My Alleged Husband-Chapter 703 - 673 Confessing the Truth_1
They each returned to their own rooms. Zhang Zhentian had been waiting in his office for his wife to come back. The moment he saw his wife enter, his mood was not very good. He didn’t know what his father had actually said to his wife. They didn’t understand what their son had talked about with his wife.
He didn’t feel it was appropriate to say anything now; he could only wait for his wife to take the initiative to tell him.
At this moment, Xia Jing was also torn. She knew that if she didn’t tell the truth now, her husband might live in confusion for the rest of his life. She didn’t want him to live with such grievances forever. If she told the truth, she might face the outcome of divorce. But was that really what she wanted? All she wanted was to have her loved ones stay by her side forever. But her actions were bound to lose everything. Should she really tell her husband everything?
"It’s getting late, let’s go to sleep early. I won’t ask about what you talked about today, because I trust you. I believe every word you say is true. I won’t pry into things you don’t want to talk about, and I won’t ask. I’m giving you my utmost trust, because I believe you won’t lie to me, that you genuinely care for me. Just being together is enough; that’s all I ask for in this life. Having you by my side is the greatest comfort!"
When Xia Jing heard Zhentian say these words to her, she was moved, but she also understood that some things really needed to be said. Why let them become increasingly complicated until it becomes impossible to resolve? Perhaps confessing earlier might have some benefits. If, in the end, confession still led to the same conclusion, she would have no regrets. At least she hadn’t let down the person she loved the most.
"Zhentian, there’s something I want to tell you, but you have to promise not to get angry no matter what you hear and no matter what reaction you have, whatever decision you make, I will accept gladly!"
"Go ahead. No matter what you tell me, I will understand you."
"I want to say, I actually don’t love you in my heart. Even though we’ve been married for so many years, my heart has never been with you. I’ve always been thinking of my first love before I was with you. For him, I gave a lot, and he gave all his love for me. But in the end, we reached a dead end, and I had to choose to be with you. The truth is, I used you as a backup, but I hope you’ll let me finish!"
The moment Zhentian heard his wife say that she had treated him as a backup, his expression became frantic. What overwhelmed him more was his solemnity. He had never imagined that his wife hadn’t given him her heart throughout all these years; she had lived in a lie. He was struggling to tolerate it and was now starting to get angry, but he thought to let his wife finish telling the truth before deciding on a response.
"All these years, I never held you in my heart. Everything you did for me, I am truly touched. You gave up your whole family for me, disregarding your family’s century-old foundation. I’ve seen all this, and I am really grateful. There are some things I really can’t explain to you. I have to bear the consequences for every mistake I once made. Because of one wrong step, I ended up breaking up completely with my first love, and to this day my heart still aches. You should know how frightened I am waking up from nightmares, dreaming over and over about the day we broke up. Although I’ve been with you for many years, although I look splendid and smile happily, no one knows when my laughter is truly from the heart. I have never really been happy all these years. Being with you, I always put on a brave front, because I know people need to learn how to disguise themselves. If one can’t, they’ll be a failure in front of everyone. I don’t know how to explain to you that I loved him so deeply until his departure made me realize how much I loved him. But I can’t bring him back!
You might think I’ve been very unfair to you all these years. You have given everything, even willing to forsake your family, while my heart was elsewhere, loving someone else, longing for someone else. I have lived in a painful abyss for years, restless day and night. I have no way to forget the hurt my mistakes have brought to the man I love the most. I’ve been reflecting over and over, pondering what I could do to return things to the beginning, how to act as if nothing had ever happened. I don’t know what decision I should make, because one wrong step cost me the man who loved me the most. Do you know how much he loved me? He gave all his love for me, gave everything he had, and I just gave him a heart of stone in return.
After he left, I realized that my heart can hurt too. My heart aches not because of anything else, but because I lost him, because his actions have made me deeply fall in love with him. I’ve fallen too deep to extricate myself. No matter when or where, no matter what decision you make, I will accept it gladly. I just want to savor the life I had with him. Even if you choose to divorce me, I won’t give up on him. No matter what choice you make, I will always remember him deep in my heart because the love he gave me is something no one else can provide. He was with me in my most difficult times, extended a helping hand when I was in agony. He offered me a love that no one else could. This time, I want to give my all, no matter the cost, no matter the means, to love him, even if in the end, all I can get from him is indifference. I accept it gladly. I don’t care about the outcome anymore. What I care about is whether I have truly let myself love him, whether I have given him my whole heart. I’m sorry for hurting you."
Zhang Zhentian was stunned. He couldn’t understand what was happening?
