MTL - How to Feed an Abyss!-Chapter 64 ordinary people
Shi Yuan was tossed about for most of the night, his tail trembling and knotted, and after being untied, he tied the knot again. In the end, he had no choice but to wrap his tail around Lu Tinghan's waist.
Once again he experienced the horror of human beings.
Also experienced...his devil horns and tail are simply his Achilles heel, as long as he catches him, he can't escape. And the land general is obviously good at discerning the weaknesses of others, so he played him to the bottom with no difficulty, which was extremely satisfying.
In the end, he was carried by Lu Tinghan to take a bath, and fell asleep as soon as he touched the pillow.
While half asleep and half awake, someone kissed him on the forehead.
Shi Yuan gave a confused "huh?"
"Go to sleep." Lu Tinghan said, "Good night."
The next day, when Shi Yuan opened his eyes, Lu Tinghan was sitting by the window, putting on his military shirt. Wrapped in a quilt, Shi Yuan rolled behind him, poked his head out, and saw the scar on his abdomen at a glance.
"Does the injury still hurt?" He asked Lu Tinghan.
"It's been gone for a long time." Lu Tinghan replied, turned his head and kissed Shi Yuan, "Are you free tonight, go for a walk?"
"Okay." Shi Yuan suddenly smiled.
Lu Tinghan patted his head: "You don't have any discomfort, do you?"
Shi Yuan: "There is no snoring."
After going through what happened yesterday, Shi Yuan didn't feel pain, and felt good, but his waist and the base of his tail felt slightly weak. He recalled the scene yesterday when Lu Tinghan pulled his tail and pulled him back to his side, and he still had lingering fears in his heart.
Lu Tinghan sent him to Tower No. 4, and before saying goodbye, he said, "Eight o'clock in the evening."
Shi Yuan: "I will never forget!"
He answered calls all morning on the 8th floor. Lin Yeran passed by the office with a glass of water, poked his head in and said, "Shi Yuan, someone is waiting to see you in the lobby on the 1st floor."
"See me?" Shi Yuan was surprised.
"Yeah, a man in his twenties." Lin Yeran said, "If you want to see him, go see him quickly. I'll give you 15 minutes. Come back when you finish speaking, or I'll deduct your bonus."
Shi Yuan went to the lobby, looking left and right to find someone. After a long time, I saw someone hesitantly coming out from behind the pillar.
It's Xia Fang.
Shi Yuan opened his eyes wide.
I haven't seen her for more than a year. Xia Fang has lost a lot of weight, her yellow hair has disappeared, and she has become a very short cut.
His eyes flickered, and he said hesitantly: "Shi, Shiyuan, I'm here. I've been inquiring about you for the past few weeks, and I've asked a lot of people to come here. I was thinking... I wanted to see you." He was almost at a loss, "I, I don't know, do you have time to chat at noon today?"
"Yes." Shi Yuan replied, "I have a lunch break."
Xia Fang went out of the city privately with Jiang Huachi during the peak period, stole money from the troupe, and spent almost two years in prison—now that there is a shortage of manpower, most criminals have extremely short sentences, so he was released so quickly. Tower as a porter.
During the lunch break, Shi Yuan and Xia Fang found a roadside bench, and they sat side by side. They got cans of soybeans in tomato sauce at the food distribution, and they ate them with rice.
Xia Fang stopped after eating a few mouthfuls, and asked Shi Yuan, "How are Wolfgang and the others doing?"
Shi Yuan told him: "Wolfgang has joined the army and is still fighting. Cheng Youwen and Qin Luoluo have gone to work in the main city and are doing well."
"Oh." Xia Fang wiped his hands on his trousers, and then lost his mind for a few seconds, "I received your letter in prison. I really didn't know until then that Isabella was gone. The money is for Tracy. I, I, I—”
He was speechless for a while, and after a long time he whispered: "I don't know what to say, is it because I took the money that Tracy..."
