My Alleged Husband-Chapter 1054 - 907: Integrity
"Child, your grandparents and I undoubtedly believe that you are an honest child. I trust that everything you do has its own reasoning and cause; I would never doubt you.
Throughout these years, everything you’ve gone through, how could we not know? However, we still had no way to stand by your side to protect you. When you were bullied, we could only watch from afar, watching you solve all the challenges relying on your own efforts and wisdom. When you resolved every difficulty again and again, deep down our hearts were madly proud; having such a genius child in our family, our descendants, how could we possibly not be happy? You are very much like your father, both living to prove yourselves to others. But does living this way truly make you happy? When you make such decisions repeatedly, do you truly never have a tinge of regret or reluctance?
I don’t know what you most want to do, nor do I know what your dreams truly are. You know, what makes me happiest is you reaching this point today. Still, I hope you don’t give up your dreams just to prove yourself to others; dreams are really important. Having a dream means you can put forth all your effort. If you don’t want to do certain things but only want to pursue what you desire yet cannot, living like this is truly exhausting. Why change for others? You should keep up with your own pace, not adapt to others. You need everyone to follow your rhythm. If one day you chose to tread upon others’ paths to advance, it means you’ve already lost to them at the starting line of life.
What I fear more is that you might sacrifice your dreams because of us. We truly don’t want to go through such matters again. We just wish for peace and for everyone to live happily and joyfully. If you give up your dreams for me, how would I bear it deep in my heart? I only want to see my family live in happiness and joy. But time and again, I’ve altered everything; I changed your father’s destiny, changed your destiny, and now our entire family’s destiny. Must my entire life be about altering others’ destinies? Is making others suffer the easiest thing for me? I don’t believe it, nor do I resign to being such a person."
"I think you are overthinking. How could I possibly abandon my dreams because of you? I want to ask what makes you worthy of me changing my direction? I believe everything is just according to my own preferences. Whether I’m proving to others or whatever, as long as I’m happy, pursuing the path I once most aspired to, I feel no guilt. I am not considering changing direction for anyone, nor will I ever change my path because of anyone. I will only let others adapt to my pace, walk to my rhythm. I never choose to adapt to others; I only choose to adapt to the environment. Only by adapting to the environment can others follow my steps.
I once considered changing my pace to follow others’ rhythm, but in the end, I realized I was gravely mistaken. If I choose to change myself to follow others’ pace, I would have no chance to surpass in life. I must make others follow my steps; I must make everyone adapt to my rhythm. If I had chosen this path from the start, I’d have been fully prepared. My decision to walk this path is unrelated to anyone; my choice has no associations with anyone. It’s just me wanting to tread this path; just me wanting to be a different person, acquiring more skills, gaining techniques for survival. I never expected you would think this way, but did you know? If I had known you’d feel this way immediately, I wouldn’t have chosen this path. Do you think you have the ability to change my direction? You don’t at all.
If you had stayed by my side from the start, perhaps I would have indeed taken your opinions into my choice of path. But my grandfather never interfered with my decisions; I just walked the path I most wanted to tread. You sometimes shouldn’t overthink it. The path we choose in life is related to ourselves, unrelated to anyone else. I absolutely will not gamble with my own life, nor will I alter it for others—that way of living is truly exhausting.
Don’t think my son changed paths due to you... His initial thought was due to you, thinking of his future path because of you. But I do not allow any influence upon my son—he’ll merely live a joyful life. I’ll bear all hardships myself.
Why let my child endure the pains I once did? There’s neither necessity nor possibility. How can I let my child suffer all the pain or bear all the hurt? He is only suited for living happily within his joyful life. As long as he can remain happy and joyous, I feel that’s enough."
Zhang Zhentian felt deeply moved hearing his son’s words. At least his child and grandson didn’t change their life’s intended direction because of them. If his son really altered his path due to them, they wouldn’t know how to face it. They wouldn’t have any way to bear all the pain, nor any reason to let their child follow their steps to alter his life’s direction. The mistakes one makes should be borne by oneself. Why involve the child?
The child is so innocent; once abandoning him was humanity’s greatest mistake. If due to my reasons, his life ideals and life change, what reason do I, as a father, have to stay by my child’s side? What right do I have in this family? What right to be my son’s father?
