My Alleged Husband-Chapter 820 - 770: Kneeling for Forgiveness (Long - )_6

"What exactly do you two want? I just wanted to happily welcome you back home. Why must you speak such words to me, reminding me of the past? Don’t you realize how those memories are an assault on my heart? I simply cannot forget how you left back then, what you said to us when you left. Where is that pride and confidence you had when you made those decisions? How come it’s all gone now? Are you willing to let go of that previous pride and admit to your own family that you made mistakes?"

"Dad, we truly realize our wrongdoings now. We just want to stay by your side and keep you company. That’s enough for us. We’re not those insatiable types. We can come back home, and if you really don’t want us back in this home, we won’t return. But at least please agree to let us come back anytime to keep you company, to lend a hand around the house. We don’t want to live aimlessly like before. We want to live for our family and our careers. Abandoning you is a mistake we might never be able to make up for in this lifetime. We should have been there for you, and now, filled with regret, we’ve chosen to come back. Isn’t it nice to have us by your side as you enjoy your golden years? Why refuse us?"

Old Master Zhang truly didn’t want to say anything anymore. Why must all the blame be forced upon him time and again? Was he born to be a scapegoat? Over the years, how many such burdens has he borne? Everyone thinks that he drove his son and daughter-in-law out of the house, but who truly understands what really happened? Who has ever witnessed the heartless things his son and daughter-in-law said when they left?

He too is a living person with feelings, repeatedly hurt by others. Why should he keep forgiving them without any bottom line, forgiving them over and over again? What do they ultimately bring to his life? Is a life filled with constant opposition really what he wants? No, it is absolutely not the life he wants.

"I didn’t say I won’t forgive you. I just want you to understand that the person you owe the most in this life isn’t me; it’s your son. You abandoned him. Haven’t you realized yet where you went wrong in abandoning him? A child needs companionship most during their childhood. You’ve come back now, but what’s the use? His childhood is over. He can never go back to those years, never grow up all over again with you by his side. The loneliest person over the years isn’t me; it’s him. The hardest struggler isn’t me; it’s them. Most of all, the person you should be apologizing to isn’t me; it’s your child!"

Up to this point, you still haven’t figured out to whom you owe apologies, whom you’ve wronged. You just self-righteously assume everything you do is correct. But are your actions really right?

If you were right, why has no one ever dared to return home? You’ve never had the courage to boldly walk back into this house even once. Every celebration, I would anticipate with hands clasped if you would have the gall to return, but did you?

No, because in your hearts, there’s no place for the people in this house.

Now that you have come back, kneeled down, uttered some soft words, and tendered a few apologies, should we just forgive you unconditionally? If forgiving you ultimately brings me harm, why shouldn’t I choose to never forgive? If forgiving you means living in torment for the rest of my life, then what’s the point of such forgiveness? Time and again this results in the same thing, ultimately leaving me unable to escape the fate of being hurt by you. Then I’d rather never forgive you for the rest of my life."