I'm Not Your Husband, You Evil Dragon!
Chapter 172: The Parable of Separation
"That was the day I lost my husband," Clara whispered weakly, her voice barely rising above the soft hum of the cooling fans behind the counter. "Because I couldn’t leave him when I still had the chance."
She wiped her tear slowly, the back of her flour-dusted hand dragging across her cheek, smearing moisture and white powder into a pale streak. Her eyes remained distant, consumed by the memory, trapped in a room that no longer existed except in the architecture of her grief.
The afternoon light seemed to dim around her, as if even the sun respected the weight of what she carried.
Across the table, Erza remained completely still.
Her violet eyes, which had been fixed on Clara’s face throughout the story, slowly lowered toward her own hands.
They rested on the wooden table, pale, elegant, trembling. The trembling was slight, almost imperceptible, but she felt it.
Clara’s words echoed in her skull.
Because I couldn’t leave him when I still had the chance.
But Clara did not end there.
She drew a slow, shuddering breath, pulling herself back from the edge of the memory, and continued. Her voice grew steadier, though no less heavy.
"I wish someone had told me that love doesn’t always mean we have to be there." She clasped her hands on the table, her thumbs rubbing against each other in a slow, circular motion.
"Love is sometimes letting it go and watching from a distance. I failed to understand that. I failed that day."
Erza looked up.
Clara met her gaze, and her mouth opened. The words that emerged were not complex. They were not filled with wisdom or poetry or the kind of advice that came wrapped in silk. They were simple. Almost childlike.
And they struck Erza like a blade between the ribs.
"I wish I had known this parable a long time ago." Clara’s voice dropped, as if she was sharing a secret. "If a bird and a fish fell in love with each other... where would they live?"
Erza’s eyes widened.
The parable was simple. Almost stupid, Clara had admitted. But its simplicity was precisely what made it devastating.
A bird and a fish.
One ruled the sky.
The other ruled the sea.
They could see each other, admire each other, long for each other across the boundary that separated their worlds. But they could never inhabit the same space. If the fish decided to live in the open sky, it would die, its gills unable to breathe, its body unable to support itself against gravity.
If the bird decided to enter the ocean, it would drown, its wings too heavy, its lungs too fragile, its bones not built for the crushing depth.
They could love.
They could want.
They could dream of a world where the sky met the sea and the boundary dissolved.
But they could never be together.
Not really.
Not without one of them dying.
Erza’s breath caught in her throat. The parable was not about birds and fish. It was about her. It was about Yuuta.
She was the bird. She was the creature of the sky, the ruler of the open air, the being who had been born to soar above worlds and look down upon lesser creatures from a height that made them dizzy.
Yuuta was the fish.
He was the creature of the deep, the mortal who could not survive in the thin, mana-rich atmosphere of Nova. His lungs were not built for her world.
His body was not built for her presence. Every moment she spent near him, every breath she took in his apartment, every touch she laid upon his skin, it was all poison. Slow. Invisible. But poison nonetheless.
If he tried to live in her world, he would die. The mana would shatter his sealed memories, flood his mind with horrors he had spent a lifetime forgetting, and leave nothing behind but a hollow shell.
If she tried to live in his world, she would not die, not physically, not in the way that mortals died. But she would break Mentally.
The bird and the fish.
The sky and the sea.
Love without a home.
Erza lost herself in the parable.
Her violet eyes grew distant, unfocused, staring at something beyond the walls of the small bakery, beyond the afternoon light, beyond the present moment.
She saw a bird, white wings spread wide, silver feathers catching the sun, circling above an endless ocean.
And she saw a fish, scales dark as ink, eyes red as embers, swimming in the depths, looking up, always looking up.
They could see each other.
They could want each other.
But they could never touch.
Clara noticed the shift in Erza’s posture, the way her shoulders had gone rigid, the way her hands had stopped trembling and gone still, the way her breathing had shallowed to something barely perceptible.
She saw the woman retreat into herself, into a place where parables and reality had merged into something indistinguishable.
She clapped her hands together.
The sound was sharp, sudden, deliberate, a crack that cut through the heavy silence like a blade through water.
Erza blinked.
Her eyes refocused. She looked at Clara as if seeing her for the first time, as if the baker had just emerged from a fog that had swallowed her whole.
"I’m sorry." Clara’s voice was gentle but firm, the voice of someone who had learned, through hard experience, when to let grief speak and when to pull it back from the edge.
"I didn’t mean to make you sadder. I just wanted to tell you that there comes a time when you have to understand. And in my story, I failed to understand. I lost my beloved husband because of it."
Erza shook her head slowly. Her voice, when she spoke, was quiet but steady, not the cold, commanding tone of a queen, but something softer.
Something more honest.
"No. You didn’t make me sad." She paused, her violet eyes meeting Clara’s. "You just showed me what path I have to choose from now on."
Clara saw something shift in the woman’s expression.
The sorrow was still there, it would always be there, carved into her features like a second face, but beneath it, something else was growing.
Determination.
The determination of someone who had decided to cut out her own heart because staying whole was no longer an option.
Erza had made her choice.
She would do what she had said in Antarctica, standing on the shattered ice with blood on her hands and tears frozen on her cheeks.
She would give Yuuta a great life, a comfortable life, a peaceful life, a life where he could forget her and still be happy.
She would watch from a distance. She would hear stories of how he spent the years she had given him. She would know that he was safe, that he was loved, that he was not suffering because of her.
And she would carry that knowledge like a stone in her chest for the rest of her immortal existence.
