MTL - Pat Me Please-Chapter 80
Feeling dizzy, Yu Zhou and Xiang Wan finished crying and went to wash up together.
After Xiang Wan finished changing into her pajamas, Yu Zhou brought her a steam eye mask and said, "Put this on to sleep and make your eyes more comfortable, otherwise you'll wake up tomorrow morning with swollen eyes."
She still wanted to care about her, but she didn't know if Xiang Wan wanted to.
Lying on the bed, Xiang Wan took it, then patted himself beside the bed, and said, "Sit down."
"Okay." Yu Zhou sat down.
"I just lost my temper." Xiang Wan said.
She used the word she didn't understand before, but now she understands, she "breaks the defense".
"This is not a glass heart, Wanwan." Yu Zhou told her gently.
Xiang Wan thought about it again, and said, "I just washed and changed my clothes, and thought about my past with you, and I thought, maybe, at some point, you also fell in love with me, right?"
Yu Zhou wanted to speak.
"It's just that this fascination is too insignificant compared to your love. It was blown back by the storm before it broke through the ground. Or, you didn't realize it yourself."
"If you don't think so, let me think so. I have the final say." She looked like she wanted to give her desperate first love a little thought. It's like burying a beloved kitten with its favorite ball of wool.
The tone was a little rascal, Yu Zhou smiled, she knew that Xiang Wan said this to make Yu Zhou feel less guilty, and seemed to alleviate the regret between them. She has always been such a girl with high emotional intelligence and sense of proportion.
She knew that Xiang Wan chose to be her friend.
The eyes are a little hot again.
"Will I really meet someone better in the future?" Xiang Wan asked her.
Yu Zhou curled his lips and tucked the quilt up for her: "It stands to reason that I should comfort you. But in fact, it's really hard to say. When you meet someone, it might be like leeks in the field. One crop is not as good as one." Stubble."
"Puchi", Xiang Wan smiled: "Then you are the nice-looking leek?"
"It's okay." Yu Zhou groaned, and then said, "Go to sleep."
Xiang Wan smiled: "Good night, Leek."
"Good night," Yu Zhou thought for a while, then said, "Happy New Year."
"Happy New Year."
Back in the room, it was almost a little bit sooner, Yu Zhou was still a bit uncomfortable pressing his sore neck and twisted old waist, she had to let Ms. Zhao take a look tomorrow to see if there was any safflower oil or something.
Speaking of the waist, I thought of Su Chang again. I don't know if she was going to drive back and her waist was about to break, but she was not in a hurry to look at the phone, but sat on the bed first and watched the fireworks that hadn't stopped for a while.
Because she knew that if Su Chang arrived, he must have sent her a message, but she didn't want to read it at all, because she would definitely reply after reading it, and maybe she couldn't help but want to talk to her.
But she was a little scared, and she didn't know what she was afraid of.
After calming down for a while, she picked up the phone.
Sure enough, there was a WeChat message, which was sent after 11 o'clock, and Su Chang sent two words: "It's here."
She thought about it, Su Chang should have fallen asleep, but she was worried that she was still waiting for her reply, so she sent a few words: "That's good."
Su Chang really didn't sleep, and sent her a voice message: "I thought you were asleep."
"No." She also replied in voice.
Su Chang's text message came again: "I want to call you, is it convenient?"
"It's not convenient." Yu Zhou said.
There was no reply from Su Chang.
She keenly felt that there was something wrong with Yu Zhou's emotions, but she didn't want to tell herself. She's not good at guessing minds, so when Yu Zhou started to evade and hide things, she was a little bit uncertain.
Worrying about gains and losses, she changed her position and experienced it once.
Yu Zhou thought for a while, Su Chang was so tired and hadn't rested yet, so she should be waiting for her, but her current attitude seemed to make her feel a little overwhelmed.
So she called Su Chang.
"Hello?" The other end answered quickly, and the voice was a little hoarse.
"Why don't you sleep yet?"
Yu Zhou tried to use his voice as much as possible, but Su Chang was very sensitive to voice, and he knew she had cried once he heard it.
"Did something happen?" Su Chang asked.
"It's nothing." Yu Zhou said sullenly, and suddenly asked her again, "Su Chang, do you remember the person you liked when you were eighteen? Was it a boy or a girl? Secret love also counts."
She only knew that Su Chang had never been in a relationship before, but she never asked about her secret love history, for fear that she would be jealous. Because if someone can't even love Su Chang, he must be a very good person.
The other end was silent for a while, and said to her: "I have never liked anyone else."
"Ah?" Yu Zhou gently asked a question.
Su Chang smiled, and said lightly: "I have never liked anyone. The first person I fell in love with was a girl. I met in the hospital. She was holding a basin, plastic and green. There was also a bag of tissues, In blue wrapping, rolled paper."
She was talking about her past with Yu Zhou very gently, but Yu Zhou's tears suddenly came down, she really loves to cry today.
"You're so lucky," she said.
The person you like for the first time, loves you very much.
Most people don't have that luck.
"Yes," Su Chang said, "but later, we didn't go on, and we don't know if we have a chance to go on. But I'm fighting for it."
"Why did you fight for it? You didn't want to end this relationship." Why did you make yourself so humble?
Yu Zhou couldn't bear it a little bit.
"Because I was also wrong, because that girl made me understand that being together and being in love are two different things. When we love someone, we just need to mobilize our heart. It is not asking for a relationship, and it may not be related to giving. But if you want to manage a relationship, It’s asking, giving, and exchanging, like a cooperation, like a sale.”
"Equivalent exchanges can make cooperation healthy and long-term, and any cooperation requires wisdom and judging the situation."
"I didn't realize this before. I dealt with a lot of work cooperation with my heart, striving for equality and mutual benefit, but I didn't treat the one I should be most serious about."
"I thought that when it came, it was there. I thought that when we were together, we would be happy. I didn't think about how to make the two of us, in this life-long cooperation, both happy." There is a sense of mutual benefit."
"My partner is wasting himself, consuming himself, tolerating this cooperation, and sacrificing to maintain it, but I didn't realize these unfair terms."
So Su Chang is now chasing and fighting for the second opportunity for cooperation.
It doesn't matter if she's the one who got dumped, it's just because she wants to win.
Su Chang is not stupid at all, it's just that he didn't have a clue before. And these things, after Yu Zhou had a frank and honest talk with her, she figured it out.
"Su Chang..." Yu Zhou was a little at a loss for words.
She never thought that Su Chang could think so clearly. Yu Zhou felt that she was the lucky one. The people around her were growing up, and they gradually treated her with an increasingly mature view of feelings.
Be it friendship or love.
They are all telling her that her friends and her lover cherish her very, very much.
Stop feeling sorry for yourself, she told herself.