Shi Yuan: "No, she is not old enough for surgery."
"...I see, that's how it is." Xia Fang's expression didn't look good, "I really want to see her for the last time, I miss her very much. Her grave is in Gleaming City, and I can never go there again." He lost his mind again After a while, he asked cautiously, "After Gleaning City was gone, did other people... mention me again? What did they say?"
Shi Yuan thought for a while: "No, they never mentioned you again."
Xia Fang showed a very strange expression, like loss, regret, sadness, bewilderment... mixed feelings, hard to describe.
He finally said: "I have a new job now, and I will find a way to pay back the money—if you still want it, take it; if you don't, I will donate it, maybe donate it The welfare center may donate to an orphanage."
Shi Yuan asked him: "What about your mother? How is she doing? Are you not in a hurry to spend money?"
"Oh," Xia Fang quickly replied, "she died while I was still in prison. The money didn't save her."
He looked at the time, Shi Yuan's lunch break was almost over, so he said: "Go back to work, don't delay things, if there is a chance in the future...we will contact you again."
"Okay." Shi Yuan finished the last bite of soybeans and stood up, "Then I'll go back first."
He walked a few steps, and heard Xia Fang say behind him: "If there is a chance in the next life, I still hope to play a stage play with you, "Martyr"." He smiled wryly, "Although you definitely don't want to gone."
Xia Fang also got up, packed up the canned trash, turned around and disappeared into the crowd.
Shi Yuan stepped back to the No. 4 tower. Lin Yelian looked at him suspiciously, checked the time repeatedly, and finally did not deduct his bonus.
In the evening, Shi Yuan came home from get off work.
Soon he received a text message from Lu Tinghan: 【Come down】
He ran downstairs, got into Lu Tinghan's car, and went to Momo contentedly.
"Where are we going for a walk!" he asked.
Lu Tinghan replied: "On the city wall."
They went to the wall again. The night sky was clear, and the warriors hung lantern-like lights on the city walls, circles of fluffy warm light illuminated the night, while jellyfish floated in the sky far away.
They haven't come home yet.
Shi Yuan looked at the jellyfish ecstatically, thinking of Tiecheng, Lu Tinghan was already a few steps ahead of him when he didn't pay attention.
Lu Tinghan shouted: "Shi Yuan, come here." He stretched out his hand.
Shi Yuan quickened his pace and stepped forward to hold Lu Tinghan's hand. Lu Tinghan's hands were warmer than his, and bigger, with long and strong fingers, and a thin layer of gun calluses on the index finger and the tiger's mouth.
They held hands like this, walking in the cool night wind.
"Why do you suddenly come here for a walk?" Shi Yuan asked.
"Because I want to chat with you." Lu Tinghan said, "I told you last night that I'm not that firm. As long as there is no evidence, I will live in an illusion like everyone else."
Shi Yuan nodded, and quickly added: "It doesn't matter, you are still the most powerful person I have ever seen!"
"..." Lu Tinghan seemed to smile, "I also told you that I have an unharmonious family. Yu Qingmei gave birth to me just to fulfill the responsibility of reproduction and let the city have more people. ;And Lu Zhun didn't want children at first, and Tiecheng was busy with affairs, so we couldn't see him several times throughout the year. My understanding of him came from other people's mouths, such as radio broadcasts praising his achievements many times, and newspapers also published him The deeds of the logistics staff and military students I know will occasionally mention the glorious 'Colonel Lu Zhun'."
He continued: "The military rank of 'Colonel' was far away to me when I was a child, and 'Associate Academician of the Academy of Sciences' was even more unfamiliar. I don't have much affection for the two of them, but in terms of merit and dedication , I admire them very much. When I was a child, I stood on the energy tower, looking at the wilderness and the city, watching the sporadic lights in the northern city when the wind blows, thinking that one day I will be like them and become famous."
Shi Yuan said: "You have already done it, everyone knows your name."
