MTL - Seizing Dreams-Chapter 44 Confess

This relationship was naturally opposed by Lin Xun, who hoped to cultivate Chen Yukai, let him teach in Colombia, and act as his assistant. However, in the course of teaching assistants, falling in love with undergraduates will greatly affect Chen Yukai's future.

Liang Jinmin encouraged Chen Yukai. As long as he recognized his own intentions, don't be afraid, take the initiative to resign, or change to a university, or even put down his studies to re-plan his life.

Chen Yukai suffered from a period of loss, and Longsheng also realized that although Chen Yukai is only in his own world, Chen Yukai’s life cannot be his own. Longsheng didn't understand his feelings and never said it. He chose to avoid and withdraw. He decided not to drag Chen Kaikai and prepare to drop out to Japan. Just before submitting the application for withdrawal, he asked Chen Yukai to accompany him to Argentina to see Iguazu Falls.

On that trip, Chen Yukai finally looked at his own mind. For him, Longsheng was like a dose of medicine, which made him forget everything, indulged in it, and felt real happiness. He seems to be born for him and live for him.

After returning to school, the efficacy of love was over. Chen Yukai had to face the anger of Lin Xun and the class complaints of Liang Jinmin. On one side is the profession he loved since he was a child, and on the other is the future of Longsheng. Finally, in the case of Lin Xun’s remarks, the school finally opened its doors to remove Chen’s position and let him continue to follow Lin’s postgraduate studies.

Lin Xun thought about matching Chen Yukai and letting his proud students marry an old friend's daughter. As a result, Chen Yukai and an undergraduate did not talk about it, but also came out at home. It was an earth-shattering and finally broke off family relationships. Domestically speaking homosexuality, it has always been to understand tolerance, but it falls to your own son, not. Chen Yukai was bent on his own way. After resigning as a teaching assistant, he lived with Longsheng.

After the feelings stabilized, Lin sought to ask Chen Yukai to spend more time on learning and topics. After Chen Xiaokai spent the sweetheart of the initial period of love, he began to gradually calm down and consider the future planning.

However, Chen Yukai and Longsheng are like all lovers who have entered the period of friction and have entered the friction period. They have begun to face various problems in their lives, such as... Longsheng needs to be accompanied and Chen Yukai must be in school most of the time. Do the subject; Longsheng's emotions Chen Yukai occasionally ignore; the attitude towards the family is different, to friends, to relatives, to the mentor... and so on, Chen Yukai first fell in love, a little bit of a problem that emerged in a flash Unprepared, ignored the feeling of Longsheng.

He needs time to study and study, and he is used to being alone. In fact, for many years, he spent a lot of time on his studies, and he rarely cared about the ideas of people around him. The move to live with Longsheng is tantamount to entering a marriage, and he has no clear understanding of how to run a marriage.

"I still remember that Longsheng always woke up in the middle of the night." Chen Yukai thought for a moment and said, "Turning around and holding me, he is too afraid to lose me..."

Yu Yu and Zhou Sheng listened quietly, and the coffee was already cold.

Chen Yukai said: "I was very tired at the time, very tired and tired. I hope he is a little quieter. I am always tired during the day, but I don't get enough sleep at night. Sometimes I am in the research room, even a little bit. I am afraid to go back. During that time, we said very little, I am always afraid, I don’t know when, he will suddenly be angry, yelling at me... You have not talked about love, you don’t understand that feeling. ""

The responsibility of "home" has become more and more heavy for Chen Yukai. He tried to communicate well with Longsheng, but after every time he said it, after a few days, everything will be changed back to the original. Then one thing happened, causing a devastating blow to their relationship -

—— A friend of Longsheng borrowed his mobile phone and found a small video of their sex, passed it to his mobile phone, and then circulated it in a small area. Finally, he did not know who was transferred to Tumblr, which caused quite a stir.

Yu Wei: "..."

Zhou Sheng: "..."

"It has been deleted." Chen Yukai said, "There are still some methods that have been downloaded. When I was together, I was overwhelmed by love and took a few paragraphs. Later I almost shot the friend of Longsheng. Fortunately, under his dissuasion, the cliffs are leap... Sometimes I feel that in my character, there is a kind of hysterical violence, but in most cases it is deeply hidden."

Yu Yu suddenly remembered the way that Chen Yukai solved the problem that night.

"In fact, many foreigners like to shoot." Zhou Sheng opened the topic and said, "The same **** is the same, how do you want to keep your memories when you are young?"

Chen Yukai laughed and said, "You should be not interested. I don't want to search for it. It's too embarrassing, but it shouldn't be found."

I am busy saying: "I... I promise never to search!"

"Longsheng has been apologizing to me for that matter." Chen Yukai sighed and said, "I am really upset, the attitude of the students, the discussion behind the friends... I can’t stand it, and Many people ran to my INS to leave a message..."

"Longsheng should be the most uncomfortable." Yu Yu said.

"Yes." Chen Yukai said, "But later, I proposed that we should calm down for a while. I want to finish my graduation thesis and take him to South America, we have traveled to Peru. Machu Picchu, went to many places... to marry the white chapel at the southernmost tip of the world."

