Living Only For Myself: Make Those Who Hate Me Regret It-Chapter 203: Should You Find Someone to Learn From, or Should I?
It was obvious Xu Su was just messing with him, deliberately looking for holes in his argument.
Having his purity questioned didn’t seem to annoy Zhou Mochen. He just gazed at her with a grin. "Want to find out for yourself sometime? I’ll show you whether or not I’ve ever been with a woman."
"..." Xu Su was speechless for a moment, her curiosity genuinely piqued. "How would a man even prove that?"
’Our bodies are fundamentally different. It’s not like men have a hymen.’
Zhou Mochen pulled her into his arms and leaned down to whisper something in her ear. Seeing her earlobes turn a deep red, he couldn’t resist placing a gentle kiss on one.
’If I keep this up, I’ll be the only one suffering,’ he thought, and reluctantly let her go.
Xu Su, however, was completely stunned by his words and began to carefully recall their first time from her past life.
It had been too long ago; she couldn’t remember the details clearly. She only remembered that it hurt a lot. He had been incredibly rough, showing no tenderness at all, and of course, Xu Su would never show weakness and beg him to stop.
’All in all... not a pleasant memory.’
"What are you thinking about?"
Xu Su looked at him, her expression complicated. "I just think," she said bluntly, "that if two people with no experience actually do it, it’s definitely going to hurt."
She showed none of the shyness expected of an inexperienced girl broaching such an intimate topic.
Sensing her seriousness, Zhou Mochen’s smile slowly faded. He spoke almost through gritted teeth, "So, what’s the plan? Are you going to find someone to practice with, or should I?"
’...That was a total trap.’ 𝚏𝗿𝗲𝐞𝐰𝚎𝕓𝐧𝚘𝘃𝗲𝐥.𝐜𝚘𝕞
Xu Su waved her hands awkwardly. "No, no, I was just kidding."
His brow relaxed, and he leaned in again, coaxing her. "I won’t let it hurt, my dear Susu. Don’t be afraid. Just tell me when you want to give it a try with me."
Xu Su ignored him and gave him a shove, then glanced at her watch. "Take me back to school. I’m going to be late."
’Bullshit, "I won’t let it hurt"... How could it possibly not hurt!’
Zhou Mochen also glanced at the time and sighed in resignation. "Fine, I’ll take you back to school. My Susu is such a good student, so dedicated to her studies."
’He was actually a little jealous... jealous that she valued her studies so much.’
When they left, Shen Chen was long gone. Xu Su glanced around but didn’t see him.
"He went back to Beijing. Afternoon flight." Zhou Mochen wrapped an arm around her waist and helped her into the car. He then walked around to the driver’s side, and as he started the engine, he asked casually, "After you finish your college entrance exams, why don’t you come back to Beijing with me? Susu, I’ve been waiting for you here in Chang City for so long."
"..."
Xu Su was speechless. ’As if I don’t know that his business dealings in Chang City aren’t enough to keep Young Master Zhou here for this long. They both knew very well why he would stay in Chang City all year round.’
’But hearing him say it out loud made it sound like some grand sacrifice.’
’When the feelings are mutual, sure, it’s a sacrifice. But when it was one-sided like before, all it did was annoy her. It didn’t move her in the slightest.’
Xu Su didn’t say anything for a long time, and her silence made his heart sink again.
"You don’t want to? You don’t like the universities in Beijing?" Zhou Mochen smiled, not wanting to pressure her. "Then which university are you planning to apply to? It’s fine if it’s not in Beijing. Don’t worry, we’re not doing a long-distance relationship. Wherever you go, I’ll go."
’Even with him personally watching over her, middle-aged men still had their eyes on her. If they were long-distance, with this girl’s naivety, she’d probably be tricked and sold off before she even knew what was happening, and she’d still be counting the money for the one who sold her.’
’Zhou Mochen knew the dark side of society all too well. With Xu Su’s ever-blossoming beauty and her ordinary background, if she didn’t have someone protecting her, it was entirely possible she’d be eaten alive.’
A month ago, hearing these words would have only made Xu Su think he was a persistent pest she couldn’t shake. But now, with the change in their relationship, she was only touched.
The Zhou Mochen of this life was a hundred percent accommodating toward her. The threats, the bribes, taking advantage of her dire situation in her past life, and that beginning to their relationship that she could never let go of... his actions back then didn’t seem like they could have been done by the same person.
Xu Su truly didn’t understand. Why did the Zhou Mochen from her past life give them such a sordid beginning?
’He obviously liked her so much... Couldn’t he have just courted her properly? Did he think she wouldn’t have said yes?!’
’Instead, he just had to slap the "mistress" label on her, lure her into his bed, and act like he’d done it a million times. How could anyone not mistake him for some promiscuous scumbag who only knew how to toy with schoolgirls!’
The car stopped at the familiar entrance to her alley, and a hand lifted her chin.
"What are you thinking about?" Zhou Mochen leaned over and gave her a quick kiss, a hint of displeasure in his voice. "Sweetheart, I’m talking to you. Why do you keep zoning out?"
Xu Su’s mind was filled with the image of the thirty-five-year-old Zhou Mochen, and her heart throbbed with a dull ache. She wrapped her arms around his neck and buried her face in his shoulder.
She asked unhappily, "Zhou Mochen, if I never agreed to be with you, would you... would you use money to humiliate me? To keep me, just to make me sleep with you?"
He rubbed the back of her head roughly. Zhou Mochen took a deep breath, but couldn’t suppress his anger. His voice was laced with fury. "Xu Su! Is that really what you think of me? Haven’t I made myself clear? If all I wanted was to sleep with you, you would have been mine two years ago."
"What is going on in that head of yours? ’Keeping’ you? Is that the kind of stuff they teach you at school? I have no interest in keeping a mistress. I’m not Shen Chen—that’s more his area of expertise."
After that blatant jab at Shen Chen, Zhou Mochen leaned down and kissed Xu Su’s cheek, his voice full of exasperation. "Sweetheart, I’ve been holding back for you so much I feel like I’m about to break, and you still misunderstand me like this. Don’t you think that’s a little unfair?"
Xu Su was a little dazed by his angry outburst. It took her a moment to process it, her mind reeling with surprise. "You mean, even if I kept acting like I did before—avoiding you, hating you, being so impatient with you—you still wouldn’t..."
As he glared fiercely at her, Xu Su didn’t dare say the last four words—’keep me with money.’ She could only look back at him timidly.
Seeing her look at him like that, all of Zhou Mochen’s anger evaporated. He wrapped one arm around her waist and used his other hand to caress her ear, resting his forehead against hers. His eyes were filled with adoration. "I wouldn’t. I can be ruthless to anyone, but not to you. No matter how much you infuriate me, I would never let you become a woman who can be bought with money."
His words were spoken with absolute conviction. Xu Su felt her heart suddenly start to race, feeling as if it might leap right out of her chest.
It took her a long moment to force herself to calm down.
’Damn!’
’Who could possibly calm down while being stared at by a pair of eyes so full of love?!’
Xu Su flung the car door open and jumped out. Without so much as a goodbye, she took off running as if a ghost were hot on her heels.
She left Zhou Mochen sighing in the car, a look of fond exasperation on his face, though his eyes crinkled with amusement.
’Something’s wrong... Something’s really wrong...’
Xu Su thought about what Zhou Mochen had said as she walked toward the academic building.
She didn’t doubt his words in the slightest. This Zhou Mochen was definitely speaking from the bottom of his heart.
But the Zhou Mochen from her past life had well and truly done things that completely contradicted everything he’d just said!
