My Alleged Husband-Chapter 1582 - 1376: Thoroughly
I have been through a series of injuries, but in the end, I gained nothing myself.
Who would willingly accept being hurt by others again and again?
Zhang Yichen had never seen his grandfather lose composure like he did today. Perhaps the grievances buried deep in his heart for so many years finally had a chance to be fully vented on this day. No matter what, he could clearly remember that his grandfather often held a photograph and silently shed tears, often holding that photo and muttering to himself. He isolated himself in a private space, always so radiant and lovable outside, without bringing any negative energy to others. He just wanted others to be happy, but he never considered how much pain he endured alone.
Sometimes I wonder, if I had shown my grandfather a little more care, would the outcome have been different? I witnessed how difficult my grandfather’s life has been these past few years, seeing it firsthand, time and time again. How much has he done for me, and yet what have I given back? I couldn’t even give him a bit of basic happiness.
I am willing to give everything for the decisions I made, and I am also willing to do whatever it takes for the people I care about!
If time could turn back, wouldn’t I think about what kind of life I should have provided for my grandfather, what kind of attitude I should have towards him? These years, how much pain and sorrow has my grandfather endured – no one knows that I vented all my pain, but my grandfather swallowed all his bitter tears. He silently endured so much on his own, and what was I doing?
"Dad, regardless of anything, I don’t want you to say more callous words to Grandpa. He’s really old now and can’t bear being betrayed time and again by his family. Can you try to be a bit more understanding towards him, even if it’s just a little filial piety, I would be grateful to you. Do you know how many people you’ve hurt with every action you take? Have you considered how much hatred you’ve attracted? You always think what you do is right, but is it truly correct? Look into your heart, has Grandpa ever wronged you all these years? Since the day you were born, has Grandpa ever mistreated you? Did he not provide you with a life of luxury, ensuring you never had to worry, more fortunate than anyone else? Even without a mother, didn’t you feel that Grandpa gave you all his love!
In fact, Grandpa feels guilty towards you in his heart, and that’s why he poured all his love for his wife into you, but in the end, all his hopes for you were dashed. You chose to fly away and leave, finding comfort abroad rather than staying by his side. Doesn’t his heart break from despair?
Your every action doesn’t consider his feelings, yet you expect him to think from your perspective. People are empathetic; since you can’t treat others as your family, don’t expect others to forgive all your mistakes time and again. He doesn’t owe you.
If you came back to this family just to hurt your father, hurt me, and hurt everyone here, then I congratulate you on achieving your goal. But I beg you to spare Grandpa; no matter how you hurt me, I can let it go, pretend it never happened, and consider it as my own fault, but Grandpa doesn’t owe you anything."
"Why are you still pinning all the blame on me now? So everything I’ve done is really wrong? Couldn’t what I wanted be what you all wanted? Why do you always selfishly think your thoughts are completely correct compared to others’?
I never intended to come back to this family for revenge for being shut out. I genuinely wanted to return to accompany you, but the ultimate outcome left me helpless to foresee the hurt it caused. I begged repeatedly to stay, but what did I end up with? I gained nothing and absorbed all the pain.
You might think me selfish, never considering things from your angle. But do you understand? If I hadn’t considered things from your perspective and rent, how would I have stayed at this store? How would I have said these things? How could I keep placing you in my deepest heart?
You are my family, the unchangeable conclusion for this lifetime. Everything I did was hoping the family could be happy, healthy, and safe. But all my hopes ended in vain. Doesn’t my heart despair and pain?
You think I imposed all my pain on you, but what about you? Have you never imposed your pain on me? Haven’t I suffered enough all these years? Didn’t each of your selfish act hurt me? Don’t use your thoughts to define others; what you do might not be right, you know. You end up wronging others, driving away those who love you the most.
Didn’t you from deep down mind my leaving? Yet why do you treat me like this? Repeatedly, what did you gain from such harm and pain? Nothing was gained; you just burdened yourself, always thinking what you did was right. In the end, you’ll realize every act was wrong, bringing hurt to each relative around you.
No matter what, I want to clarify today that I never intended to hurt you. It was just my recurring mistakes that unforeseen led to this: the repeated consequences. Doesn’t my heart feel regret?
Everyone has regrets; no one can always live as they please. Having one’s own path in life is the right way!
