MTL - The Words of the Number One-Chapter 51 snow
Shen Baiwu's reform proposal was finally written, and on the day it was written, he brought the scroll into the palace to meet King Zhao. They talked for a long time. I stood outside the door and waited from midday to sunset. From the initial quarrel, I heard King Zhao's uncontrollable sobs at the end.
Finally Shen Baiwu came out from the hall, Zhao Wang personally supported him, his eyes were red. Surrounded by more than a dozen palace people, he refused to pretend to be someone else, so he helped Shen Baiwu all the way from the palace to the carriage at the gate of the palace, until Shen Baiwu said that he was leaving before the carriage, Zhao Wang took Shen Baiwu's arm and whispered He called out, "Brother."
Hearing this address, Shen Baiwu seemed to remember something, he held Zhao Wang's arm, and said with a smile: "Your Majesty, you have grown up."
"Brother, I...will never disappoint your hard work." Zhao Wang seemed to want to say something after saying this, but he didn't seem to know what to say.
Shen Baiwu looked at him quietly, Zhao Wang also looked at Shen Baiwu, his eyes gradually became redder and redder. He finally let go of Shen Baiwu, turned around, waved his hands and said, "Let's go."
"Resignation." Shen Baiwu saluted and then got into the carriage, and I also got into the carriage. Before leaving, I turned my head and saw King Zhao's lonely back surrounded by everyone.
After the reform proposal was written, Shen Baiwu seemed to get rid of one thing on his mind, and he became relaxed, so relaxed that it seemed that he could disappear at any time. We're less than halfway through the month the doctor said we'd be.
At the beginning, he always asked Ji Yu to play chess with him, and Ji Yu didn't hesitate, and always came whenever he was invited.
Ji Yu and Shen Baiwu's chess game is simply wonderful, one has a sharp style of chess and the other has a steady style of chess. When I saw it, I felt that both of them were very inferior in teaching me how to play chess. They always win and lose each other, but I still haven't won a game of chess with Ji Yu.
After playing chess for two days, Shen Baiwu couldn't help sighing: "You have improved a lot in these years."
Ji Yu said suddenly, "It's the first time I've heard you praise me in so many years."
His attitude towards Shen Baiwu was lukewarm, a little less hypocritical and warm than those friends who had borrowed before, but it was not cold either. This kind of attitude is unpredictable, no wonder Shen Baiwu has not been able to understand what Ji Yu wants to do all these years.
They couldn't finish this game of chess, because Shen Baiwu started to cough halfway and then vomited blood, the ground was bright red. The servants rushed in in a panic to clean up the blood on the floor, Shen Baiwu propped up the table, trembling like a crumbling yellow leaf on an autumn branch.
Ji Yu sat quietly across from him and looked at him, not surprised or having any other emotions.
Shen Baiwu drove those servants away, I handed him a handkerchief to wipe his bloodstained lips, he coughed in a low voice and said to Ji Yu, "If you don't take revenge, I'm really going to die."
Ji Yu turned her head to look at Shen Baiwu for a moment, then asked, "What are you talking about?"
Shen Baiwu was stunned.
"I...didn't pull you up when I was running away from Yan Country...and escaped by myself. Don't you know very well?"
Hearing this, Ji Yu laughed. He threw the chess pieces in his hand into the chess box, and said, "Shen Baiwu, are you sick? I told you to go first. When I got back, I told my brother to come save me. Didn't you hear?"
As soon as Ji Yu said this, Shen Baiwu's eyes widened in surprise, and he slowly shook his head at a loss: "I...I didn't hear..."
"No wonder you are looking for the emperor instead of my brother..." Ji Yu seemed to understand something, he blinked his eyes and remained silent for a while, as if he thought it was amused: "So...you thought you left me and ran away? No wonder so You have been estranged from me for many years but you have responded to every request, Shen Baiwu, Shen Baiwu, are you guilty of me? I thought you hated me, after all, what I did would definitely not catch your eye. "
Ji Yu shook his head helplessly, while Shen Baiwu stared at him blankly, seemingly unable to respond.
"What you said is true?"
"Ha, why should I lie to you?"
"Don't laugh! You...you really let me go first?"
"If it's not true, you left me and escaped and you can still live until now?"
Shen Baiwu was silent for a while and then laughed out loud, coughing while laughing, and even coughed up blood. The first time Ji Yu walked up to Shen Baiwu's side and stretched out his hand to pat Shen Baiwu's back, Shen Baiwu coughed and water seeped out of his eyes.
"It's ridiculous...It's ridiculous...I've been waiting for you to take revenge on me all my life...In the end..." After a pause, Shen Baiwu said slowly: "But even if it's not betrayal to you, it is to me."
"Ji Yu, I'm sorry."
Ji Yu stopped patting Shen Baiwu's back, and he was silent for a while, jokingly said: "Everyone who said this to me seems to have been killed by me."
Shen Baiwu smiled, he raised his head to look at Ji Yu with a low smile. His thin and pale face was flushed with blood due to coughing, and he had never looked at Ji Yu with such honest and unavoidable eyes, as if he wanted to make up for the time missed due to misunderstanding.
He sighed, put his hand on Ji Yu's arm and patted it, and said softly, "Ji Yu, Ji Boyan, am I your friend?"
"yes."
Ji Yu answered quickly and firmly, Shen Baiwu's eyes flickered for a moment, and he let out a long sigh of relief: "Then I will say a few words as a friend. Ji Yu, have you thought about what you will do after revenge is over? "
Ji Yu's eyes flickered slightly, but she didn't answer.