"This happened later." Lu Tinghan explained, "For me at the time, it was unbelievable. Just a list of Lu Zhun's achievements can scare a lot of people."
He lightly stroked Shi Yuan's hand with his thumb, the delicate touch was reassuring.
He said: "My feelings for Lu Zhun are more admiration for a colonel. However, once Lu Zhun took me out of the city and taught me to dissect a mutant lizard. This incident... made me change my opinion of him. .”
Shi Yuan listened intently.
Lu Tinghan: "He personally led the team to the outside of the city. I got into his car and sat in the back seat with him. When we got there, the convoy began to hunt the lizard swarm. With the support of the aircraft, the lizard swarm was soon destroyed. We are defeated. Next, we will wait in place and continue hunting for the next group."
"At this point, he asked me if I wanted to dissect a lizard to see. I said yes, and he had the whole lizard carcass brought and put it on a blue plastic sheet by the side of the car, with a knife in it. Teach me anatomy."
Lu Tinghan looked out of the city, as if he had passed through more than ten years, and recalled that moment: "It was said to be 'dissection', but in fact he was holding a saber, which was far less delicate than the real dissection. But to It is enough for a child's small research. While cutting the skin and muscles, he explained to me how it mutates pheromones and how the whole group coordinates actions. He spoke very professionally and combined Over the past ten years of combat experience, this is something I can’t learn at home, I listened attentively, thinking that he is worthy of being a colonel, and I am too far away from this kind of person.”
Shi Yuan: "Oh..."
He was imagining the cub version of Lu Tinghan, squatting in front of the lizard corpse with his father and concentrating on research.
"However, after that operation was over, the convoy started to return. It was a long journey back, and I still sat in the back seat with him. From the rearview mirror, I saw that he looked at me and looked at me again and again, as if he was speculating. My expression. He was talking and laughing when facing the infected group just now, so he was so confident, but now looking at me, he is hesitant, even nervous."
Shi Yuan was a little confused: "Why are you nervous? Did he tell you anything?"
Lu Tinghan replied: "I just kept an eye on the rearview mirror. After seeing him hesitate several times, I coughed and pretended not to care and asked me 'By the way, what do you usually do at home? Is there anything? The place needs Dad's help?'"
"I replied to him that I've been staying with military cadets recently and followed their courses. The courses are very simple and there is no need for his help. He said 'oh', and went back to the city in silence all the way, saying goodbye At that time, he took out another 500 yuan and insisted on stuffing it into my hand, saying that you can use this to buy what you like, you can buy anything you want, snacks can be beauty magazines, remember not to tell your mother. "
"It wasn't until that time that I realized that his nervousness and hesitation were because he didn't know what to say to me. He didn't know how to maintain the relationship between father and son, and he didn't know what the child was doing or thinking, except for anatomy. The monster can only take out five hundred yuan dryly and let his son use it as pocket money."
Lu Tinghan said lightly: "It can be said that the five hundred yuan broke my illusion about him and reminded me that we still have a father-son relationship. At that moment, he changed from an admirable colonel to a A father who is not qualified at all. At that moment, I kind of hated him, hated him for becoming ordinary."
They stopped at a sentry post on the city wall.
Lu Tinghan sat down, took out a cigarette, and asked Shi Yuan, "Do you mind?"
Shi Yuan shook his head.
Lu Tinghan took out the lighter and lit it, holding it between his fingers.
He looked at the jellyfish swarm outside the city wall, and continued: "I rejected the five hundred yuan. Since then, I have never felt that Lu Zhun is far away from me, because he has a great reputation in front of outsiders, but in front of me he is just a man. Ordinary people."
He smiled: "What is an ordinary person like? A dereliction of duty father and husband, who would hesitate, feel guilty and feel guilty, would carefully please the child who had been neglected for many years, and would be at a loss after being rejected."
