I Was Not Meant To Exist

A gust of cold air brushed against Mira’s face as she leaned against the car window. The vibration of the magical vehicle she was riding spread through her head through her forehead that was pressed against the glass.

Her golden eyes watched the passing streets as the vehicle moved, occasionally her reflection appeared on the window, showing the dark lines beneath her eyes, her long black hair hanging roughly as if it had not been combed for a long time.

A woman’s voice sounded in both of her ears, the sound coming from the two earbuds attached to both of Mira’s ear canals.

The woman’s voice sounded serious and clear, like an experienced presenter.

’It has been five days since the attack that occurred in the human palace....’

Mira closed her eyes, darkness covering her vision.

’...the brutal attack that happened in a single night has claimed the lives of dozens of palace servants, including the head maid herself, that night became a cold night that will never be forgotten by humanity.’

The female presenter paused for a moment, her next voice sounding softer than before, showing a slight sense of disappointment.

’Unfortunately, the disaster we experienced did not stop there. Because the person who led the attack was Thomas Xilac.’

Mira pinched her forehead as soon as she heard her father’s name, a sharp pain spreading across the front of her head.

’Thomas, who was one of the heads of the families supporting the kingdom who should have been an example, instead betrayed humanity...’

A sigh escaped from Mira, her heartbeat quickened, her blood pumped throughout her body in the cold temperature of the magical vehicle.

’...he made a contract with demons and joined the dark side. He became the mastermind behind the city attack involving the subordinates of the Overmas family and many other crimes.’

The magical vehicle Mira was riding slowly turned, Mira slowly opened her eyes revealing her golden eyes that had now dimmed slightly.

’But even with all the misfortune experienced by humanity, there is still a glimmer of light shining within the darkness....’

The magical vehicle Mira was in slowly stopped in the lobby of a building.

’The child of Thomas Xilac, Mira Xilac, became the discoverer of the demon energy potion that we saw earlier in the trial....’

Mira slowly unfastened her seatbelt, she looked at the middle mirror, her voice sounded soft.

"You can leave first, sir. I don’t know how long I will be here."

The driver looked at Mira from the reflection in the middle mirror, he nodded slightly.

"Alright, ma’am..."

Mira nodded as well, she slowly opened the door, the driver spoke again when he saw Mira about to leave.

"Contact me if you need anything, ma’am. We will always be ready, ma’am..."

Mira smiled faintly when she heard that, she lowered her body and looked into the magical vehicle.

"Thank you, sir..."

Mira immediately closed the door of her magical vehicle, she turned her body as the vehicle slowly left. Her brown coat flowed, protecting her from the cold air outside.

Mira sighed, smoke came out from her lips. She slowly walked into the building, the voice of the presenter she heard continued to echo in her ears.

’It is a tragic contrast where the child becomes the discoverer of the demon energy potion, while the father falls into the embrace of demons.’

A scent of flowers entered Mira’s nose when she first stepped into the building, as she walked alone she became the center of attention, everyone whispered when they saw her, but Mira did not care, she did not even hear what others were saying.

’That contrast has divided the public into two factions... the first faction continues to condemn and demands that Mira, Thomas’s child, be punished for her father’s crimes, and the other faction supports Mira as the greatest inventor among humans for her achievements...’

The sound of Mira’s shoes echoed on the shiny floor, her steps brought her to one of the elevators that was slightly separated from the others.

’The kingdom has not yet clearly decided what they will do...’

Mira slowly stopped in front of the golden elevator, she looked at the guard guarding the golden elevator, a faint smile formed on her face.

"I want to go to the VIP treatment room..."

The officer who saw Mira directly became a little nervous, he did not expect to meet the most talked-about person at this time across the land.

"Ah...yes. Please, ma’am." The officer immediately opened the golden elevator.

Mira smiled faintly and thanked him before entering the golden elevator, she was immediately greeted by her reflection from the mirror that surrounded the entire interior of the elevator.

Mira leaned against the side of the elevator, the door slowly closed and reflected Mira’s figure leaning.

’The kingdom’s delaying attitude is not without reason. Because the human king who is the center of all decisions only returned two days ago from his mission in the north, after his return, he has not appeared in public. This has caused a big question mark regarding his condition and the details of the incident in the north....’

