MTL - After Wearing the Book, I Was Played By Black Lotus-Chapter 85 85
?The two gradually calmed down, especially Bai Xiying. Compared with the state when she was dragged into the room, it can be called a peaceful sentence now.
??Lin Xingzhu asked: "Are you still angry? Do you still think I have to leave?"
??Bai Xiying looked up at the ceiling, and said after a while, "I'm not so angry anymore, I'm just too scared. I just found out about your origin, and found out that there is another person in this world who comes from the same world as you , full of uncontrollable thoughts that you might leave."
?? Thinking of Wen Lin, Bai Xiying's eyes were a little dark: "Are there many people who know the plot of this novel?"
Seeing her asking about this, Lin Xingzhu thought about it and replied: "Not a lot, but I think what we saw may be different from what you actually experienced."
??Bai Xiying's eyes moved slightly, and she looked at her seriously: "How to say?"
?? Lin Xingzhu pondered: "Just like in the novels I saw, Qiao Zijin, Mu Muqing, Xie Yunya... They will all have relationships with you, but when the real you are experiencing your own life, I want to use Your character should not be close to people you don't like, right?"
?? "..."
After a while, Bai Xiying suddenly smiled: "You're right."
??She quickly figured it out: "So what the novel shows is just the story of me with the same name and surname. That's not the real me."
??She is who she is, even in her last life when she couldn't break free from her fate, she didn't compromise at will.
?? Lin Xingzhu said: "I think so too. I have never regarded people and things in this world as paper people and simple plots. Obviously everything that happens here is logical, and everyone is real flesh and blood. , there is no illusion that obscures reality.”
??Bai Xiying suddenly became enlightened.
??Lin Xingzhu held her hand and said seriously: "Don't worry about me leaving, I think this is impossible."
?? "And there are some things that you are not the only ones to worry about. After listening to you say so much, I will also be afraid that when I open my eyes again, you will go back to the past?"
??Bai Xiying interrupted her: "Impossible."
??After speaking, she saw Lin Xingzhu staring at her without speaking.
After a while, Lin Xingzhu said: "You see, you think the same way, so don't scare yourself anymore."
??Bai Xiying bit her lip and nodded. Seeing that the atmosphere was good, she tentatively confided a bit of the truth: "It's not a lie that I said I was afraid of you leaving, but in fact I also wanted to take this opportunity to reveal all my secrets."
??Lin Xingzhu: "Huh?"
??Bai Xiying pointed to the surroundings: "Here, actually, I found that you wanted to come here several times."
?? Lin Xingzhu, who had been punctured, coughed, "You created such a mysterious room out of thin air. I'm not curious, so it's a lie."
??But she really didn't expect that Bai Xiying's long-hidden secret was to set up such a private room.
??And when Lin Xingzhu looked at the various things inside, it was not difficult to imagine how much Bai Xiying had fun here alone.
??Bai Xiying let her look at her for a while before carefully asking: "Aren't you disgusted?"
"Huh?" Lin Xingzhu was a little confused: "What am I disgusted with?"
?? Facing Bai Xiying's vaguely apprehensive gaze, Lin Xingzhu finally came to his senses, took her hand and said softly, "This is your personal preference. I respect your preference, and I won't dictate to you."
?? It's just that she thought of the days when Bai Xiying was demanding, and said in silence, "It's just that in the future, we really need to restrain ourselves."
??Bai Xiying: "..."
?? She told herself not to think about the miserable days in the future, and concentrated on saying: "I'm worried that you think I'm abnormal, and deliberately made such a room full of things. If it's not sick, what is it?"
??Bai Xiying covered Lin Xingzhu's mouth where she wanted to explain, and focused on analyzing herself: "As we talked just now, I have always been me, so in the last life, those people wanted to break her spine, and wanted to use When the drugs made me succumb, I kept fighting and never gave up."
?? "It's just too many times. My body is often in a state where I can't get relief. I use tools to vent, and slowly my body seems to be addicted."
?? "In the new life, my body is normal, but soon I found that I still need them. It turns out that in the last life, I was not only physically addicted, but also mentally became sick. There is no way, I made another room like this."
?? After saying all this in one go, Bai Xiying stared at Lin Xingzhu without blinking, as if she was expecting something, but when she looked closely, she seemed to be just staring at each other.
??Lin Xingzhu looked into her eyes that didn't seem to have a trace of haze, and remembered the things in this room in his mind.
??Actually, she didn't just enjoy all of this. Lin Xingzhu suddenly had this concept in her mind.
??At the very beginning, Bai Xiying must have resisted, but later she may find that the struggle is useless, so in order to minimize the damage, she chose such a path.
??Even though she seems to accept all this calmly in her current state, Lin Xingzhu remains skeptical about it.
??Her hand suddenly covered Bai Xiying's left chest, which was the closest to her heart.
??Bai Xiying froze subconsciously, and then seemed to realize what Lin Xingzhu wanted to do, and she relaxed her body silently.
