MTL - Evolved From Polluting the World-Chapter 135 No reason to frame me, no reason to explain me
What you think and feel is the road under your feet.
After the limited exit, the only thing left that can prove his existence is this vague feeling and thought.
The "ultimatum" of the Forge of Origination has cooled down. This shows that everything that can be recycled has been recycled. In this long and disorderly chaos, only the furnace itself and the "outsider"-like earth world remain.
The starry sky formed by the gathering of stars has finally dimmed, leaving only a little bit of light, allowing people to vaguely discern the things that still exist.
"Existence is essence, origin is existence".
This sentence has become Alcott's creed. Adhering to the creed, her only direction is the Origin Furnace.
Qiao Xun was always in front of her. She could see him, but couldn't catch up with him anyway. In the past, she would definitely feel anxious, anxious, and panic. Now, she is at peace. Because she was sure that Mr. Qiao had given her the best and most important things.
It's that simple sentence.
Simple, but the best.
Qiao Xun, who was in front, turned to look at her from time to time. Tell her with your eyes, take it slow, don't rush, keep your own feelings, and don't be affected by other factors. Although the only "other factor" that can affect her right now is the Forge of Origins.
I don't know how long it took, and I couldn't use time to tell the difference... Finally, Alcott was able to see the mottled traces on the Origin Furnace, as well as the undulating, thick and quaint lines. Those patterns are flowers or grass, people and beasts, mountains, rivers, universes, prehistoric fields, specific light, shadows of concepts... everything in the finite.
Everything created by the furnace of origin is engraved on its solid furnace wall in the form of lines.
Qiao Xun stopped in front, and Alcott walked over.
"Mr. Qiao, why did you stop?"
Looking at the lines, Qiao Xun said with some sigh,
"These lines are everything that is limited. I don't know if they will change their appearance after this time, and change to something else."
"Is Mr. Qiao nostalgic?"
"Not really." Qiao Xun said softly, "New things do make people yearn for, but old things can give people a familiar feeling after all."
"That's it."
Qiao Xun nodded and continued forward. But in front of the furnace wall, there is no room to move on.
Alcott asked,
"Are you still going forward?"
Qiao Xun said,
"Don't be afraid of the obstacles that stand in your way. If there is only one way in your senses, then any obstacles are meaningless."
"OK."
Alcott followed.
After coming into contact with the furnace of origin, she realized what a great power was at that time. The feeling that origin gave her cannot be described by any cognition in this life. The only feeling she could recall over and over in her heart was an unparalleled intimacy. Just like a baby soaked in amniotic fluid, everything doesn't need to be thought about, and it doesn't need to care about the "safest feeling".
This kindness far exceeds any emotion of finite life.
Even Phoenix, who was once connected by blood and one body, never gave her this feeling.
This feeling made her want to merge with the furnace of origin.
It even made her feel that the only correct choice was to integrate with it.
She heard that the melting pot was calling to herself, with the gentlest and kindest voice. She also felt that the furnace was stroking her with the lightest and warmest palm.
She can't know what the melting pot is, just as the fetus in the amniotic fluid can't know where it is, why it is so warm, and why it doesn't need to do anything.
I just want to keep going like this, soaked in the warmth into a dizzying wine.
Alcott almost stopped thinking. She will dedicate everything she has to the Origin Furnace.
but…
And me?
In the depths of her soul, a faint "voice of introspection" sounded.
"What about me? I gave everything to the furnace, what about me? Am I still me?"
This question, she asked herself over and over again in her mind. But she couldn't find the answer anyway, she couldn't give herself the answer, and the most kind Origin Furnace couldn't give the answer either.
So, this voice, like a spoiler, became more and more arrogant and crazier.
"Yeah, I don't even know if I am, why should I dedicate everything to the furnace? After I dedicate it to the furnace, do I still exist? No, it must not exist!"
At this moment, she suddenly recalled what Qiao Xun said to her. Existence is essence.
Deafening and screaming, thunder struck in his head.
Alcott suddenly woke up from the friendly atmosphere. Then, she felt unprecedented heart palpitations, and even made her feel sick for a while.
She looked forward with trembling shoulders, but found that Qiao Xun was just standing there, motionless, watching her quietly.
Alcott calmed down and calmed down.
Joe asked:
"Are you ok?"
Alcott closed his eyes, took a deep breath, and said:
"I almost... offered myself to the melting pot. At that moment, I seemed to be in harmony with everything, almost reaching the highest moment of my soul."
"Almost."
"Well... I woke up." Alcott's forehead dripped with fine beads of sweat, "Mr. Joe, what's going on?"
Qiao Xun said,
"You tried to enter the furnace, and of course the furnace tried to burn you."
"Furnace, are you going to burn me?"
"Yes." Qiao Xun said, "That is the last level of the furnace."
"So, have I cleared the customs yet?"
Qiao Xun smiled,
"If you don't pass the customs, can you still stand here and talk to me?"
Alcott was not happy, lowered his head and said:
"But I didn't do anything... I finally woke up because I remembered what Mr. Qiao said."
"At that time, you still think about what I said, which is already a great skill." Qiao Xun said, "Alcott, maybe you should know that someone who can find his own feelings and guarantee his own existence. , not just us. There are not many people who can pass the 'ultimatum', but not too few. After all, the finite is very large, and there are many finite worlds, and there will always be some great wise men, sages, and even saints. They uphold With self, all the way here, facing the call from the furnace."
Alcott asked,
"Can they succeed?"
Qiao Xun said,
"Unfortunately, most of them can't. If you are not a saint, you can refuse the call of the furnace. Because the call of the furnace is a call of destination, and it is the best destination. Most people instinctively think that they are There will eventually be a home... At the same time, anyone who feels that they have a home can't refuse the call of the melting pot."
