MTL - Pat Me Please-Chapter 73
Still A8.
The familiar recording studio, the familiar Peng Houzhi, the familiar Diandian, the familiar Su singing in the observation window.
It’s winter in a blink of an eye, and everyone is wearing thicker clothes. Peng Houzhi is wearing black skinny jeans, a pair of long knee-high boots, and a big brown sweater on top. Her hair is still very curly. set aside.
Yu Zhou suddenly remembered how he saw her in the summer, with a white shirt, a black skirt, and a straight lipstick, making her very difficult to get close to.
The Shrine is coming to an end today.
Yu Zhou didn't know what to say.
In just one radio play, it seemed that she had changed drastically.
For example, if a girl like Peng Yuzhi was met on the street, she probably would not feel that she was the same as her. How could she have a lot of conversations with the flaming red lips in 10cm high heels in an ordinary T-shirt?
But now she has seen her hiccupping on the sofa after eating too much, and she has seen her falling headfirst into her own door when she was drunk.
Human beings are a subject of knowledge, which needs to be entered and explored.
Getting along is also a science, it is to change your heart for your heart.
The last line Su sang was the curtain call for the last episode of the recording.
she says-
"The original work of the Eight Great Imperial Envoys, the second season of the urban supernatural lily radio drama "Sacred Altar", the fifteenth issue, the final chapter."
She recorded today while sitting, and found a swivel chair with high feet, with her back facing them wearing headphones and a microphone in front of her.
After recording this sentence, she planted one foot on the ground, lightly stepped on the rail of the high chair with the other, and turned the chair slightly.
This little action brought Yu Zhou back to reality in an instant.
Peng Yuzhi listened to it again, confirmed that there was no problem, asked Diandian to save the project files, and then said to Su Chang: "Okay, we can go out."
But Su Chang didn't come out, she just turned the chair to the side of the glass window, seeing Peng Houzhi looking at her, she put her right hand on the edge of the chair, stretched out her index finger, and slowly and pointedly stroked halfway. a circle.
Yu Zhou understood the action of clearing the scene. She was about to go out consciously, but she saw Peng Yuzhi snorted with a smile, looked at Su Chang, and then patted on the shoulder: "Let's go out after saving, and have something to eat."
"That's it." Dian moved the mouse twice.
The two stood up, Su Chang sat inside and shook the chair left and right, Yu Zhou glanced at her, and wanted to follow Peng Yuzhi out, but saw Peng Yuzhi pointing to the seat where he was sitting just now, and said to her, "You, sit there."
"Ah?" Yu Zhou couldn't react.
"Oh, sit there." Peng Houzhi pressed her shoulders and pushed her onto the stool.
Then he and Diandian went out one after the other and closed the door.
Yu Zhou became nervous because she and Su Sing were the only ones left in the recording studio. She knew that Su Chang wanted to talk to her, but she didn't know it would be so soon, she thought it would be at the finale banquet, or even sooner, it would be after they finished work and had dinner today.
But Su Chang seemed to be in a hurry and was ready to be in the recording studio.
Su Chang glanced at her, moved his throat, then turned around, still wearing earphones, with his back to her and facing the microphone.
Yu Zhou looked at her back, she was wearing a big gray sweater, black pants, and Martin boots today, casual and comfortable.
A good speaker in a recording studio can maximize the characteristics of the voice, including flaws.
So Yu Zhou heard it. Before she spoke, she took some nervous breaths.
Then there were voices coming from the stereo, coming from all directions.
The person inside said, "The author is great."
Yu Zhou's heart was pounding.
"Have you listened to all the recordings, are you satisfied with Shen Bai's CV?"
The voice is so gentle, so gentle, like a boat made of bright moon in the deep sea night.
"Uh..." Yu Zhou's voice tightened, "I'm satisfied."
She saw the back of the person inside turned his head slightly, as if telling her with small movements that she couldn't hear clearly.
So Yu Zhou followed Peng Yanzhi's example, leaned closer to the microphone in front of him, and repeated: "Satisfied."
The words had apparently entered the earphones, as she heard the man wearing them, laughing.
damn...
"Then, the recording is over, can I ask you some questions?" Gently, as if afraid of disturbing her.
"Well, yes." Yu Zhou took a deep breath, she thought about ten thousand ways to talk, but really, she never thought about this one.
Communicating through the microphone and earphones, the person inside only gave her a back view that looked like she was working.
She heard Su Chang sigh, and the first question seemed very difficult.
She asked, "Zhouzhou, do you have someone you like?"
A little apprehensive, but not obvious. If it wasn't for the sound effect, Yu Zhou probably wouldn't be able to hear it.
