MTL - Doomsday Bosses Win the Entertainment Industry-Chapter 21 i am a woman

"What girl! Stop joking with Mom, it's not funny at all."

"Mom, you know, you know I'm a girl." Qin Jue's expression changed, becoming serious and serious, his tone was hurried, fast, and aggressive, "You were born a girl!"

"I do not have!"

Jiang Qiuyue suddenly screamed: "Shut up! Stop talking!"

"mom!"

Qin Jue held Jiang Qiuyue down and looked into her eyes with each word:

"My dad is gone. You don't have to work so hard to hide it from him. I said that I can earn money, I can take care of you, and I can support you. Let's talk about it, we can do what we want, okay?"

"What's so good!"

Jiang Qiuyue cried: "What do you know! Do you know how hard it is for women to live? Do you understand how many rumors my mother has to face when working outside? I am a manager, how many people scold how many people do not Are you convinced? Can I shave someone while driving outside? I don’t even talk to you when I see you are a woman, I just want you to come over to your man, do you know how many such things happen?!”

She broke free from Qin Jue with strength from somewhere, and squatted down, almost kneeling in front of her.

"Now that your father is gone, if there is no man at home, we are orphans and widows, and we don't know how to be bullied. Mom went to school in Shangouzi, and her grades were also the best in her class, and she couldn't go to the third grade of primary school. , I still have to go home and make mats. At that time, the school gave out bread and eggs, and I couldn’t eat any of them, so I had to save them and bring them home for my younger brother to eat. My mother was only sixteen at the time, and she was sold to the old man in the next village. Dowry money, so that you can save money for your uncle who has never met to marry a daughter-in-law. The luckiest thing in my life is that I hid for three days and three nights in the big truck before I got married, and then I met your father. "

Jiang Qiuyue held Qin Jue's hand and cried out of breath:

"My good son, you have no idea how hard it is for a woman to live. If you are a woman, you have to stay at home, serve your husband and take care of the children, and do your duty honestly. If you meet a good husband, you will be lucky. It's a great luck. If you don't meet it, you have to accept your fate. Mom is for this family, for your dad, for you, and working outside alone. Do you know how much pressure Mom is under? I know you have dreams and your own ideas, then You can’t be a girl anymore. Girls are not qualified to talk about ideals and dreams. Only boys can pursue their dreams and do great things with dignity! Men are born to do great things, but women can’t. Women are born with a hard life, Mom. I have suffered enough, I don’t want you to suffer and suffer, why can’t you understand my pains…”

She was sobbing in collapse, and as if she was remembering something, she sniffled and hurriedly said: "You still said that you want to be an actor, how can you go into the entertainment industry as a woman, my child is so good and so good-looking, you If it’s a girl, how many bad people will care about you, how can you protect yourself as a girl?”

Qin Jue looked at her with a very calm expression.

"Whether a person is strong or not sometimes has nothing to do with gender." Qin Jue said softly.

"Since women are suffering, more women are needed to become stronger and change the status quo, instead of demoting groups that are already struggling to a lower level."

"Don't say it, don't say it!" Jiang Qiuyue stood up and shouted at Qin Jue who was sitting on the bed, "The adults are all for your own good, it doesn't matter if you don't understand now, you'll know later! To support you, I, Jiang Qiuyue, can work until I die from overwork in order to keep my son alive and healthy! Why can't you just forgive me!"

The woman stopped roaring after the sound was broken. She shook her head, her whole body collapsed and shaky, full of tiredness and grievances.

"Okay, good son, don't make trouble, okay?"

Jiang Qiuyue begged, "Mom is all for your own good. You are my child, how could I hurt you? It's okay if you don't understand now, you'll understand when you grow up."

How deep is her love, how deep is her obsession.

Qin Jue lowered his head, as if crushed by her showing weakness, and muttered "um".

"That's right. Darling, are you hungry? Mom will make you a late-night snack." Jiang Qiuyue sniffed, then squatted down and touched her face, asking softly.

"I'm not hungry." Qin Jue smiled a little on his expressionless face, "Mom, go and rest."