"So, am I someone who doesn't feel like I have a home?" Alcott stared at Qiao Xun blankly.
Joe asked,
"Do you think there is?"
Alcott thought about it carefully and said,
"I can't tell, I just think that the good should go on forever, the feast should not end, and the happiness should never disappear. I don't think about the ending, whether it's good or bad, it's just one thing in life. , how can there be a movie-like ending."
Qiao Xun said with a smile:
"Alcott, you are such a good boy. I am very fortunate to be able to move forward with you on such a boring journey."
"I'm the lucky one!" Alcott hurriedly emphasized, "I wouldn't be able to get here without Mr. Joe, let alone talk about the topic of homelessness here so leisurely."
"Then we are all lucky."
"Hmm!" Alcott seemed to particularly like what Qiao Xun said, and nodded excitedly.
Qiao Xun's tone was relaxed,
"Okay, let's go, we are already the protagonists."
"what?"
"The protagonist who witnessed everything." Qiao Xun said, "The protagonist who believes that he has no destination."
"I don't quite understand..." Alcott smiled stupidly.
Joe smiled. So he felt that he was lucky to be able to walk this road with Alcott. Because, Alcott doesn't have any complicated thoughts, she is a child, she is just her, staying by her side can get the most natural relaxation.
Therefore, Qiao Xun is willing to help her unconditionally.
"However, since Mr. Qiao is safe and sound, that means... you also feel that you have no home."
Qiao Xun nodded,
"I don't care about the destination or the destination a long time ago." In fact, he didn't care until he witnessed his true self in the depths of his consciousness. Before that, he often fell into self-doubt, so Yu Xiaoshu said that he felt like an illusory thing fabricated by people.
Now, he is absolutely sure that he is just Qiao Xun, not anyone. Maybe someone can weave his experience, but in any case, it can't change the fact that he is Qiao Xun.
He is not anyone's marionette, because he has felt the real self.
"It's good... If Sasha thought like Mr. Qiao, she would definitely not be so sad." Alcott said.
In Qiao Xun's mind, Sasori's figure appeared.
Indeed, as Alcott said. Sauri has been entangled in the so-called destination all her life. It was called from the furnace a long time ago. This all shows that she almost regards her own destination as herself.
Qiao Xun also hopes that Sasori can be like Alcott. But unfortunately, she is a manipulated doll. The humble soul can only struggle hard in it.
"It's okay, Alcott. If Sasori has her own soul, then no matter what, she will have her own way."
This is not a promise like "I will definitely bring her back". Because Qiao Xun can't be sure whether Sasori will really dedicate her soul to the furnace.
"Redemption" is not a one-way process.
Qiao Xun also hopes that Sasori can find her own way of redemption. If he could, he would wait for her at the end of the road.
Alcott headed,
"Well." She continued, "Is there any... ordeal?"
Qiao Xun shook his head,
"No more. We should stand on top of the furnace and witness everything."
"I always feel very embarrassed. It's all thanks to Mr. Qiao that I can come here."
"Don't feel embarrassed, I'm just a help."
"I don't know how to repay Mr. Qiao's kindness... After thinking about it, I really want to owe Mr. Qiao a lot of people, and every one of them is huge." Alcott took a deep breath, "Once the sea train , once in the deep sea, once in the rotten world, once in the earth, once in the heaven, once in the earth, and once again here!
Qiao Xun smiled,
"Why do you have to give back any love?"
"Because... I just feel I owe you."
"I owe you, you haven't done anything wrong to me, so why owe me? Alcott, don't always think that others take you for granted, and don't always think that others are conspiring to treat you well."
"Then what is it that connects us?" Alcott looked at Qiao Xun in confusion.
Qiao Xun said,
"Feel."
"Feel…"
"A feeling of wanting to treat you well." Qiao Xun said with a smile, "It's like seeing a cute cat on the side of the road, so I want to touch it."
"So... simple?"
"Yes, this is a very simple thing."
Alcott looked at Joe Tour. Now she is more and more aware of why this person can always affect the minds of many people.
"Mr. Joe... You're going too far."
"Huh? What happened all of a sudden?"
Alcott said,
"You're so good to me that I can't treat you at all. Because I don't know what to do to be kind to you... You're raising the bar too high!" Her tone was quite There is a clingy cat feeling.
Qiao Xun slightly raised the corner of his mouth,
"Then ask your heart. You don't have to think about it deliberately, just do what you want and move according to your heart."
Qiao Xun stepped forward, and an endless staircase appeared at their feet, gentle and spacious.
This is not a test for them, but a congratulation to the winner.
"Mr. Qiao, why are you so powerful?" On the way, Alcott asked curiously, "Even though they are all human, why are you so much better than us!"
Qiao Xun thought about it and said:
"I don't know. I haven't really thought about this issue much. Because I feel that when I always think about why I'm so good, I have to give everything a reasonable explanation."
"Isn't that bad?"
"Not very good. Just like I can't explain why I'm nice to you."
"Hey, hehe..." Alcott smiled sweetly.
"Well, there is also the question of why the origin exists. Do you have to explain it? I said that the origin itself is existence, so why should I ask what 'existence' is? According to this method of questioning, there will be endless questions. , and get no answer. In my opinion, interpretation is a behavior based on fixed rules. If this fixed rule is exceeded, the interpretation has no credibility, and another fixed rule is another explanation."
"Oh... that's why it's a 'reasonable' explanation."
"Well. There is no reason to frame me, so I don't need to be explained." Qiao Xun said with a smile, his tone became more relaxed, "Then 'I' itself is the explanation."
"So handsome, Mr. Joe!" Alcott was like an obsessive fan.
There should be no "like", because Qiao Xun has always been an idol worshipped by Alcott. However, after this time, I was even more obsessed.