I Became a Villainous Character with a Limited Lifespan-Chapter 43

“Even if it’s time to die… . “It’s something that won’t change no matter what happens.”

The look of giving up everything, the calmness of saying that something you have been clinging to your whole life is a nuisance. It was incredibly strange to even think that the situation had changed the person.

Seokhyung was always a person who cared for Seunghyeon. Some people compared him to a dog, but he was even happy to be called a loyal dog. To anyone’s surprise, he felt proud that he and Seunghyeon had such a close bond.

If Seung-hyeon sees Seok-hyung now, he might make a slightly creepy face. However, Seokhyung did not understand Seunghyeon like that.

“The director is the one who made me like this.”

It was Seunghyeon who taught me, who knew nothing about the coldness of the world, and how to face it and endure it. Seunghyeon was like Seokhyeong’s world.

It’s just a temporary whim. I was preparing for Han Seung-hyun, thinking that since he was Han Seung-hyun, he would want this situation again someday. I said so.

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“Don’t doubt it. “There is no need to doubt.”

Seokhyung put his cell phone on the desk and looked out the window. It was not a familiar sight. What was familiar to him was Seunghyeon’s office in HJ, or the view through the window of the secretary’s office next to it.

“As long as one director is one director… . People can’t change like that. So this is.”

This is for him. Seokhyung muttered to himself for some unknown number of times. The last face I saw, obviously not long ago, was Seunghyun’s strangely blurred face, and he bit my lip hard.

“This is all for you.”

A small voice that could not reach anyone rang through the teeth.

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“Suddenly I got goosebumps… .”

Seunghyeon shivered from the sudden chill he felt. Now that I think about it, the weather has become quite cold.

“Is it winter soon? .”

The first time I became Han Seung-hyun was around the time when fall was approaching, and that season was now coming to an end.

That meant that at least 25% of the time given to me had passed.

‘That’s a bit… ‘I don’t like it.’

At first, I thought this kind of life was good. He was dead anyway, and even if he lived, he was on the verge of finding out that he was gay.

Moreover, since I was seriously injured, it was clear that I would need to be hospitalized for at least a month, and I didn’t have the means to have that much money.

‘Because I don’t have insurance… . I thought it would be better to just die cleanly once and for all.’

It’s not that I don’t have family to grieve with, but just making a living is a burden for everyone, so I thought it might be better to grieve for a while and get it over with rather than having to pay my own hospital bills.

So, even though I was terminally ill, I thought it would be better now that I could enjoy my daily life without worrying about money, as long as I took my medicine regularly. It was definitely like that at first… .

The more satisfied I felt with my current life, the more I began to regret it. It was a life where I was always busy, living with anxiety that someone would discover my secret.

Right now, all I have left is time, and the end is already set, so I live each day without any worries about what I do. In fact, little by little, the desire to live longer began to emerge.

but… Maybe there was a bigger reason than that. There is a more decisive reason why I wish I had had more time left.

I told you not to talk, but are there things in this world that you need to hear to know? Seunghyeon wasn’t entirely sure what Jaeyoung’s feelings were for him, but he at least knew what their nature was.

And Seunghyun didn’t hate that feeling. It was nice to know that the feelings that only existed on screen could become one’s own, and that someone could express those feelings to me.

But I didn’t want to admit it. I didn’t want to think of the two letters of the name of the emotion that filled my head.

“no. Useless thoughts… .”

The feeling of regret about life, the feeling that I once had a romantic dream for. These were things that Seunghyeon was not allowed to do now.

Even if it was true, it should not have been true, and these were feelings that should not have deepened. Seunghyeon shook his head and lightly slapped both my cheeks.

Actually, I knew what the wisest course of action was. Even now, I knew it was the right choice to draw a line with Jaeyoung and distance myself from him so that I wouldn’t have any regrets or hopes… .

Wouldn’t this level of greed be okay? Jaeyoung’s feelings probably started with her curiosity and novelty, so she might not last very long. She just wanted to think that way.

That way, you will be able to rationalize your inability to completely push him away even though you know his feelings.

“Something else… “Anything is fine. I need something else to focus on.”

Seunghyun shook his head and began to walk around the living room, which was already quite filled with things. He didn’t want to go outside as the weather was getting colder, but he had to do something to distract himself from his thoughts.

‘Should I take a short walk? ‘Getting some cold air can help ventilate your mind.’

Then, let’s think about what to do tomorrow and the next day. Seunghyeon changed into comfortable going-out clothes and zipped his outerwear up to his neck.

It was good that we came out with good momentum.

“cold.”

The weather in early winter was a little colder than expected. Should I have come out wearing thicker clothes?

‘No, won’t it get a little hot while walking?’

After thinking for a moment about whether he should go in now and change and come out, he decided to walk like this and took a step forward.

It’s been about a week since we moved. Meanwhile, Jaeyoung came to Seunghyeon’s house once more.

‘There are a lot of spare rooms.’

‘If you like sleeping on the bare floor without a blanket or pillow, do whatever you want.’

I think I was secretly hoping that he would say it was okay while making the excuse that he didn’t have any bedding in response to his obvious request. Seunghyeon didn’t get the answer he wanted, but that didn’t mean Jaeyoung gave up quietly.

‘So it’s resolved.’

Seunghyeon was unable to stop Jaeyoung, who was buying various things on the spot with the intention of setting up his own room in someone else’s house. It might be more accurate to say that I did not stop him.

It shouldn’t get swayed, and it shouldn’t get too deep. But it was always just a thought.

“I was such an indecisive person…” .”

I thought that something that couldn’t work couldn’t be done, that even if I cold-heartedly cut it off, it wasn’t enough, and that the relationship was just dragging on, and I felt like a fool, but I didn’t want to quit.

If I continue to listen to those words, then I will really have to break off this relationship.

‘I guess I’m an eight-year-old who doesn’t have anything to do with love.’

Seunghyun laughed self-deprecatingly. Contrary to his mood, the sun was bright. It was an odd time between breakfast and lunch, but there were quite a few people passing by in the park.

‘There are a lot of people out walking their dogs.’

And most of them had handles connected to leashes in their hands. I guess this is the only place nearby where you can take a walk. Seunghyun looked at the puppies walking happily.

‘I wanted to raise it.’

Although I liked animals, I knew that it would be impossible to take responsibility for the life of a person who was not even capable of taking care of his own body just because he was cute.

It was still the same now that I couldn’t raise it. Sometimes it would be best to go for a walk and just look around. He sat on a park bench for a while and watched the dogs passing by.

Perhaps because they live in wealthy villages, they all had faces that seemed well-maintained and without a single tear stain.

“king!”

“… … ?”

How long had I been doing this? I heard an angry sound from behind the bridge. As I lowered my head, I saw a puppy nuzzling its moist nose against Seunghyeon’s calf.