"Ji Yu, you can't live like this for the rest of your life, let yourself go."
After a long silence, Ji Yu chuckled and said, "You seem to care about me when you say that."
Shen Baiwu nodded, he looked into Ji Yu's eyes and smiled lightly.
"Because you are also my friend. I have been unable to say this sentence for many years, but I always tell you before I die. Thank you for all these years, Ji Boyan."
Shen Baiwu lived in the mansion because of his frailty and couldn't move around for a long time. The housekeeper once told me that he was in the best mood every year when Ji Yu came to live in the mansion. Ji Yu never felt pity for Shen Baiwu because of his serious illness, and whenever he chatted with him, he talked about the customs and customs of the world and the recent situation in various countries, which was always very interesting and exciting.
Ever since Shen Baiwu set up his residence as a separate residence, his Wen'er Garden has never planted a bunch of flowers, nor has it received guests other than Ji Yu. During the years when Shen Baiwu resolutely closed himself off, he was the only one who never rejected Ji Yu.
The world thinks that Mr. Ji Yu and Mr. Cheng Guang are close friends, but they are not, and they are.
Ji Yu stared at Shen Baiwu for a long time, then shook her head with a smile. He didn't say anything, no thanks, sorry, thank you, nothing. As if this was already the best ending between them.
After Ji Yu left Xueming Pavilion, Shen Baiwu lay back on the bed to rest. Now that he had explained everything in his heart, there was nothing weighing heavily on his soul. He looked calm, soft, even happy.
He asked me to sit on his bedside to accompany him, and I sat down as promised.
Shen Baiwu looked at the neatly hung veil beside the bed, his eyes sparkled, and he smiled softly: "I suddenly feel that my life is really a joke, but even so, I still feel that it is good to be alive, and I really want to live a few more years , months, days."
I listened quietly to his words. When I first met him, he looked lifeless, like a walking dead. Now it was the first time I heard that he wanted to live, but he was going to die.
To live in disgust with the world, or to die in love with the world, no one knows which is sadder.
"Jiujiu, do you want to go back to Ji Yu?"
"maybe."
Shen Baiwu was silent for a while, then said: "You are calm and insightful, you should have known about Ji Yu's disguise. Why do you like Ji Yu?"
I looked at Shen Baiwu, and bent down to approach him. He seemed puzzled and looked at me with wide eyes.
I put my index finger between my lips and said, "You have to keep a secret for me."
"Okay." He replied simply.
"I have liked Ji Yu for many, many years. That was before he went to Yan Kingdom. I was young and ignorant and he was not what he is now."
Shen Baiwu's eyes blinked, then slightly curved.
"At that time, Ji Yu was really...very attractive. That's fine, you guys like each other, maybe Ji Yu can be saved because of this."
"...we're not a good fit, and I'll never be able to save him."
The sun swayed vaguely between us, Shen Baiwu was surprised when he heard the words. I thought for a while and then said calmly: "You know Ji Yu, he has too many things hidden in his heart. The most important thing to him is revenge, those who he has failed or failed him. His brother Sister, mother, father, Gu Ling, Gu Qi, Pei Mu, Yan Shizi, Xin Ran and you are all much more important than me. I am sure that if sacrificing me can defeat his father, he will sacrifice me without hesitation. Even I would I will be sad because I am not selected, I don't want this kind of like."
Shen Baiwu's eyes flickered, he seemed to want to say something, but he opened his mouth but didn't say anything. He couldn't refute me.
I may seem strong, even indestructible. But in fact, it's the complete opposite. I'm powerless and weak. Falling in love with Ji Yu is like handing him a knife and my softest flesh, giving him the right to hurt me as much as he wants.
Some people recover quickly after being injured, but I never healed for the rest of my life. I don't want Ji Yu to know the existence of this knife, probably because I love myself more.
"I'm neither warm nor brave, and I don't even know how to love. Things like healing his pain, saving him from obsession, I can't do it."
It's like I can't resolve Qiqi's hatred, I can only help her get revenge. I am a blade, not a herb. You can't expect a blade to heal people.
Shen Baiwu stared at me for a long time, and finally laughed helplessly. He seemed to have no strength and spoke in a low voice.
"Maybe, Ji Yu is really not a good lover. Then you have to forget about him, the girl I like will fall in love with someone better."
He took my hand and said in a tone that seemed to be praying.
I put my hand on his and said, "Okay."
Shen Baiwu seemed to feel sleepy, his eyes blinked and blinked, gradually closed and never opened again. His pale face and pale fingers shone brightly in the afternoon sun, like snowflakes in the sun. This is clearly a summer day, when everything grows desperately, the air is full of rough vitality, even the cicadas that only live for one season are also neighing happily.
Everything is flourishing, only he is cold.
The snow finally melts in summer.
Shen Yi, the eldest son of King Zhao Wen, was named Bai Wu. Few talents are famous and well-versed in political affairs. At the age of twelve, he was granted the crown prince and went to Zhou to receive gifts and met Ji Yu. Fourteen-year-old Zhi Yan had a close relationship with Ji Yu, and they both fell ill due to poisoning. In another five years, Yan died and returned to Zhao. He was weak and unable to support himself and asked to abolish his position.
At the age of twenty-five, Shen Yi died in a dream after completing his work "Tax Reform Case".
The king of Zhao mourned, and the whole country was buried in plain onyx.
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goodbye old white