MTL - I Lost My Memory Before the Divorce Was Agreed-Chapter 62
For a while, the diagnostic room fell into dead silence.
Psychiatrists also know that it is difficult to get patients to say something about psychological damage, and there will be inner struggles for a while, but it is also necessary.
Lu Yuanbai looked at the medical record table on the table, "I have a previous diagnosis record, can I use that to prescribe medicine?"
"It's not impossible, but it depends on the time of the last diagnosis."
Lu Yuanbai lowered his eyes, "The last time I went to the hospital for a diagnosis was seven months ago."
The doctor got embarrassed when he heard it, "How many doses of medicine were you prescribed last time?"
"Three months."
Although the doctor knew from the interview just now that Lu Yuanbai has been suffering from insomnia for four or five years, he did not expect that the local hospital would prescribe such a large dose of medicine for Lu Yuanbai. Obviously, the symptoms have not been fundamentally resolved. The only way is to use medication to relieve sleep.
The human body's mechanism is also balanced, and if there is a lack of sleep, the healthy part will also be threatened by a large part.
The doctor looked at Lu Yuanbai and said, "Mr. Lu is no longer effective because your previous diagnosis has been in place for half a year. Now you must re-diagnose before you can prescribe the medicine."
Lu Yuanbai's long and slender fingers curled slightly in his sleeves.
Those past made it difficult for him to speak, and now asking him to say it again is like tearing open the scarred wound again, dripping with blood.
Knowing that Lu Yuanbai was reluctant to talk, the doctor tried to start a conversation with him, "Mr. Lu, you also said that the psychological factors are the main cause of your insomnia symptoms. Have you seen a psychiatrist?"
"Yes" Lu Yuanbai nodded.
"How often should I visit?"
People like Lu Yuanbai who have professional psychological problems are no longer a minority, and more or less they all need to see a psychiatrist.
"About four or five months."
The heart doctor said, "Then do you think your insomnia has improved after seeing it?"
Lu Yuanbai's eyes were light blue and black, and he was very tired, "No."
No matter how many times he went to see the symptoms, the symptoms only increased, as if the disease had planted seeds in him, and it had grown into a huge monster in the past five years.
The psychiatrist looked ugly after hearing this, and then asked very seriously, "Mr. Lu, do you often have thoughts of suicide?"
Lu Yuanbai was silent for a while, "Occasionally."
The psychiatrist took a deep breath, "Does Mr. Lu care about anyone?"
As soon as these words came out, the figure of a man flashed in Lu Yuanbai's mind, and then he smiled slightly bitterly.
"Yes" Lu Yuanbai, "my mother."
Lu Yuanbai didn't lie, and all the spiritual support in the past five years was only Ms. Lu Wanfang.
Without his mother still waiting for him behind him, Lu Yuanbai felt that he would really not be able to hold on.
Even with him, there are still many responsibilities, his employees and his fans, who care that he regards him as a person to rely on and rely on, and Lu Yuanbai can't leave them behind.
They are a kind of responsibility and also a kind of pressure, heavy and breathless, but they cannot be let go.
Psychiatrist, "Did the hospital prescribe any other drugs for you before?"
Lu Yuanbai nodded, "But some medicines have side effects and sleeping pills will conflict, so I don't take them often."
The psychiatrist sighed after hearing that, Lu Yuanbai's symptoms were more serious than he thought.
"Mr. Lu, I will give you some time to soothe yourself, and then I will question you."
Now Lu Yuanbai is reluctant to talk about the past, the doctor gives the other party a space for himself, and waits for the other party to calm down to see if he can ask.
After speaking, the psychiatrist left the diagnosis room and went to the cubicle.
For a while, only Lu Yuanbai was left sitting in a chair in the diagnosis room.
Lu Yuanbai looked at his name on the medical record and did not move for a long time.
He didn't have so many problems before, but now he seems to have become a medicine jar.
He wasn't like this before, and Lu Yuanbai shouldn't be like this either.
At the age of eighteen, when Lu Yuanbai first entered the entertainment industry, deep down in his heart, he was still the young master who was pampered and raised. I have seen it and even felt it.
