Mated to the Warrior Beast-Chapter 231 - 231 Too Much β Part 1
231 Too Much β Part Added after publication so you arenβt charged: Sorry Iβm behind on comments! Iβm travelling internationally soon and working like crazy on chapters to publish when Iβm gone. Forgive me!
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~ SASHA ~
Sasha was holding Zan and organizing a search party when Zev melted out of the shadows of the trees to appear at her shoulder.
Sheβd stopped talking, gaping at him, but heβd just reached for Zan, to take their son so her hands were free.
Everyone stared for a long moment, but he just looked at their baby.
Sasha had cleared her throat and changed the subject.
She didnβt want to humiliate him further, and there were still so many things to do.
.....
But she only had half a mind to do them with, because half of her was turned to Zev as surely as a flower opened to the sun. She had been terrified he was hurtβor hurting someone elseβbut he showed up with eyes downcast and not carrying as much tension in his shoulders as he had before.
What had he done? What was he thinking now?
βAre you okay?β she asked pathetically as she tried to listen to a report from some of the Chimera that a quick scout surrounding the valley showed that, at least in the immediate vicinity, the Anima Queen had been true to her word. There were no guards. No patrols.
In fact, in the valley below the treeline, both Anima and Chimera were⦠mingling. Carefully. Warily. But they were not avoiding each other.
Sasha didnβt know whether to celebrate, or brace for impact.
βIβm fine. Focus on them. They need you right now.β Zevβs voice in her head was a little flat, but not entirely dead. And not simmering with the heat of rage as it had been before. He soundedβ¦ tense. Unhappy. But in control of himself.
And when heβd checked over Zan and satisfied himself that their son was safe, he put himself right at Sashaβs shoulder, just as he used to when she had been leading them against the humansβwatching over her with piercing eyes, staying quiet, interjecting when he thought he had useful advice, but otherwise simply adding the strength of his support to her.
If she hadnβt just confronted him in front of all the Chimera and a good chunk of the Anima, she would have thought everything was fine. Better, even, than it had been.
He didnβt seem as closed off.
But he also seemed⦠low. A little bit dead in the eyes. And very, very quiet.
But he hadnβt run. He hadnβt lost his temper. And even when a group of Chimera came to her, wanting release to visit the Tree City, even then Zev didnβt growl or snap. He tensed behind her, but said nothing.
Sheβd wanted to make the journey to the Tree City alone with him so they could talk. But the questions and concerns of the Chimera were endless. fπeπ²πeππoπππΉ.cπΌπ
Sasha was determined to get Zan to their healers to see if there was anything else they could doβeven Zev agreed that was the priority for them. But every time one Chimera had a question answered, or checked in on the baby, another would appear almost immediately in their wake.
So theyβd traveledβexhausted, but hopefulβwithout talking. Then Zan had needed to be fed, and one of the Anima healers had ushered Sasha to one of their Great Trees. It wasnβt a prison, this time, though a cold chill swept through her as she entered, and Zev only poked his head in the door, then said heβd wait outside.
She almost said noβworried that now with so many of the Anima were close, he might be triggered to anger again. But when she peered out the window, heβd squatted just to the left of the door, his back to the tree, head tipped back against it and eyes closed.
βLet him breathe and think. Thatβs what males need most,β the healer had said gently, putting a hand to Sashaβs shoulder. βPlease, come sit over hereβI need to see him feed.β
They had another type of milk for Zan to try. Sasha was nervous, but willing to take whatever help she could get.
It didnβt go well, but he did feedβand almost as much as he should have. But it took almost an hour. So by the time she walked out the door, Zev was pacing the dirt in front of the Tree.
He thanked the healerβwhich was a good signβbut then took Zan from Sasha, insisting on being the one to carry him, and hurried Sasha away.
βHow are you feeling?β he asked her as soon as they were alone on the trail.
