Living Only For Myself: Make Those Who Hate Me Regret It
Chapter 332 - 329: Why Aren’t You More Confident? You’re Zhou Mochen
He had absolutely no desire to talk to her about other men. Even though he knew her feelings toward Shen Chen were completely innocent, he still didn’t want to discuss it.
’Their relationship is a little *too* good...’
He didn’t consider himself a petty man, but he could never be magnanimous when it came to her.
If he could, he would make it so she only had eyes for him, only spoke to him, only smiled at him...
After dinner, Shen Chen strolled leisurely out the door.
Xu Su was feeling much better. Just as she was about to play some *Immortal World*, Zhou Mochen swept her up by the waist and started carrying her toward the bedroom.
"Zhou Mochen, we can’t do anything tonight!" she yelped in alarm. "Put me down!"
"We won’t. I just want to hold you," Zhou Mochen soothed, placing her gently on the bed. "If you don’t agree, I promise I won’t do anything, alright?"
Xu Su scooted backward a little. "You’d better keep your word, or I’ll get angry!"
’I’m still sore!’
Zhou Mochen gave her that pitiful, puppy-dog look again. "When have I ever gone back on my word? When have I ever forced you to do anything you didn’t want to?"
"..." ’That was true.’
Xu Su let out a small sigh of relief but stubbornly maintained her tough front. "It’s just that you traumatized me last night."
Just the thought of it made her legs go weak. Xu Su gave him a push. "Go run my bath."
Zhou Mochen stroked the top of her head and obediently went into the bathroom.
He came out a moment later, opening his arms to her with a smile. "Shall I carry you in?"
"No need..." Xu Su refused, climbing off the bed herself. "It’s not like I can’t walk!"
’I have my pride, you know!’
Zhou Mochen chuckled softly. After watching her go into the bathroom, he turned and went to the adjacent room.
By the time Xu Su finished her bath and came out, freshly washed and fragrant, Zhou Mochen was already waiting on the bed. He was shirtless, his well-defined chest bare, and on his shoulder was the bite mark she’d left last night...
Xu Su took a quick glance before hastily averting her eyes.
’He’s not trying to seduce me again, is he?’ she suspected.
’I absolutely will not fall for it!’
’I can’t just let him get his way every time!’
’I’m still sore...’
’I might be tempted, but I can’t act on it!’
Her mind racing, Xu Su began to towel-dry her hair. Seeing her long, wet hair, Zhou Mochen raised an eyebrow. He threw back the covers, got out of bed, and pulled her down to sit before picking up a hairdryer and starting to dry her hair for her.
Knowing her routine, he even thoughtfully applied some hair oil. The service was impeccable. If Xu Su hadn’t refused, he would have eagerly applied her skincare products for her as well.
This clinginess was making Xu Su scream internally. ’I can’t take this!’
After dawdling for as long as she could, she finally got into bed, only to be immediately pulled into Zhou Mochen’s arms. "Susu..."
His voice was impossibly gentle...
Xu Su hummed in response, resting her head on his shoulder and wrapping her arms around his waist. She didn’t dare let her hands wander...
Zhou Mochen gently squeezed her shoulder with one hand and said tentatively, "Have you ever noticed that you and Shen Chen are a little too close?"
"What do you mean?" Xu Su looked up, puzzled. "He’s the only one of your friends I know, and he seems like a nice guy. Are you asking me to ignore Shen Chen?"
"You’re not going to be jealous of this, are you?" Xu Su frowned at him. "Don’t be so petty. Shen Chen and I are just friends, that’s it. In this lifetime, I’d fall for a pig before I’d ever fall for him. Does that bother you too?"
Her complete dismissal of Shen Chen stunned Zhou Mochen for a moment. "I thought you seemed pretty relaxed hanging out with him. How is Shen Chen worse than a pig in your eyes?"
"That’s not the point of the analogy!" Xu Su explained earnestly. "I feel the same way about Shen Chen as I do about Huang Feng and Qian Jia. Can you imagine me being into Huang Feng?"
"Zhou Mochen, don’t be so possessive. Can’t you just let me have friends without being so petty? Besides, Shen Chen is your own close friend whom you know inside and out." 𝒇𝙧𝙚𝓮𝙬𝙚𝓫𝒏𝓸𝓿𝓮𝒍.𝓬𝙤𝓶
Thinking of his controlling nature from her past life, Xu Su glared at him with a trace of lingering fear. "I’m not your accessory. I’m an independent person. Dating you is one thing, but don’t you dare try to control my entire life!"
Zhou Mochen pressed his lips together, listening quietly. He only spoke after she had finished. "Shen Chen is a man."
And that made him different from Huang Feng and Qian Jia.
Xu Su understood what he meant, her eyes widening in disbelief. "So, I’m not allowed to have male friends?"
’How is he exactly the same as in my past life?’
Xu Su sat up straight, putting some distance between them. Her tone was stern. "Are you living in the dark ages? Where women should be cloistered at home, only befriend other women, and keep their distance from men? Are you going to enroll me in a ’virtuous woman’ class next, to learn about the Three Obediences and Four Virtues?"
Her voice grew louder as she spoke, until she finally couldn’t stop herself from shouting, "Zhou Mochen! What is it that you want from me?!"
She couldn’t stand the feeling of being controlled, not even a little!
"Okay, okay, I was just asking." Terrified she was about to throw another tantrum, Zhou Mochen quickly tried to placate her. "Nobody is asking you to follow the Three Obediences and Four Virtues. Don’t be angry."
Xu Su looked at him skeptically. "Zhou Mochen, have I not given you enough of a sense of security? Why are you acting so afraid that I’m going to leave you for someone else?"
To be jealous of even Shen Chen!
In Xu Su’s eyes, Shen Chen wasn’t even a potential romantic partner. Even if she didn’t have Zhou Mochen or Xi Zirong, she would never, ever be interested in Shen Chen.
Zhou Mochen smiled, wrapping an arm around Xu Su’s shoulders and leaning down to kiss her cheek. "And if I said yes, what would you do about it?"
His voice was as gentle as if he were murmuring sweet nothings, but Xu Su saw the seriousness in his eyes.
"...It’s not about what I would do. It’s about what you need me to do to feel secure. You can tell me."
Xu Su was exasperated. "Have I not made it clear enough that I like you? Why aren’t you more confident? You’re Zhou Mochen, for crying out loud!"
"So what if I’m Zhou Mochen?"
Hearing her words, Zhou Mochen chuckled softly. "Zhou Mochen isn’t a god. He’s just an ordinary mortal man, and when it comes to you, he’s never been confident."
Even if he was sure she liked him now, so what?
She was so young, still finding herself. She hadn’t even started college yet. There were too many variables in her future.
Today, for whatever reason, she liked him and was willing to humor him. But tomorrow, she might just as easily fall for someone else.
Zhou Mochen had originally thought that after last night, he would feel a bit more secure.
But how could he have predicted that the more he gained, the more terrified he would be of losing it all?
This sense of security he craved wasn’t something Xu Su could provide in a day or two.
It would take years of proof, demonstrated through her actions day after day.
Zhou Mochen understood this, but Xu Su did not.
Hearing this, Xu Su glared at him in exasperation. "Go look in a mirror! With everything you have going for you, if *you’re* not confident, then there probably isn’t a single confident man left on this planet!"
Her praise was so blunt that it made Zhou Mochen smile in spite of himself. "Alright. From now on, I’ll be sure to look in the mirror more often and see if I can find my confidence again."