At the age of twenty, Lu Yuanbai still believed in the feelings between people in this world.
At that time, Lu Yuanbai worked frantically to earn money, not just money for lawsuits, but his mother suffered a lot because of his marriage. Whether it was Shen Kangyong's man or her family, they were persecuting this poor woman.
Let her not endure it without knowing what to do, and gradually some problems have arisen in her body.
At that time, Lu Yuanbai was exhausted and only hoped that he would be able to earn money quickly.
At that time, Lu Yuanbai had just finished filming a small role in Director Zhang's film, but he had not yet become popular before the film was released, and it was difficult to move in the entertainment circle of this Lichang.
Because of his mother's physical condition, he went to beg Lu's family. At the beginning, Lu Wanfang accompanied Shen Kangyong, a poor boy who started from scratch, and suffered a lot. After he became rich, his parents' family also depended on his daughter and did a lot of business. is wealthy.
However, when Lu Yuanbai wanted to come and borrow money, he was turned away.
"Yuanbai, let's go, we don't have any money to lend you, and your mother's illness is not a serious illness that doesn't require much money."
Looking at the dark-faced and indifferent uncle Lu Yuanbai in front of him, he felt unfamiliar for the first time. It was different from before. They were not like this when Lu Yuanbai accompanied Lu Wanfang back to her parents' house.
They always looked at themselves with a smile, and it was always good to play around with him.
"My uncle and my mother's illness is caused by a heart disease, and the treatment can't be delayed. I hope you can..."
Lu Yuanbai just took a step forward and grabbed Lu Ci's arm, but he was thrown away before he finished speaking, "What's wrong, I think she's squeamish, doesn't it mean that there is another nest outside the man? , it's not a big deal, and you have to live and die every day and you have to get a divorce, it's really a brain smashed!"
Lu Yuanbai couldn't believe what he heard for a while.
"And you." Lu Ci turned his head, "It's not that my uncle said you, you are a big man and a little girl, you can make money yourself if your mother is sick, or you have to borrow money from others, and what are you doing now? I feel ashamed to say those things out of the public eye."
"Look back and tell your mother that she deserves to do this now. Tell her to figure it out and hurry back to Shen's house, don't be ashamed."
Lu Yuanbai looked at the person in front of him with a pair of peach blossom eyes, his hands clenched into fists, "How can you say that to my mother?"
Lu Yuanbai was so angry that he stepped forward and grabbed Luci's collar, "She's still your sister, how can you say that to her!"
He had never seen the face of the person in front of him, as if the person standing in front of him was not a human at all, but an emotionless beast.
"You relied on my mother to live before, but now you say that to her, do you still have a conscience!"
Lu Wanfang accompanies Shen Kangyong to start from scratch, and after that, his career has grown bigger and bigger.
Before, the Lu family was just a poor family living in a small town. Lu Wanfang had an older brother and a younger brother. Growing up in a patriarchal family, Lu Wanfang lived a particularly hard life.
And Lu Wanfang's brother oppressed Lu Wanfang based on his gender, and he was a good boy when he was cheap. It seemed that everything did not have Lu Wanfang's share for granted.
However, they all depended on Lu Wanfang to be where they are today.
Lu Yuanbai's eyes were red with anger, and blue veins burst out on his forehead and neck, "You are today because of my mother, you can live in the big house behind you because of my mother, and it is because of my mother that your son can go to aristocratic schools. Help, how can you say that to her! How can you say that to her!"
Lu Ci dismissed Lu Yuanbai's hand from his collar, "What does it mean to rely on her, isn't it all her voluntary?"
Lu Yuanbai's whole body froze in place.
"We have today, and she did help a little bit, but isn't that what it should be? Could it be that she is the only rich person living a good life, and we still live in a small town and do the white stuff?"
Saying that, Lu Ci sneered, "She's been a stupid person since she was a child, and she hasn't changed since then. You said that there's something you can't figure out. Men don't all do that. You don't know who's disgusting when you look at how she's going to die now. "
The Lu family is extremely dissatisfied with Lu Wanfang's divorce from Shen Kangyong.