βIβm fine. Just tired.β
βDo you think youβre strong enough to head back to the camp tonightββ
βZevβ¦ no,β Sasha said, stopping on the trail to turn and face him. He stopped too, reluctantly, Zan pressed against his shoulder. βWe have to be here. The healersβthey have one who specializes as a midwife and sheβs delivering tonight, but sheβs going to be back in the morning and they think she might know exactly whatβs causing his problem. We canβt leave.β
Zevβs jaw flexed and he looked darkly over her shoulder into the forest beyond, hissing at her to be quiet because there were people coming.
They stood there, staring at each other and tense as two tall, Anima females walked past them, greeting them.
Sasha smiled at them, but Zev just nodded his head, watching them with eagle eyes until he was confident they were far enough away not to hear them. Then he finally looked back down at Sasha.
He was about to say something, but Sasha shook her head. βWe need to talk,β she said gently. βThe nurse offered to take him for this sleep so they could monitor how often heβs waking. Why donβt we do that? Let them have him for a couple of hours and we go for a walk. Just us?β
He argued at firstβbut she made the point that if theyβd truly wanted to hurt Zan theyβd had far better chances to do it. And he obviously did want to talk to her.
So reluctantly, he lowered their son into a woven bassinet, warned the healer to get a wolf to link with him if there was a problem, then led Sasha out of the healing center.
They walked silently, but together, for several minutes, until the trails became narrow and the trees thick, and Zev said there were no more sounds of others nearby.
There was a thick, fallen tree trunk at the side of the trail. Sasha settled herself on it, trying not to let him see how exhausted she felt. She tilted her chin up to look at the midnight sky above them through the gap in the trees, and it made her smile.
This world was beautiful.
But Zev was pacing in front of her, and there was nothing beautiful about that.
βWhy donβt you sit with me?β she asked him carefully.
βBecause weβre in the middle of the hive,β he said quietly. βI feel like weβre talking about bunking down in the middle of the sanctuary.β
βZev. You know this isnβt like that.β
βIsnβt it?β he muttered.
βNo, Zev, itβs not.β She got to her feet and stepped in front of him so he was forced to stop pacing, or bowl her over. The fact that he jerked to a halt even in his anger just made her heart softenβeven as broken as he felt, he still protected her.
But the wary, bitter expression on his face was dark, and the light in his eyes wasnβt heated for her, but because of the βenemy.β
As he waited for her to speak, she considered and discarded several different thingsβthen realized she was getting tied in knots trying not to trigger him, and she justβ¦ gave up.
βYouβre not thinking clearly,β she said quietly. βYouβre not seeing this clearly. And I understand why. But Zevβ¦ it has to stop.β
βWhat has to stop?β he asked through his teeth. βBe specific.β
She folded her arms. βYou have to stop looking forβ¦ vengeance, or whatever it is thatβs driving you right now.β
He gaped at her. βYou think I should just say, oh, hey, itβs coolβthat whole prison thing, itβs no biggieββ
βNo, Zev, you know I donβt think that. Would you stop? You know if Elreth or Tarkyn had suddenly showed up in Thana we would have had them under guard and asked questions and all kinds of things before we trusted them not to be plants for the humans! I want you to look me in the eye and tell me you really think that, Zevβbecause if you do, youβre lying to yourself.β
He leaned in, his eyes sparking. βGuards? Sure. Questions, definitely. Suspicion, yes. I never said otherwise. But this wasnβt that.β
βZevββ
βThese people are just like the human Team, Sashaβthe ends justify the meansββ
βBullshit!β she spat. βThere were two things that needed to be forgivenβwhen Elreth came at me when I was holding Zan, and the way they bound you when they drugged you. I checked before we left the tree that day, Zev. I told youβthey thought youβd sleep longer. You burned through their drugs faster than they expected. Elreth and I were halfway through very useful discussions before you woke up, and I think if youβd stayed asleep, when you did finally wake, you wouldnβt have been bound.β
βI canβt believe youβre taking their sideββ
βI am doing no such thing! I am trying to look at this from the perspective of a leader and an Alpha insteadβ¦ instead of a mother and mate. You think it didnβt kill me that they hurt you that way, Zev? You think it didnβt break my heart? You think I wasnβt terrified for our son?β
Zev just stared at her, and her heart sank.