"Later I found out that this is true for all people, parents, elders, teachers...the more they grow up, the more they realize how ordinary they are, some of them are jealous, some are arrogant, some are conformist. I see their flaws and weaknesses , they also walked down from the 'altar', stripped of their halo, and became mediocre. Later I stood on the energy tower, thinking, one day I will surpass them, and unlike them, I will never do this mediocre."
Lu Tinghan rubbed Shi Yuan's head: "After that is the story you know, I became an admiral, everyone knows my name." The orange-red cigarette **** flickered, and he said, "Then I met you , I realized that I was a person who didn't have the courage to say goodbye and was comfortable with illusions. I ended up like them too."
Shi Yuan: "Ah." He was a little confused, "...I'm sorry?"
"It's not your fault, definitely not your fault." Lu Tinghan said, "In the end, I'm just an ordinary person. When I hated Lu Zhun and vowed to be better than everyone, I already had my ordinaryness. .”
There was fog in the distance, and the deer outside the high forest stepped out slowly, with an elegant figure.
Lu Tinghan looked at the strange infected creature and said, "I've never told anyone else that it is Lu Zhun, or a part of it is Lu Zhun. I knew it the first time I saw it. .”
No matter how much he wants to deny it, the things in his blood are common. They were both talented and proud and didn't like to express their emotions, but at this moment, Lu Tinghan recognized him.
Maybe this is father and son.
Shi Yuan thought for a while: "But. In my opinion, you have never been a perfect general."
Shi Yuan said again: "You are very, very kind. You will untie knots, take me shopping, treat me to delicious beef noodles, and accompany me to practice lines and watch my performances. You will also pretend to be Lu Tingting and talk to me. Lu Tinghan's family history, taught me to play cards and draw, and then... I'm quite tone-deaf and unqualified, and even less so in bed." He looked at Lu Tinghan, his tail wagging happily, "I don't know what an 'ordinary person' is , I don’t care about the halo or mediocrity, you have always been you.”
It was the person who had been with him for ten years and woke him up from his long dark dream.
In Shi Yuan's eyes, Lu Tinghan was equally brave, but he also knew another side of him.
Others see Lu Tinghan as superior, but when Shi Yuan sees him, he will only think that this is his human being, and he must get his touch.
That's all.
In the wilderness in the distance, the deer outside the high forest wandered in the white mist, and the jellyfish floated and danced.
They gradually disappeared into the mist.
Lu Tinghan smiled, and said after a long time: "Yes, I have never been an admiral in front of you."
The cigarette in his hand was half burned, he crushed it out, and said with a smile: "This is the best thing in the world."
"Right, this is the best thing!" Shi Yuan turned his head, smiled and kissed Lu Tinghan's side face.
They go back to the car.
The black car moved forward silently, and they snuggled up in the back seat, each other's body heat dispelled the cold just now. Lu Tinghan put his arms around Shi Yuan, and whispered in his ear: "I want to say one more thing, sometimes ordinary people can't help themselves."
"What is involuntary?" Shi Yuan asked.
Lu Tinghan didn't answer.
In the month that followed, the situation became increasingly tense.
On October 16, the battle situation in the main city was critical, and the outpost where Colonel Su Liang was located was surrounded by infected groups.
"Mobilize all nearby teams for support!" Su Enqi strode towards the command room, "The outpost must not be lost, absolutely must not be lost!"
The officers in the command room were silent.
A major general said slowly: "General Su, I'm afraid this situation is not conducive to rescue. We have to pay too much. We can no longer...cannot pay so much."
Su Enqi glanced at them, his eyes like a knife: "I have my own judgment, I said to mobilize all the nearby teams for support! Didn't you hear that, what are you doing in a daze? Go!"
It was still silent.
The officers stood where they were in a suffocating, frozen silence.
Su Enqi suddenly realized something: "How do you...!"
The words stuck in his mouth, and a chill ran up his spine. He stood still and looked forward intuitively.
The lights were bright, and Lu Tinghan was standing in the middle of the command room, dressed in a black military uniform with shining five-star epaulets.
He looked at him silently.