"Okay, you should also think about what your mother said. You are so sensible, you must be able to understand after thinking about it." Jiang Qiuyue held her face and said softly.

Qin Jue nodded expressionlessly and watched her leave the bedroom.

"By the way, don't forget to take your medicine. Mom is most worried about your health, so please remember to take good care of yourself." Before leaving, Jiang Qiuyue said earnestly, "Don't be careful to deceive your mother, otherwise you will suffer."

Qin Jue nodded again, his movements numb and stagnant, like a robot.

There was a rattling sound from the door lock.

Qin Jue sat on the bed and didn't move for a long time, like a dead sculpture.

Suddenly, she fell back, covered her face with one hand, and laughed intermittently.

"Ha ha ha ha ha ha ha…"

Her laughter was very light, full of contrived cheerfulness, until they became longer and longer, and finally stopped.

Qin Jue put down that hand, and it hit the bed with a thud.

In the shot, most of the person lying on the bed maintains this posture. As in the previous video, his eyes have lost all vigor, as if his vitality has been drawn away a little bit, and his hope for life has also disappeared, like a dead person.

She lay down for a long time, and then she lifted her body with all her strength.

Then, she looked around blankly and walked out of the camera. After a while, with a small medicine box in her hand, she walked to the desk and sat down.

At this moment, she noticed the reflection of the lens and was taken aback by Xiaoxiao.

She was sluggish, and seemed to remember the reason and original intention of what happened just now.

After another few minutes passed, she suddenly laughed and laughed out loud.

"Sure enough." She shook her head with a smile, her previous firmness and bravery completely turned into self-defeating, "The result can't be changed."

In front of the camera, she opened the medicine box and took out several unlabeled medicines and a pair of disposable needles.

"This is my mother, Ms. Jiang Qiuyue, who has been injecting me with an unnamed drug since I was two years old."

She held things up in front of the camera, still with an indifferent smile, and touched the phone with the other hand.

"Thanks to someone's help, I got the results of the drug analysis.

"They're male hormones."

She put down the potion and showed the phone page to the camera, which contained several detailed analysis reports.

"My mother lied to me that these are nutrients.

"And I've never had any doubts for more than ten years."

She put the phone aside, and while speaking softly, she began to take apart the disposable syringe.

"I was told not to get too close to anyone, whether male or female, to keep a distance. I have never been to the toilet with any same-sex or opposite-sex peers, nor have I ever been in a bathhouse."

She even smiled, "It's a pity that I'm from the Northeast, but I haven't experienced the bathhouse culture."

"I saw a biology textbook when I was in junior high school, and I had deep doubts about my gender. I thought I was an intersex or a monster, but I didn't think about the direction of these potions. I also had I told my mother about my pain, she just said, I am special, I was born different, and it will be fine when I grow up.

"Later, I was careless and didn't inject the medicine at a fixed time, and was severely scolded by my mother.

"That's when I discovered this secret."

She shook the medicine. After cleaning the disposable syringe, she inserted the needle of the syringe into the soft stopper to extract the medicine. The movements were very skillful.

"Because I received a lot of male hormones since I was a child, my body showed very obvious male characteristics." She smiled again, "However, although the Adam's apple and the beard appeared smoothly, some things can't grow no matter how hard I try. , this is really not my problem, I have worked hard." She laughed at herself.

At this time, a portion of the medicine was drained, and in her other hand, she took a pair of tweezers with alcohol cotton and wiped it on the skin.

At the end of the video, she put away her smile, looked directly at the camera, and seemed to be able to speak directly to the person watching through it.

"I am a woman."

"I'm not ashamed of my gender," she said softly.

"Mom. This is the last time."

Her expression was indifferent, her eyes no longer wandering as before, and she was pinned straight in the center of the camera without wavering.

In the camera, she stabbed the needle into her side neck.

At the end of the video, on the black screen, her voice says:

"All the good qualities of human beings are never bound by gender.

"No matter what path I take in the future, the premise of all my thinking and actions will always be: I am a person.

"A person with a complete and independent view."