She suddenly understood why Su Chang used this method. She was too used to forbearance, and she was too unaccustomed to confessing, but she only had this chance. She hoped to use the best equipment to open up all the emotions she had hidden. Let Yu Zhou hear clearly.
But being surrounded by such a voice is very bewitching, so bewitched that Yu Zhou's limbs and bones are a little out of control.
"I have."
As soon as the words came out of her mouth, Yu Zhou immediately fell in love with this method, because she could look at Su Chang's back unscrupulously.
It's been a long, long time since I stared at her so intently.
Su Chang's gentle breathing sound showed that she was not very surprised, but she was also very nervous. She asked again: "Is it someone I know?"
"Yes." Someone you know.
"Is it me?" This sentence was annoyed.
"It's you."
Yu Zhou never intended to hide it, from the moment she put her arms around her neck at Su Chang's house, she knew that Su Chang had already guessed almost the right thing.
She heard a long, slow inhalation, then exhaled softly, and then heard a very light laugh, a little bit of pleasure, but also a little...aggrieved.
"Then you...then why did you say..."
"Su Chang," Yu Zhou moved closer to the microphone, his voice trembling, "The problem between me and you has never been about liking or disliking, I have always liked you, I liked you before, and I still do now. You came to me, but I didn't." Way to control, because I just like you, but..."
Her voice trembled more and more, so she had to stop, swallow the grievance in her mouth, and then speak slowly.
The figure in the recording studio moved, and Su Chang seemed to turn around.
Yu Zhou quickly stopped her: "Don't move, don't turn around, listen to me."
Sure enough, Su Chang stopped, and stayed there quietly, pinching the side of the chair with his fingers, a little helpless.
Yu Zhou looked at this person whom he had loved for more than four years, and she always made her very sad.
"Our problem is inappropriateness. You can't help but feel that in the second half of our relationship, we have nothing to say. Every day when you open your eyes, you are not there, and when you close your eyes, you still have no work. Sometimes I just I can only see you sleeping next to me when I’m half dreaming and half awake. Sometimes we don’t speak a word for a whole day, and you and I make love when we get home. At that time, I feel that we are both familiar and strange.”
Obviously the physical distance is a negative number, but she doesn't know what she is thinking and doing all day long.
Su Chang wanted to speak, but only breathed a sigh of relief, then gave up and listened to her quietly.
"You don't understand me when I tell you about my work. I also think that what I said seems to annoy you. It seems that every day I care about the intrigue between my colleagues and what the boss said to me today. Do you have any opinions on me? You don’t understand why she has opinions on me. Over time, I have forgotten which unhappy things I have told you, and which unhappy things I have not told you. "
"And those jobs of yours are too far away from me. I didn't know anything about public opinion on the Internet at that time," she smiled. "I'm so confused. I've never experienced this. Worried, or you are facing something that is not so good, so you don't want to tell me."
"I thought you weren't interested." Su Chang finally couldn't help it, and replied.
"I wasn't that interested at the time, because I didn't like that high-ranking Su singing on the Internet at that time." Her voice was a little choked up.
There are so many people on the Internet who love you, they seem to know you so well, they know every drama of yours, even if it’s a guest appearance, they can know your next work arrangement through clues, what you like, what you don’t like, you What is more likable in your personality and what is your taboo, you can see it more clearly than I who share the same bed with you.
Too many people treat her like a treasure, and Yu Zhou, who has never been recognized before, looks like an outsider.
They would even swear: "Susu is straight. She was in a certain interview on a certain day of a certain year, and the host asked her boyfriend. She laughed and said she had no comment."
The Internet pieced together a Su Chang, a Su Chang who was completely different from her girlfriend.
The fact that she was not recognized left her with no position to refute.
Su Chang's back seemed to be shaking, and Yu Zhou's voice was so sour that she couldn't restrain it. Her tears fell, which made her grateful for this way of talking, which preserved the basic decency of the two of them.
At least they won't see that they are crying in front of each other.
"I understand a little bit now, because I also have some fans. They will send me private messages to say good morning and good night every day. They will care about my emotions, afraid that I will be unhappy. They are very nervous about me. They are like me on the Internet. I have a little understanding that they don’t need to like the real me, they may like a certain side of me, or maybe they just like an imaginary symbol, or they only like the fact that they like me. It’s something that provides emotional value to them, so it doesn’t seem to matter that much about who I really am.”
At least in her relationship with online fans and friends, they are sincere to each other, and the wonderful misunderstandings caused by poor information and never meeting each other may not necessarily make mistakes.