The Lu family clings to the Shen family for life. If Lu Wanfang divorced the Shen family, it would be impossible for them to cling to them, and the losses would be unimaginable.
Maybe the Shen family will engage them.
Lu Yuanbai looked at the unconventional relatives in front of him, and began to feel disgusted uncontrollably. There was a lot of sweat on his forehead and his face turned pale.
"You go back and tell her to stop doing it, just hurry up when you know each other... um..."
Before Lu Ci finished speaking, Lu Yuanbai threw his arm and punched him hard.
"Beast..." Lu Yuanbai's eyes were scarlet, and the whole person was shaking with anger, "You tm beast."
Lu Yuanbai scuffled with Lu Ci in an instant, and somehow he suppressed Lu Ci to the ground and waved his fist at people desperately.
"Why do you say that to my mother! Why do you treat her like that!"
Lu Yuanbai roared, his whole person was irrational.
The woman who had raised him for more than ten years was humiliated by such words.
Even if the people on the ground had been beaten to death by him, Lu Yuanbai didn't even want to stop once.
Because Lu Ci resisted just now, Lu Yuanbai was also punched in the cheek, and now the chin on the right side has gradually turned blue.
The disturbances made by the two quickly alerted the Lu family members. In fact, they also knew today that Lu Yuanbai came to borrow money, but they stayed in the house because it was too hot outside, and did not let Lu Yuanbai enter the door at all. the meaning of.
Seeing that Lu Ci was beaten, Mr. Lu and some people also drove out, and quickly asked someone to pull Lu Yuanbai away.
At this time, Luci's nose was blue and his face was swollen, and one eye was swollen and there was only a gap left, and he couldn't see anything at all.
Seeing that someone grabbed Lu Yuanbai's two arms and pulled him away, he stepped forward and kicked Lu Yuanbai in the stomach.
"Damn, you little bastard, I'm your uncle!"
With all his strength, Lu Yuanbai snorted, but after the person holding him left, Lu Yuanbai still fell in pain and vomited acid water uncontrollably.
Seeing this, Mr. Lu frowned a little unbearably. He still had feelings for Lu Yuanbai, his grandson. No matter how old Lu Yuanbai was, he would smile every time to see him and accompany this old guy to relieve his boredom.
But now even if Lu Yuanbai fell to the ground, Mr. Lu had no intention of helping him.
Now Lu Wanfang's mother and son are obsessed, and after a little lesson and a little hardship, they might figure it out.
I don't know if this idea is to convince myself or to deceive myself, so that I don't feel guilty.
Mr. Lu turned his eyes away and stopped looking at Lu Yuanbai.
"Yuanbai, go back and tell your mother to think about it, it's not a big deal."
Lu Yuanbai fell to the ground and looked up at these people with a pale face.
He is a monster that eats people without spitting out bones, and a moth that **** his daughter's blood.
Until now, when he fell to the ground, Lu Yuanbai couldn't believe what was happening in front of him, it was like a nightmare.
They are blood relatives, and his mother is now sick and the other party refuses to lend them a penny.
It is clear that these people were only relying on Lu Wanfang before, but they are relatives who have been in relationship for more than ten years.
But Lu Yuanbai felt strange when he looked at them.
It seems that the emotions in this world are like this, and they disappear when they have no use value, or they are no longer disguised.
The love of marriage between parents is like this, and the family relationship is like this now.
His mother raised the whole family, suffered so much in a patriarchal family, and now is humiliated by blood relatives.
She accompany Shen Kangyong to suffer for half a lifetime, what did she get in the end?
All the emotions in this world are nothing but profit and greed.
Lu Yuanbai even felt that he used to be like a clown jumping off a beam, which made people laugh.
But the surprise was that Lu Yuanbai didn't have a single tear this time. Even though his eyes were very sore, he didn't have a single tear. Lu Yuanbai fell to the ground in pain and his whole body was numb.
