My Alleged Husband-Chapter 1473 - 1267: Everyone Has Pain in Their Hearts
Watching as the spring turns to autumn, and flowers wither and bloom again, we experienced everything between us, yet in the end, it all became fleeting clouds and smoke.
Originally, I thought our feelings for each other were unbreakable, but in the end, it turned out that all this was just empty vows; no one can live as they did before for a lifetime.
"You want to sever ties with me so quickly, but I’m not someone easy to deal with. I don’t want to ask anything, I just want to understand one thing. Did you go through all the trouble to be with me because you truly loved me, or for something else? I hope, at this point, you can tell me clearly, without using any lies to cover up your so-called vanity!"
Xia Jing never expected that her husband of more than a decade would say such words to her. Even though they had been divorced for years, why was he still using such words to insult her character? Was this the person she had always been in his heart? Was she truly a woman who only cares for profit? But she never coveted anything from him, so why did he view her this way? Was it really because she went home this time without telling him, without choosing to go back with him hand in hand?
"I won’t deny it. From the beginning, I never got into any feelings. I simply liked you and wanted to be with you. If I were in it for your family’s money, I wouldn’t have extended a helping hand when your father’s company was nearing bankruptcy, and when your father’s career was facing a low point. I unhesitatingly helped him because I believed that if I wanted to be with you, I needed your father’s approval. Actually, even if I didn’t save your father’s company back then, I would have still been with you. I was always trying to prove to you that I wasn’t with you for money. If it were for money, during the significant financial difficulties your father faced, I could have directly told you that we were breaking up. I didn’t have to hang myself on this tree when there are countless other wealthy people in the world. Why would I give up a whole forest for you alone? Because you were the best in my heart. But now I realize, all my efforts were just illusions in your eyes. Do you know? Liking someone can only make your heart suffer greatly, very conflicted, not knowing how to make the person you like respond to you. I’ve never thought about those lives that don’t belong to me. I’ve always stood from my and my beloved’s perspective to look at problems. But when I finally realized it, I slowly discovered that everything I did was wrong and meaningless. What I care about doesn’t mean the person I love cares about it too; and what my loved one cares about, I don’t care about. Slowly, differences occur between two people, and eventually, they drift apart and can never be together again. When I looked beyond these things, my heart couldn’t quite believe it! But slowly, I felt there was nothing unacceptable about it, because loving someone may be really too humble, loving too humbly, too pitifully, and eventually, you’d just be covered in scars. Knowing clearly that these two people are not suitable together, yet still plunging into it recklessly, just to prove to oneself that one can have a happy life, but what you discover in the end is that it really harms both."
Zhang Zhentian listened to what Xia Jing said without saying a word, just silently looking at Xia Jing. Xia Jing felt increasingly bad inside. How much she loved someone back then is how much pain she feels now, a kind of entanglement and pain she can never forget in her lifetime. Obviously knowing that there is a world of difference between them, one is a star in the sky, the other is dust on Earth. The two clearly can’t be together, yet there is always a luxury hope in the heart. That’s how people are—never reconciled, always wanting to embark on that path of love that doesn’t belong to them. But in the end, how many people truly understand that this love path can lead you to an abyss, a trap from which you can never escape.
There’s no fault in loving someone wholeheartedly, it only proves your sincere love for that person, not because of any materialistic things. But are you truly suitable? If two people aren’t suitable, staying together will just add melancholy to each other. You may feel you love him very much inside, but this person doesn’t love you. If he doesn’t love you, what’s the meaning of being together? Forcing someone who doesn’t love you to stay by your side may make you happy, but the person you love will be in pain because he doesn’t love you, and being with you feels like torture. Would anyone wish for their loved one to feel a lifetime of torture and pain because of them? But people are such that they can’t let go of a bit of luxury in their heart, always thinking that just staying together will definitely bring happiness and joy. But who understands how difficult and arduous it truly is, as no one has ever considered these issues.
"I believe I’ve made myself very clear. In that case, let’s not meet or contact each other anymore. Today marks the day we completely sever all ties. I hope you remember that all of this wasn’t caused by me. It’s a result of your actions toward me! Since you’ve chosen to heartlessly abandon me, then don’t dwell on regret, because there’s no regret pill in this world. The consequences of your actions, whether happy or painful, must be borne by yourself no matter what."
"Is there really no chance between us anymore?"
"There was never any chance between us, because in your eyes, I’m just a woman only after profit, blinded by money. How could I possibly match your proud demeanor? I don’t deserve you. I don’t want to make any more changes just to be suited with you. It only makes me feel exhausted. I’ve sacrificed too much for you. Now I want to live a good life for myself!"
Xia Jing finished speaking and hung up the phone, but her heart was in pain. There was still a part that couldn’t forget, still longing for that love that wasn’t hers. But in the end, what could she do? What doesn’t belong to you is unattainable.
This is perhaps what is meant by "what’s meant to be will be, what’s not will never be".
The pain buried deep in memory, the so-called entanglement was just hurt. Who would care about everything they once had, who would care whether they cherished those things?