"Now I understand you a little bit and separate the two-dimensional and three-dimensional feelings." Yu Zhou said.
Su Sang slowed down for a while before opening his mouth: "Then..."
"Then, can these be resolved?"
"Frankly speaking, this seems to be ok. And we don't have communication problems. It seems that after I leave the company and participate in your work environment, it can be resolved. But there is still, about our lives."
"En." Su Chang signaled her to continue.
"I used to always think that when two people are together, there are some habits that need to be adjusted to each other, but I later realized that in fact, whether you take out the garbage or waste food is very small. If it is a normal couple, they may be noisy and scolding, you move today, I will change it tomorrow, and then go on like this. "
"But Su Chang, our problem is that before today, you never thought that I cared so much about whether I took out the garbage, whether I cleaned the house, whether you put the food in the refrigerator, these little things, right?"
Su Chang was silent, and then said: "Yes."
"Yes, the problem is that I dare not."
I dare not ask her repeatedly, and dare not quarrel with her because of this.
"Because I know that you have always lived like this. I don't think the running-in with me means that you have to accommodate my consumption level and my frugal lifestyle than you. I'm afraid you think that you are with me. Together, consumption downgrades, I'm afraid you will need to lower your original standard of living to accommodate me."
"I'm not." Su Chang choked up a little.
"I know you don't think that way, but I will. So, I have a problem Su Chang, I have a problem. I don't have the confidence to pick the moon. I don't feel in my heart that the moon should come to me. "
She stifled her sobs, it sounded like she was just exhaling slowly.
"During this time, being friends with you is actually a little more comfortable than being lovers. We don't have to force ourselves to live together. We go out to eat and chat occasionally. I don't have to think so much."
"But I think so much." Su Chang said hoarsely.
Her back trembled slightly, and she continued: "But I think so much, I want to have you, I want you, I want to see you every day, I want to rely on each other with you, I want to grow old with you forever. "
I will think a lot about you, see a place, hear a story, and you are included in all the plans about companionship.
"You are just not reconciled now, because you have been broken up for no reason." Yu Zhou said.
"I'm not reconciled." Su Chang shook his head, "When we first broke up, I was very hurt and angry, and I wanted to never look for you again. Every day I told myself to forget it, she doesn't like me anymore."
Her voice changed, with a thick nasal sound, and the ending trembled, even the most professional sound workers could not control it.
"But when all the emotions calmed down, I only realized one thing, that is, I still want to be with you."
It's not that I'm unwilling, it's that there is really no other way.
But she didn't know how to stalk a person if she said she didn't like her, so she waited for a chance to meet again in the day after day of restraint, not too much, grandiosely, Approach her with dignity.
"After meeting you again, I've been thinking that maybe you don't like me anymore, it's just that there are some things that I didn't do well enough. I guess every day, what is it that I didn't do well, but..." But she got a very difficult test paper, and she was not sure about every question, and she didn't even know if there was a teacher who graded the test paper.
"You said, if I want to get in touch with you, it is downgrading my consumption, but what if I think that the most expensive thing in the world, and what I want most, is you?" Su Chang squeezed the seat tightly, but his voice was lowered. Very light.
Yu Zhou never knew how precious she was. She was enthusiastic, kind, sincere, yet sensitive. She could empathize with many things, even a blade of grass. She had the most unrestrained imagination, but she could live the most down-to-earth life. life.
She is the most romantic person Su Chang has ever met. The romance lies in that she is a combination of reality and unrealism.
"Zhouzhou, do you know?"
Su Chang swallowed his throat.
"I can find a hundred people who are suitable for me, I can find a hundred roommates who get along well, but I..."
"I can only love such a person heartbreakingly."
Fit is important, but isn't love? Isn't love hard to come by? Should love be given up?
If she is not reconciled, it is just that she is not reconciled in love and other options, the former is the one that was given up.
Yu Zhou was speechless, her vocal cords seemed to be firmly grasped by Su Chang, her heart swelled so disobediently, she wanted to occupy her whole body.
"I heard what you said. I will try to do it, and I will try my best to tell you. But, can you give us a chance, I don't want to force you, let's let nature take its course, okay?"
Su Chang finally asked her this question.
In my proudest and most vulnerable field, through the most top-level equipment, I asked her this.
Yu Zhou was shaken, she admitted, she was really shaken.
She sucked in her wet nasal cavity and agreed.
"Okay, let's go with the flow."
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Yu Zhou said, "I don't have the confidence to pick the moon. I don't feel in my heart that the moon should come to me." Of course I will not try to pick the moon, I want the moon to come to me)
"Moon" refers to "sweetheart".