Clara saw the hope in Erza’s eyes.
Not the hope of a happy ending, that was gone, had been gone since the moment she understood the parable of the bird and the fish.
But there was another kind of hope, quieter and more fragile.
The hope of a less tragic ending.
The hope that comes from choosing the least painful option among a sea of painful options. The hope that says, I can survive this. I can let him go. I can watch him live and be content.
Clara chuckled softly.
The sound was unexpected, almost inappropriate, given the weight of the conversation. But it was not mocking. It was warm. Almost fond.
"You know," Clara said, tilting her head, a small smile playing at the corners of her lips, "you look a lot like an idiot man who comes here sometimes."
Erza paused. Her brow furrowed. "What do you mean?"
Clara’s smile widened, crinkling the corners of her eyes, softening the hard lines that grief had carved into her face.
"The same stubbornness." She gestured vaguely toward Erza’s posture, her expression, the way she held herself like she was expecting the world to attack and had already decided not to dodge. "The same way of carrying the world on your shoulders. The same refusal to let anyone help you carry it."
Erza said nothing.
"He comes here when things get bad," Clara continued. "Sits in that same corner." She nodded toward the bench where Erza had first collapsed, hiding her face from the world. "Eats my bread. Stares at nothing. And he has this look, exactly the look you have right now, like he’s already decided to sacrifice himself and doesn’t want anyone to talk him out of it."
Erza did not speak.
The question sat on her tongue, who is this man, where can I find him, but she swallowed it down.
Some questions were better left unasked.
Some answers would only complicate what she had already decided.
She was running out of time. 𝐟𝕣𝗲𝕖𝕨𝗲𝐛𝗻𝗼𝐯𝗲𝚕.𝗰𝚘𝐦
Every moment spent in this bakery, listening to parables about birds and fish, was a moment Yuuta spent sleeping in an apartment that might soon become a memory.
Clara studied her from across the counter, her weathered hands resting on the worn wood, her eyes soft with something that looked like understanding.
"I hope the decision you make will not haunt you," Clara said quietly.
Erza rose from the wooden bench. Her silver hair caught the afternoon light, shimmering like frost on glass. Her violet eyes, still red-rimmed from tears she had not meant to shed, held Clara’s gaze without flinching.
"It will not," she said. Her voice was steady now, the tremor gone, replaced by something colder. Something more familiar. "This is about peace. About happiness. I am certain he will understand."
Clara saw the mask slide back into place.
The vulnerability that had softened Erza’s features moments before vanished behind walls that had been built over centuries.
The woman who stood before her now was not the weeping stranger who had devoured garlic bread like a starving animal.
She was someone else. Someone who had made a decision and was already learning to live with it.
"Then my blessing is with you," Clara said.
Erza looked at her, truly looked at her, taking in the flour-dusted apron, the gray hair escaping from its bun, the kind eyes that had seen too much grief and chosen to remain soft rather than harden. A stranger. A human. And yet, in the span of a single conversation, she had done what few beings in any world had ever managed.
She had made Erza feel understood.
"Thank you," Erza said, her voice quiet but sincere. "For your advice. And for the food. I will repay you someday."
She turned and walked toward the door.
Her footsteps were soft on the checkered tile, each one carrying her further from the bakery, further from the parable, further from the version of herself who had sat in the corner and wept into a stranger’s bread.
The bell rang as she pushed the door open.
Afternoon air rushed in, warm and ordinary, carrying the scent of the city and the distant sound of traffic. Erza stepped across the threshold, her silver hair catching the breeze, her silhouette sharp against the golden light.
Clara watched her go.
The door swung shut.
The bell fell silent.
The bakery returned to its quiet solitude, filled only with the scent of cooling bread and the weight of words that had been spoken.
Clara stood behind the counter, her hands resting on the worn wood, her eyes fixed on the door through which the silver-haired woman had disappeared.
She did not move for a long time.
The afternoon light shifted. The shadows lengthened. Somewhere in the back of the bakery, the oven ticked as it cooled.
Clara looked down at her hands, the same hands that had kneaded dough for twenty years, the same hands that had held her dying husband, the same hands that had just offered bread to a grieving stranger.
She thought about the advice she had given. The parable of the bird and the fish. The wisdom of letting go.
Clara remained standing there silently thinking, watching the empty doorway long after Erza was gone. A strange unease settled inside her chest, though she could not fully understand why.
Because neither of them realized the contradiction hidden inside their own beliefs.
Erza believed separation would protect love.
Clara once believed the same thing.
But Clara had forgotten something important. Once upon a time, she had chosen responsibility and fear over the man she loved, convincing herself it was necessary. Yet in the end, she abandoned everything for a peaceful bakery life she once hated.
Because love had mattered more than she realized.
And Clara also forgot something else.
The parable of the bird and the fish was never created to prove love impossible.
Because even nature created flying fish.
Creatures born between sea and sky, living proof that impossible things could still exist if someone searched long enough for another answer.
But Clara never searched for that answer.
Fear chose for her.
And now fate had placed the same crossroads before Erza.
The Dragon Queen walked away believing she had finally chosen the right path, unaware that somewhere far away, destiny itself was already beginning to move around Yuuta Kounari, the foolish mortal who smiled even in front of death.
Would he quietly accept the future Erza had chosen for him?
Or would he challenge fate itself just to stay beside her?
Only time would answer that question.
And so, beneath the silent sky connecting two different worlds,
the true story of Erza and Yuuta had only just begun.
To be continued...