Just when Mr. Lu wanted to say something, Lu Yuanbai said, "My mother is my grandfather's daughter, a woman who can't go home even after being wronged outside."
Then he propped himself up and stood up, looking at the people in front of him coldly, "You..."
"Disgusting!"
"Why are you kid talking to your grandfather!"
A young woman stepped forward, the wife of Lu Wanfang's younger brother.
Lu Yuanbai glanced at the woman, "Not only to him, but also to you..."
The woman suddenly wanted to step forward.
Lu Yuanbai glanced around, "You are all disgusting."
Old Man Lu's face also became ugly, "You..."
Lu Yuanbai: "This is the last time I visit you, and I won't come again."
Old Man Lu's heart tightened after hearing this.
"At the same time, I also hope that you don't go to my mother again. If you want to go back to the Shen family, you can go back by yourself, anyway..."
Lu Yuanbai looked at Lu Wanfang's two brothers, "Shameless people can live there."
Lu Temple and Lu Kan looked ugly.
"My mother is a poor person, please let her go."
After speaking, he turned around and left Lu's house resolutely.
No matter how humble he was, Lu Yuanbai knew that he couldn't borrow the money.
After that, he went to the hospital to see Lu Wanfang.
Lu Wanfang was taking a drip, and she laughed instantly when she saw Lu Yuanbai's originally sick face.
She didn't want her son to feel uncomfortable seeing her.
Lu Yuanbai sat on the edge of the bed and looked at his mother, the grievances in his heart couldn't stop rising.
"What's wrong with your chin, Bai Bai?!"
Lu Yuanbai shook his head, "It's okay, I bumped into someone just now."
Lu Wanfang looked at the bruise on her son's chin distressedly, "It's all purple, does it hurt?"
"It's okay" Lu Yuanbai held Lu Wanfang's hand that wanted to touch the wound, "Mom, I'm not a child."
After hearing this, Lu Yuanbai smiled and said, "What are you talking about, you are always a child in mother's eyes."
Lu Yuanbai's nose was sore, and Lu Wanfang also saw that her son was in a bad mood, but she didn't ask much, she knew that Lu Yuanbai didn't want to say it.
Then he said, "Come here and give you a hug. Mom hasn't hugged you for a long time."
Lu Yuanbai stepped forward and hugged his mother's thin body due to illness, biting his lower lip, the corners of his mouth trembled uncontrollably, and tears finally filled his eyes unstoppably.
Although Lu Wanfang can't see her son's face now, she also knows that Lu Yuanbai is feeling uncomfortable.
Reaching out and stroking Lu Yuanbai's head, "Baibai has grown so big, it seems like you were learning to walk by holding onto something yesterday."
Lu Yuanbai gritted his teeth, tears fell silently and wet Lu Wanfang's shoulders.
Lu Wanfang didn't pierce her son, but stroked Lu Yuanbai's hair over and over again.
The originally small child has grown so big that she can already take care of her.
"Bai Bai, you will always be my mother's pride."
That night, Lu Yuanbai didn't leave until Lu Wanfang fell asleep.
He's rushing to work, and he needs money now.
At that time, Lu Yuanbai didn't have a studio, and he had only known Lin Mu for a year, and he was also accompanied by an agent.
This agent and Lu Yuanbai are also old acquaintances. His classmates in high school were very business-minded because of their poor life. Lu Yuanbai took pity on him and asked someone to come over to help.
"Is this banquet reliable? You just let Brother Yuanbai go, what if something goes wrong?!"
"What's not surprising? It's just that a banquet can still be in trouble. Many domestic entertainment artists have gone there and there are second-tier actors. Xianhan knows that the little star who suddenly exploded in the drama just a few months ago, he also go."
After hearing this, Lin Mu still felt unreliable, "I think it's better not to go, it's not good."
After hearing this, Chen You said dissatisfiedly: "What's wrong, I can still harm Yuanbai, I went to this banquet to show up in front of those big bosses and let them know that they don't do anything if you have a person like you. Why do you resist?"
As he spoke, he glanced at Lin Mu with disdain, "Besides, Yuanbai urgently needs money now, why don't you tell him not to let him go and give you the money?"