Having said that, Chen Yukai stopped and raised his hand and pressed his eyes with his wrist.

Yu Yu reached out and covered Chen Hankai's hand on the back of the hand holding the coffee cup. Zhou Sheng also reached out and the two men covered him.

"Thank you." Chen Yukai said with a smile. "After that time, I was in my heart and didn't say anything to anyone."

Soon after, Longsheng came back. Chen Yukai noticed that Longsheng’s mental condition was a bit wrong. He took him to the doctor and found that he was suffering from depression. The genetic factors of family history, the insecurities in love, anxiety, and the video that eventually spread out make him blame himself, facing all "goodwill comforts"... This is a physiological problem that requires attention to take medicine. During that time, Chen Yukai was so busy that he wanted to give up his graduation thesis. Longsheng insisted that he be busy, otherwise he would not stay with him.

Chen Yukai had to supervise him to take medicine on time and bought the tickets. He was prepared to take Longsheng together after the defense ended. However, on the day of the reply, Longsheng did not come as he said and had dinner with Chen Yukai.

He left home alone. Chen Yukai immediately went to the police, the police did not accept, the reason is that it does not constitute a missing, Chen Yukai learned that Longsheng himself changed the ticket, the day from New York to Argentina. He chased Argentina and went to their small hotel...

"He has committed suicide." Chen Yukai said calmly.

"At the time of arrival, the scene was cleaned up, the hotel changed the sheets, and several workers were asked to paint the wall. The police asked me to see a gun he had bought from the black market and put it in a plastic pocket." Exclaimedly, "I remember every little detail of the day... his body was covered with a white sheet of paper, and the blood was drained..."

"Don't think about it, Kaikai." Zhou Sheng said, "This is not your fault."

Chen Yukai smiled and said: "The outside of Chichen Itza has a wide market. It is said that in the ancient customs of the Maya, in the competition, the captain of the victory party will become a sacrifice and be cut down. The head is dedicated to the gods."

"Longsheng likes to watch me play. I was kicking a ball for him in front of the tourists that day." Chen Yukai whispered, "Kick the ball from the square and cross the hoop for the game, maybe At that time, I already liked him... I was willing to dedicate the rest of my life to my life."

"In the middle of Chichen Itza, there is a well. Longsheng said that he believes that it is the road of the Mayan reincarnation. He always wanted to come from this life until that life. He knew that I didn't love him, but he thought And I made a wish at the well, I will be my best friend in my life, and the next life will go further. He wants to be my lover."

"I feel that his love for me is so deep that I can reach the end from the reincarnation. But I think that the life of 'I love you too' is enough to have the courage to say why I have to wait for the afterlife. ?"

"Well, the story is over, I have to go."

After a long silence, Chen Yukai finished the last bit of coffee and got up and said, "When sitting in the nursing room, listening to your story, I want to comfort you, Yu Yu, but I understand that the power of speech is limited, I I can only say that you can treat me as your friend and as a big brother who is willing to listen to you."

"I also know that I didn't know how to comfort you that night; just like you didn't know how to comfort me this morning. Saying everything is pale and powerless, but our soul can produce one here and now. A kind of faint resonance, this resonance comes from the suffering we have suffered.” Chen Yukai laughed. “From my disappointment with another soul, I made a mistake. Since then, there has been no chance to recover, and your Life is still very long and there are more possibilities with the sun."

"Now you want to comfort my mood, just like my mood at that time, I think, this may be enough."

Chen Yukai’s luggage has only one backpack, and the rest are sent away. Go downstairs and the car is waiting outside the back door.

"I am leaving." Chen Yukai said to the two, "Hold one?"

Chen Yukai and Zhou Sheng and Yu Yu hugged each other. When they took Yu Yu, they patted him on his back and said, "Remember what I said."

Yu Yu’s eyes were red, and Chen Yukai got on the bus and left the back door.

Yu Yu and Zhou Sheng sat down in front of the steps of the teacher's dormitory. The two looked at each other and Zhou Sheng's eyes were a little red. He said: "This sunshine is really **** glaring."

Yu Yu said: "In his heart, now there is no safe haven."

Zhou Sheng asked: "Where are you going to deliver, are you paying attention?"

Yu Yuping regained his mood and pulled out his mobile phone and said, "I took one."

"Check the address." Zhou Sheng shakes the cigarette box, leaving the last one.

"Don't smoke." Yu Yu said, "It's not good for the heart."

"Pull two." Zhou Sheng pinched his nose and said, "If the nose is blocked, take two. He still didn't say that night."

Yu Wei: "Is it because of the contradiction of Longsheng, and the teacher Liang was violent, so he was..."

Zhou Sheng replied: "He speaks and does things very normal. The death of Longsheng is not the fault of Lin Xun. The domestic violence will not make him angry until he wants to kill Lin Xun... Remember his consciousness. In the world, there are thunder and lightning everywhere. He wants to ruin himself. This is a more intense behavior than taking the initiative to fall into the subconscious. He must be dragged back and asked again, is it what we guessed?"

