MTL - Peach and Plum Do Not Speak (The Silent Cherry And Plum Blossoms)-Chapter 106
An Zhi panicked for several days, not knowing what to do, and when he was nervous, he didn't dare to contact Yan Xi.
In the days of panic, she repeatedly flipped through the WeChat chat records of her mobile phone, and analyzed it in a shrewd way.
If she knew, she couldn't be so calm, she would return her messages, call her "good," and joke that she is "little rabbit", it seems that there is nothing different...
But if she didn't know, she couldn't explain Yan Xi's indifference to her these days.
But if Yan Xi knows about it and doesn't feel anything, does it mean that she has a chance...
An Zhi bit her lip and fingers, she lost her mind several times in class.
An Zhi was so panicked that she was about to cry, and Yang Mengmeng said to her, "If you don't do it again and again, take the opportunity to confess!"
"Well, that's how Chen Wei was captured by me."
"But it's different..." An Zhi was completely at a loss. Liu Yiyi and Yan Yixi went on a trip again, and she didn't dare to disturb them, so she could only stand still.
She carried this breath until the end of the semester and the Spring Festival.
Everyone was elated, only she was uneasy. Yan Xi came back for the reunion dinner as usual on New Year's Eve.
The whole family is here, An Zhi is not too close to her, so he can only carefully pay attention to her expression.
There was nothing unusual, and he smiled at her, called her Tao Tao as usual, and told her to eat more.
After eating, An Zhi stopped her hesitantly: "Auntie, Auntie?"
Yan Xi seemed to pause for a while, then turned around and looked as gentle as usual, the corners of his mouth were slightly upturned, "Well, I happened to be looking for you on something."
An Zhi swallowed nervously, and followed her to the living room on the third floor to sit down.
Yan Xi said, "I have already sent a sum of money to your card, which your father placed with me, but it is more than the amount you saw last time. Did you receive it?"
An Zhi said "Ah", "I didn't pay attention..." She hurriedly slid away her phone, and there was an ignored text message.
She clicked a number and widened her eyes: "So many!"
She nodded, clicked her tongue, raised her eyes to look at Yan Xi, collided with hers, An Yi was stunned, Yan Xi looked at her just now, there was something hidden in her eyes, it was difficult to interpret, it was just a moment, a flash Pass.
"Well, you are all grown up, you should take care of these yourself."
"All, gave it all to me?" An Zhi was a little confused.
"Yeah." Yan Xi nodded.
"..." An Zhi scratched his hair, and his mind was in chaos for a while.
"Okay, let's go play." Yan Xi had already stood up, she didn't touch her head, and she didn't ask anything else, she just said this to her, and then she didn't say anything.
"Auntie!" An Zhi stood up and stopped her.
Yan Xi's body paused again, but she didn't turn around, "Huh?"
An Zhi's chest heaved heavily, the words had reached his mouth, but he couldn't open his mouth.
Yan Xi waited on the spot for a while, but never turned her head. She walked away without saying a word.
An Zhi lowered her head dejectedly, and sure enough... she still knew.
After the age of 30, the Chinese New Year becomes more and more dull. Especially for women like Yan Xi who have no family, they don't really care if they take vacations or not, especially this year.
Late at night, she couldn't sleep and ran to the rooftop to smoke.
In the cold winter, her face was facing the distance, and the smoke was floating.
In the past half a year, she had been too hard, and suffered physically and mentally.
, All of this is her fault. It's because she didn't care about the mind of the adolescent girl, because she didn't set the boundaries, because she didn't take good care of her, which made her feel inappropriate.
Yan Xi has read an article in recent years and remembers a sentence: "It is said that everyone needs love. If she did not get enough love from her family when she was young, if there is someone who treats her very well, she will be very happy. It's easy to feel love."
So many times, she slept with An Zhi and didn't pay attention to her proportions. It was all her fault.
Yan Xi thought of some ways. She could bring back a "boyfriend" immediately, or claim that she was dating, but this was not a good solution, and it would hurt An Zhi even more, and she didn't want to.
She couldn't completely ignore An Zhi, so the relationship they had gotten along for so many years would be in vain, and it would also hurt An Zhi.
She stood on the rooftop all night, smoking a lot of cigarettes for the first time in the world, and there was a little orange on the horizon. She hadn't figured out what to do.
I can only stay away from her moderately, and care for her as an elder. I hope that when she is older, has a wider world, and meets more people, she will sort out her own mind and understand that she is only a temporary thing to herself. The feelings are just misplaced.
Whatever your mood, the sun will always rise.
In the class, the famous Professor Robert Granham Cooks is giving a speech to them. He is an internationally recognized pioneer in the field of mass spectrometry and an academician of the National Academy of Sciences. There are many pages about his title.
