My Alleged Husband-Chapter 1449 - 1244: Tears
May you have wine to get drunk on, and someone to accompany you when sober, but some things aren’t that easy; everything only ends up hurting yourself, leaving you unable to bear the pain.
Zhang Yichen actually knows better than anyone that once certain things happen, there’s no way to change the final outcome, but he’s really unwilling to accept it. Why, after putting in so much effort time and again, can’t he achieve the outcome he desires?
Everyone says that the heavens are fair, but is it possible that there’s an exception for him—why should the heavens be so unfair to him? All he wants is a simple happy life, but why has it become like this? How difficult has each step been to reach today, yet no one has ever stood in his shoes to consider things for him. In the past, to reach the pinnacle of his life, how much hardship and how many tears he shed! But none of his sacrifices led anyone to have the slightest remorse. Everyone just feels that his sacrifices are only natural; is he really so unwelcome?
The more he thinks, the more uncomfortable he feels inside. He’s truly given so much, yet ultimately his parents are unwilling to return to his side, including his family who constantly argues with him. This, to him, is the greatest shadow in his heart; no one will, without reason, suffer from their family’s love, nor remain unmoved when criticized time and again. He is also a living person, with his own thoughts and mind, and he knows what he should and shouldn’t do. But why do people keep reminding him over and over? 𝚏𝕣𝕖𝚎𝚠𝚎𝚋𝚗𝐨𝐯𝕖𝕝.𝕔𝐨𝕞
"Grandpa, I’m clearer about some things than anyone else. I know how difficult it is for me to achieve what I have today. I’ve walked step by step to this point. Even if the whole world doesn’t know, you surely do, Grandpa, because you watched me grow up firsthand. You know how much effort I’ve put in for today; you know how challenging every step has been. While others played happily, I was undergoing demonic training, desperately making myself stronger so that one day my parents will willingly return to me, not leave because they see me as a son without ability. But why, now that I’ve achieved so much, my parents still won’t return to my side? In their eyes, is their own son really so useless?
I know, Grandpa, you’re ready to comfort me, but I don’t want your repeated comfort. Some things will eventually come to light; even if scars crust over once and again, they will still be torn open. Why must I bury everything within my heart repeatedly, enduring that excruciating pain alone? I know my parents have never considered their own son’s feelings; in their eyes, I’m nothing. All I want is an ordinary life. They can’t give me a happy family, so why do they repeatedly destroy the life where I could have been happy? I don’t understand—what reason do they have for hating their own son so much, treating me this way again and again!"
"Child, you shouldn’t think about it this way; you should understand that any parent will worry about their child, regardless of how inept or useless their child may seem. As parents, it’s in their nature to worry, and they won’t abandon this instinct because of your perceived lack of worth; it’s an unchangeable instinct. You should understand what reasons led your parents to choose to leave you. No matter what decisions they’ve made, you have achieved such accomplishments now, so why plunge yourself repeatedly into the abyss of pain, making them feel guilty because of you again and again? Isn’t it better for both parties to live happily together? Why must you hurt each other again and again?"