Yu Yu looked down at Chen’s express address and thought about Zhou Sheng’s words. In the sun, Zhou Sheng looked at Yu Yu quietly, his eyes were very complicated, and his brows were screwed up.

"What's wrong?" Yu Yu looked up from his mobile phone and stunned.

"Nothing." Zhou Sheng didn't overdo it, touched out the phone, thought about it for a long while, picked up the phone, stretched his hand, and took a selfie.

Zhou Sheng: "Laugh one?"

Yu Wei: "You are sick..."

Zhou Sheng: "Laugh one."

Yu Yu looked at the camera and was photographed with Zhou Sheng. The expression was like crying and laughing, and it was like being blinded by the sun.

“Is life always so painful? Or is it only when I was young?” Zhou Sheng said.

"Always." Yu Yu replied casually. He found the address of Chen Yukai Express. When he went upstairs, he paid special attention to the courier that was transported away. He said: "This is the address of a nonprofit organization... strange... ..."

“Not surprising.” Zhou Sheng said, “He wants to donate things.”

Yu Wei: "Where will he go? I saw him loading his passport."

Zhou Sheng: "It should be returned to the United States. He has already broken his relationship with his family and will not go home. It is always dangerous to empty the house in the room. It is very dangerous... go to sleep, go. Go back and get your ID card. Open the house outside the school."

"Are you sure he will sleep later?"

Zhou Sheng said: "He didn't sleep for a long time last night. It must be very tired now. I guess he has to sleep for a while on the plane. I can't sleep anymore..." He said that he yawned: "I didn't feel much last night." sleep."

Yu Yu said stubbornly: "You slept at noon, if you can't sleep at night?"

Zhou Sheng: "Eat sleeping pills!"

It was so strange that the two boys bought sleeping pills and went to open the room. Yu Yu thought.

At noon, Chen Yukai arrived at the Bengbu Airport, passed the security check, and went to the first class.

"Don't eat." Chen Yukai said to the flight attendant, "Don't bother me later, I will sleep for a while, thank you."

In the world of consciousness.

"Look! I will say it!" Zhou Shengdao, "I am sure to fall asleep!"

Yu Wei: "Where are you going to find him?"

Zhou Sheng: "Go ahead!"

Chen Yukai’s words confirmed Zhou’s speculation that this three-story building would not be a safe haven, and they must find Chen Yukai who stayed here as soon as possible. When Yu Hao went downstairs, he looked at the dark clouds and the thundering lightning in the rainforest world.

There are more fires in the rainforest than yesterday.

The trees are still collapsing, showing the trajectory of the behemoths walking, Yu Yudao: "Zhou Sheng?"

"What?!" Zhou Sheng had already left the hotel and shouted outside. "Jump down! Ember!"

Yu Wei: "There is something coming!"

Zhou Sheng: "Run!"

Yu Yi turned over the roof guardrail, stepped on the third floor window, jumped off the second floor awning, and slid down, Zhou Sheng's off-road vehicle drove, and steadily dangled the embers.

"The egg is okay!"

"Don't make trouble!" Yu Yu took a gun and pulled the safety bolt. Zhou Sheng drove around the front door of the hotel, and put one hand on the back of the seat, turning his head and reversing.

Yu Wei: "How did you change your clothes?"

Yu Yu saw Zhou Sheng's shirt, which was actually the navy blue shirt worn by Chen Yukai when Chen Yukai and Zhongchuan Longsheng took a photo in front of the Iguazu Falls!

"What?" Zhou Sheng had no time to pay attention to his own wear. He was reminded by Yu Yi that he wore a navy blue shirt and the lower body was still a camouflage pants for cross-country military uniforms. "I don't know! I came in and wore it last time. This body is like a mother gun!"

"This is where the guns are!" Yu Yu roared.

"Yu Yu, you are sick!" Zhou Shengdao, "When you are running, do you tell me a shirt and a gun?"

"You said it first!"

"Come on!" Zhou Shenggang retired, and suddenly snarled, a black giant hit the rainforest and rushed to the hillside!

Yu Yu took the gun, and for a moment he forgot to shoot. He saw a ten-meter-high Tyrannosaurus rex, and crossed the two-person off-road vehicle. The shadow instantly covered the heads of the two.

"Wow." Zhou Sheng said, "Kai Kai this guy's brain is really big, there are dinosaurs in the dream?"

The next moment, Tyrannosaurus slammed into the hotel and collapsed the brick-and-mortar hotel. Most of the time, he said: "Go!"

The two returned to God, Zhou Shengyi stepped on the gas pedal, the off-road vehicle almost rushed down the hillside, Tyrannosaurus heard the sound, suddenly noticed the ground, followed by a "squeaky" roar, rushed towards the two!

"Where did you drive to learn?"

"No driver's license! Learn in the arcade hall!"

"Is shooting also?"

"Where is so much nonsense!" Zhou Sheng drove, carrying the embers, driving all the way down the hillside, Tyrannosaurus followed the chasing after the earth, Yu Yu turned, holding a gun, and opened the number of the king gun.

"I think I really have to learn some specialties." Yu Yu looked at the Tyrannosaurus.

Zhou Shengdao: "I think too!"

Yu Wei: "Shut up!"