Mira sighed, she removed the earbuds from both of her ears.

She lowered her head, her fingers intertwined, her expression turned blank as if thinking about something.

Something that kept appearing in her mind after the long night she experienced within the darkness of her father’s heart.

One of Mira’s eyebrows twitched, her brain brought up the image of someone who kept appearing in her mind whenever she was lost in thought.

Someone she never expected would linger in her mind for days, a figure shining in gold appeared in Mira’s thoughts.

Mira looked at her right palm, she touched her palm with the fingers of her left hand, she still clearly remembered the warmth of the grip that pulled her out of the darkness of her father’s heart.

Mira’s heart beat faster, she did not know what she was feeling. She slowly bit her lip, her voice came out before the elevator door opened.

"Why does his face keep appearing in my mind?..."

Mira could not answer the question she asked herself, she kept trying to think but never found an answer, and now she chose to step out of the elevator first and head toward one of the rooms at the end of the hallway.

When she arrived at the door of the room she wanted to go to, her hand reached out to knock but stopped before touching the door, Mira stood still for a moment just staring at the door she wanted to knock on, until finally the door opened by itself.

Mira’s golden eyes widened, she was surprised by the door that suddenly opened, from inside Eve in her patient clothes was also surprised when she saw Mira just standing in front of the door.

"Mira? Why are you just standing in front of the door? Are you visiting us?"

Mira lowered her head, she played with her fingers, her voice sounded soft.

"I...I..."

Eve who did not hear what Mira said, only turned to look inside the room, she shouted to the people inside.

"Mira is here!...."

Mira who was startled tried to stop Eve from shouting, but her hand was instead pulled by Eve to go inside.

"Come on... Rina is also inside."

Mira who was still hesitant just stayed silent, but Eve pulled her forcefully inside, Mira’s golden eyes immediately looked around the room.

A large window could be seen in the room showing the city view, but the view was covered by gray curtains, a fresh aroma filled the room overpowering the smell of medicine.

Mira’s golden eyes shifted to the large L-shaped sofa. Julian and Arthur sat there wearing the same patient clothes as Eve, but their wounds were still clearly visible with bandages all over their bodies and faces.

Katarina was also there sitting while looking at Mira, she wore black pants with a black jacket to protect herself from the cold.

Katarina smiled faintly when she saw Mira, she stood up and approached her, her hand touched Mira’s arm.

"You came, Mira."

Mira nodded slightly, her golden eyes glanced at Julian who was still sitting, his expression unreadable. Katarina invited Mira to sit. And now the five of them sat together in the same room.

Even though the five of them sat together, silence still lingered between them, even the sound of the air freshener was louder than them.

A fresh scent spread after being sprayed, Mira kept glancing at Julian. Meanwhile Julian, who realized Mira’s gaze, sighed, his blue eyes looked at Mira. His voice became the one that broke their silence.

"Is there something you want to talk about, Mira?"

Mira lowered her head again, she kept playing with her fingers while trying to arrange the words she wanted to say, they all just waited for Mira to speak.

Mira’s voice sounded soft in the large room they were in.

"I...I want..." before Mira finished speaking Julian cut her off, he leaned his back against the soft sofa.

"You want to apologize?"

Mira looked at Julian, she scratched her forehead, an awkward laugh escaped her mouth unconsciously.

"Yes...I want to apologize."

Julian brushed his blonde hair, he licked his dry lips.

"Why do you want to apologize?"

Mira smiled awkwardly, she repeatedly lowered her head and looked at Julian, her breathing felt heavy, her eyelids blinked more often than usual.

"My father has been cruel to your family, my father slandered your father and even put him in prison...I want to apolo—" before Mira finished speaking, Julian cut her off again, his blue eyes stared at Mira intently.

"Why are you the one apologizing? You did nothing wrong to me... not at all."

Mira nodded slightly, her fingers trembled, she tried to clasp her hands together to reduce the shaking, but her lips also trembled as she spoke.

Katarina who was beside Mira tried to hold Mira’s hand, warmth enveloped Mira’s trembling hand.

Mira’s breathing became heavier, she took a breath and looked at Julian, her golden eyes trembled, she smiled faintly.

"The reason my father became like that... is because of me."