The Polytechnic University finally invited him to give a speech to the students, and almost all the students' ears were perked up.
The old professor's beard was white and his smiling appearance was a bit like the KFC White Grandpa An Zhi saw when he was a child.
He described how to directly analyze lipids in blood or tissue using the Paterno-Bich reaction and tandem ion trap technology to determine the location of lipid unsaturated double bonds.
"The biosynthetic pathways of cancer cells and normal cells are different, and their ratios of lipid unsaturated isomers are also markedly different..."
In their junior year, they must determine the direction of their research. This old professor is a big bull in analytical chemistry, and Purdue University, where he teaches, is one of the top universities in the world for analytical chemistry.
After the speech, the old professor looked at their homework with admiration, answered a few questions, and chatted with the head teacher of their class.
He had a little impression of An Zhi: "You have good hands-on ability, and you are careful in doing experiments." He took An Zhi's experimental report and glanced at it. "You are still sensitive to data, and you can develop in the direction of analytical chemistry."
An Zhi was flattered.
The head teacher winked at her.
An Zhi reacted immediately, and boldly asked the old professor for the mailbox.
After class, the class teacher also told her to let her consider studying abroad. The academic research atmosphere is better. If you want to go out, you can start preparing for some exams in the second semester of your junior year.
An Zhi was a little confused. Before she went to college, she never thought about going abroad, but now she is not unmoved, but she is very hesitant. She knew that she had more expectations in her heart, and she was anxious, and this expectation had reached a point that could not be ignored.
An Zhi finally plucked up the courage to go home.
At eight o'clock in the evening, she was waiting for her in the living room, and heard the familiar sound of parking, the sound of entering and locking the door, and even noticed that she stopped when she saw the lights in the house.
Then she hesitantly called out, "Tao Tao?"
An Zhixin skipped a few times following this title, and the familiar tall body entered her field of vision.
"Auntie."
"Well, why are you back at this time? Have you eaten?" Yan Xi took off his jacket.
In the cold spring, she put the windbreaker on her hand and came over and placed it on the sofa at will.
"Well, I did." An Zhi twisted his fingers.
"Is something wrong?" Yan Xi brushed his hair, stood up again, and went over to pour a glass of water to drink.
"I'm wondering if I should apply to study abroad?"
Yan Xi's drinking water stagnated for a second or two, then took another sip, "Huh? Are you going after college?"
"Yes." An Zhi's breathing was tight, and she kept an eye on Yan Xi's expression without blinking.
Yan Xi turned her face to the side, her expression fluctuated slightly, her eyelashes trembled slightly, and her whole person seemed to be in a trance, then she raised a smile and looked at Shang Anzhi: "It's good, I also think with your grades. It’s a pity to go to an undergraduate degree, it’s the best to go for further study.”
An Zhi's eyes were so bright that she wanted to cry, but she just stared at Yan Xi, as if expecting her to say something different.
Yan Xi's throat moved, and he took another sip of water: "You are still young, it is not suitable for you to think about employment too quickly, to study abroad, whether it is the level of scientific research, or the environment is more suitable for you, and there is more scope. better views, better scenery, and better people are waiting for you.”
Yan Xi spoke very hard, trying her best to keep her voice free of emotion. Try to keep your eyes fixed on one place and look like you are thinking, instead of daring to look at An Zhi.
An Zhi's eyelashes were drawn down to cover his eyes, and his heart fell heavily.
The house was silent for a while.
Yan Xi's water glass was empty, she put it down and said, "Okay, don't think about this now, um..."
She pressed her forehead: "I'm going upstairs." She walked towards the stairs, and An Zhi suddenly stopped her and said loudly, "But, Auntie, I don't want to be too far away from you!"
"I don't want to leave you too far."
Yan Xi stopped, lowered his head, and exhaled. Then she turned around and looked at An Zhi with complicated eyes.
An Zhi was also looking at her, the tip of her nose was a little red, and her little face seemed to be expecting to be touched.
Then she ran over and threw herself into her arms. The movement was a bit big, and Yan Xi was bumped slightly by her.
An Zhi wrapped her arms around her waist, almost exhausting all her courage.
Yan Xi's eyes shone slightly, she instinctively raised her hand to stroke her head, and stopped abruptly. She let An Zhi hold her, smiled and comforted her and said, "I'm always by your side."
An Zhi's eyes buried in her shoulders froze.
"Okay." Yan Xi helped her up, "Don't cry anymore, you've grown up." Yan Xi glanced at her, An Zhi's lips moved as if she wanted to say something.
Yan Xi immediately let go of her and turned to go upstairs.