Lin Mu was speechless for a while, but he was still very worried about the banquet in Chen You's mouth.
Chen You also came forward and said, "Yuanbai and I have known each other since high school. After so many years of friendship, I don't know how much deeper than you are. It will never hurt Yuanbai. Don't worry, besides, I'm not like that. People like that, if I am still guarding an unknown 18th-tier artist like Yuanbai? Don’t think about it, this is also an opportunity.”
The more Lin Mush listened, the more disgusted he became. Any role could be given as long as he showed up at the banquet. Those serious ones only needed the satisfaction of the audition director and staff to get the role. Now Chen You said that Lin Mu felt no way. reliable.
But he couldn't say anything. After all, what Chen You said was that Lu Yuanbai was in urgent need of money right now, and he might get a role if he went to participate, but Lin Mu couldn't help worrying about it.
When Lu Yuanbai came back, the two were still arguing.
Seeing that Lu Yuanbai didn't give Lin Mu a chance to speak, Chen You hurried forward and said, "Yuanbai, I'll help you with a job, there are many bosses, directors and second-tier stars coming to a banquet, you will be paid a lot for going tomorrow. to have this number."
Saying that, he raised a palm, "And if the director thinks you are suitable for acting, you don't have to worry about taking over the role, you will soon earn money, and your mother's illness can also be treated."
Lu Yuanbai didn't listen at all at first, but after hearing that Qian and his mother's illness could be treated, he agreed after hesitating for a while.
The hospital has asked him for medical expenses for the second time. He gave all the money on his body, but it was still not enough, so he could only trouble the hospital to give him a few more days.
Lu Wanfang's illness can no longer be delayed. He needs money now, very much.
Lu Yuanbai finally said lightly: "I'll go."
It's just showing up, this is what Chen You has repeatedly emphasized.
After seeing Lu Yuanbai's agreement, Chen You hurriedly smiled and said, "Okay, I'll go and make arrangements for you. Let's go there at seven o'clock tomorrow night."
Lu Yuanbai dragged his tired body back to the room, Lin Mu still wanted to go up and say something when he saw it, but was stopped by Chen You, "Okay, it's not a bad thing to do an ordinary banquet, Yuanbai agreed. What else do you want to say?"
Lin Mu gritted his teeth and looked at him, "Nothing is best, but don't let Brother Yuanbai suffer alone tomorrow."
Chen You seemed that he didn't say anything at a glance, and then called people with a smile on his face.
"That's right, it's really bothering you for Yuanbai to pass by tomorrow."
Lin Mu listened with a dark face, Chen You gave him a dissatisfied look, "Go, go, what are you doing here, it's rude to listen to someone calling you, and I don't know why Yuanbai let you come in the first place. Broker."
Chen You always disliked Lin Mu. He was supposed to be Lu Yuanbai's manager, but Lin Mu became an assistant after he arrived.
But Chen You didn't take Lin Mu seriously, and still occupied the manager's position.
Lin Mu glanced at him, then turned and left in disdain.
The next night, Lu Yuanbai and the others arrived at the banquet venue on time.
As Chen You said, there are quite a few artists, and there are many behind-the-scenes people in the circle.
"You take this wine of Yuanbai, and if you perform well for a while, maybe a director will find you to play the role if he likes it."
Chen You handed Lu Yuanbai a glass of wine to hold, "Don't forget to toast later."
Lu Yuanbai's expression was light, and he only came to pay Lu Wanfang's medical expenses for the reward of that palm.
Under the leadership of Chen You, Lu Yuanbai drank a lot that night, and I can't remember exactly how many cups he drank.
He only remembered that he was in a daze and wanted to find water to drink, and when he woke up, he had changed his place and was no longer at the banquet.
Lu Yuanbai was dazzled by the lights on the ceiling, and he was so uncomfortable that he could not exert any strength.
Then an unknown door opened with a sound.
Lu Yuanbai was lying on the bed in a daze, with his hands clinging to his waist and starting to unbutton his clothes.