person.

Everything seems to fit perfectly. It’s as if destiny is giving all the pieces and helping to fit them in the right place to unite us.

"Yes, a marriage between the Church’s Shield Saint and the Mother Saint, the Church’s Sacred Spear, seems perfect." No one can contradict what I decide. As I am the strongest mage in the world, in addition to being the saint, my decisions are almost absolute, unless they involve a rule of God.

God has given the right of judgment of right and wrong to the saint. If I decide that a marriage between us two is the best for the church, everyone will just agree.

’But if the heroine of the church has arrived...it means that a fourth calamity will affect humanity.’ Now that I think deeply about it, if the Heroine of the church has appeared, it means that evil is near.

’I need to prepare, but I can’t alert the others.’ I will prepare for this alone. With the increase in power that Shizune gives me, dealing with it will be easier than compared to the calamities of the past.

’Shizune is a living dead, and the Hero symbolizes a glimpse of the future...it also means that the 4th calamity will involve living dead and necromancers.’ I need to start secretly preparing a powerful purification barrier.

It will turn any living dead in the area into dust. Shizune has already shown to be immune to Purification, so only she will be fine inside the barrier, while any living dead, regardless of type, will die if they enter the kingdom.

’I need to negotiate with merchants to get the material.’ I can do it alone and without alarming anyone, but it will take at least 1 week to obtain the materials, and the barrier must be able to last a few years.

Nothing will ruin my current happiness that I have arduously conquered. Shizune doesn’t need to know about the threat that is coming.

"I will destroy any threat to the perfect life that God is giving me as a gift," I say with a huge smile on my face.

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