?? "You listen to your heart, start from the very beginning and the most authentic place, tell me, what do you want to do?"
?? Lin Xingzhu asked her.
??Because she suddenly discovered that in Bai Xiying's subconscious, she who seemed to have persuaded herself to accept it was still fighting.
??Otherwise, she would not deliberately make use of the topic. After the emotional outburst, besides fearing that she would leave, she also wanted to pull herself into such a secret place that she had hidden for two lifetimes, and uncover everything.
?? Lin Xingzhu said seriously: "I don't think you have any problems, but I'm not you. I haven't had the same experience as you, so I can't have real empathy. But I want to tell you, Bai Xiying, no matter what you do Whatever decision you make, I will choose to accompany you and support you."
??Are you really accepting it calmly, or choosing to regain the heart of resistance?
??No matter which one Bai Xiying chooses, Lin Xingzhu will unswervingly choose her only.
?? A moment of silence.
??Bai Xiying tightly clenched Lin Xingzhu's hand, rubbed it against her face, and then buried it in Lin Xingzhu's embrace under Lin Xingzhu's forgiving gaze.
?? "You are so nice, why didn't I meet you earlier?"
??If she had met Lin Xingzhu earlier, would she have been able to perceive the meaning of happiness earlier??
??Lin Xingzhu mused after hearing the words: "Everything has a definite determinant. If I traveled earlier, it is likely to be Lin Xingzhu in this time-space line, or I may have been imprisoned in the time-space line before your rebirth."
??At that time, one of them was in prison, and the other hated the world. No matter how they thought about it, they felt that it was unlikely that they would meet again.
??Bai Xiying: "..."
After a long time, she put forward a new idea: "Actually, I can also come to your world."
?? This is possible.
?? Lin Xingzhu imagined his own step-by-step work as a social animal, what kind of reaction would happen when he met the blackened version of Bai Xiying... Maybe it was a chemical reaction?
After a while, Lin Xingzhu patted her on the head, and said in a gentle voice: "We will discuss these possibilities again when we have a chance, and now we are discussing another matter."
?? Smelling the reassuring smell that belonged to Lin Xingzhu, Bai Xiying raised her head with a soft expression on her face: "Restrain it and straighten it."
?? She chose to fight.
??When she has an "addiction" to something, it is no longer purely healthy for her.
?? What's more, what she is addicted to now is this kind of kidney-damaging activity.
??Bai Xiying knew that Lin Xingzhu had always paid special attention to this aspect of her body, and was always worried about whether something would go wrong, even after going to the hospital for a physical examination. So even though she felt that there was nothing wrong with her, she still chose to restrain herself in order to reassure Lin Xingzhu completely.
?? Lin Xingzhu asked: "Have you chosen?"
?? "I have chosen."
?? Seeing no reluctance on Bai Xiying's face, Lin Xingzhu felt relieved.
??She spread out her palm, and said gently but firmly: "Then bring the key. From now on, I will take care of this house for you."
??She asked why Bai Xiying could always bring out some toys that she obviously didn't choose together. It turned out that there was a huge secret room behind her.
?? Backed by mountains, really rich.
??Turning off this room is the first step they have to take.
??Since she has decided to restrain herself, Bai Xiying will not deny it.
??But she would nestle on Lin Xingzhu and didn't want to move, so she said lazily, "I'll find the key for you when I go out later."
?? Lin Xingzhu nodded.
?? However, in order to prevent overcorrection, Lin Xingzhu added: "Closing this room is just to help you lose the 'addiction' in your heart. If you have a problem, you don't want to come here to vent and solve it in this way, but usually, you If you want to play tricks like a couple, it's totally fine."
??Bai Xiying, who was a little regretful at first, immediately stood up when she heard the words, "I will hold the key for you in the future, but we still don't want to buy it when we are playing tricks."
??Facing Lin Xingzhu's eyes, Bai Xiying said innocently: "This saves money."
??Lin Xingzhu: "..."
?? She silently glanced around Bai Xiying's belongings, and found that she couldn't say anything to refute.
??Looking back, Lin Xingzhu lowered his head slightly, and he could see Bai Xiying's thin clothes
?? There are two wet areas.
??She was silent for a while, and asked in a very serious voice: "Are you really not planning to go to the hospital to see this?"
??Following her line of sight, Bai Xiying glanced at it, calmed down, and looked up at her nonchalantly: "I don't think it's necessary, and the reason given will definitely be the same."
??The reason is the same, but she still has to bear a slightly strange look, which is not worth it.
?? Lin Xingzhu frowned slightly, and said nothing.
??Mainly she is not sure whether Bai Xiying is doing this for a while, or whether it will be like this in the future.
?? But now Bai Xiying obviously didn't want to go to the hospital, she thought about it again, and decided to follow her first.
Letting go of this, Lin Xingzhu thought of the breastfeeding period after the pregnancy and childbirth of the family around her, and said hesitantly: "...Is your chest swollen?"
??Her ears are red: "Do you want to use a pacifier?"