Mira lowered her head, her tears almost slipped from her eyelids.

"He could not bear to see his child just standing still while watching her friends play with their mothers...."

Mira’s body trembled, she raised her head to look at Julian, she tried to smile.

"I’m sorry, Julian. Because of me, my father fell into the dark side..."

Eve who saw Mira like that immediately looked away, she covered her face.

Meanwhile Arthur who had been silent held his forehead, he spoke for the first time.

"That’s enough, Mira..."

Mira who heard Arthur’s voice immediately looked at him, he also looked at Mira.

"I’m sorry too because of my father, you all got hurt...I also couldn’t do anything."

Mira shifted her gaze to Katarina beside her, a tear finally slipped from Mira’s eye.

"I’m sorry for my father who attacked your mother, Rina..."

Katarina did not answer Mira’s apology, but she hugged Mira warmly.

Silence returned to the room, until Julian spoke again, he looked at Mira.

"You don’t need to apologize, Mira. About your father, I don’t know. But I don’t blame you."

Mira nodded after hearing what Julian said, while Julian shifted his gaze to Katarina.

"I also have something to apologize to Katarina...."

Katarina looked at Julian, while Julian continued what he wanted to say.

"...I blamed you too quickly, I didn’t know what I should do, but I’m sorry."

Katarina smiled faintly, her hand gently stroked Mira’s head, she looked at Julian.

"You don’t need to apologize either, I was also a bit harsh that day...."

After Katarina’s words, their conversation began to flow again, their awkwardness slowly melted through their conversation, even the snow did not fall that day when it realized the warmth that slowly returned between them.

They talked as usual, like before all the bad events that happened to them, occasional laughter could be heard as a sign that their relationship was beginning to heal.

Arthur who had been mostly silent began to speak, he wanted to ask something he had been holding back for days, he looked at Katarina.

"By the way, Rina, we heard this from the principal. You’re the one who created that demon energy potion, right?"

One of Katarina’s eyebrows raised, she looked at Arthur and nodded slightly.

"Yes...I made the potion that appeared in the trial."

Mira who heard Katarina’s words immediately looked at her, she was still in Katarina’s embrace.

"I also wanted to ask that..."

Mira got out of Katarina’s embrace, her body faced Katarina, her expression that was previously gloomy was now better.

"Why in the news it’s said that I’m the one who discovered it? I was actually helped by you."

Katarina chuckled, she shrugged her shoulders.

"If you can do it, why should it be me, Mira?"

Mira’s face turned confused, as did the others. Julian asked first after that confusion.

"But you were the first to make it, right? I mean, why don’t you use that to strengthen your position in the public’s eyes?"

After hearing Julian’s words, this time Katarina’s expression turned confused.

"What position? I am a princess. What position is better than that?"

Eve chuckled hearing what Katarina said, her index finger pointed at Katarina.

"This arrogance. I haven’t heard this princess’s arrogance in a long time...."

Katarina chuckled, she brushed her dark red hair then pointed at herself.

"What arrogance? Besides, I wasn’t the one who first made that potion..."

Everyone listened to Katarina, while she smiled.

"I was taught by my friend...." Katarina held Mira’s shoulder.

"...then I taught Mira the final step."

Katarina leaned her back against the sofa, she pointed at herself.

"I’m not a researcher... so I don’t want to bother with that."

One of Julian’s eyebrows raised, he leaned forward, his hands clasped together.

"But you managed to create it even though you’re not a researcher."

Katarina nodded, she sighed showing exhaustion.

"That’s because my friend kept forcing me, so I had no choice."

Everyone fell silent, unable to believe what Katarina said, because the first potion they saw was the result of Katarina being forced by her friend.

Katarina sighed, she patted Mira’s shoulder.

"Besides, one of the ingredients, the flower of life and death, is too extreme."

Katarina scratched her temple, she looked at Mira.

"The dragon king will not approve that cursed flower to be one of the ingredients."

Katarina smiled widely while patting Mira’s shoulder.

"So, you should be the one to be the discoverer, Mira. You are a researcher and you will surely be able to find other ingredients to make it a complete potion."

The room fell silent again, what broke the silence was the sound of clapping from Eve, she shook her head.

"Amazing! I didn’t expect the princess to be this genius!"

Katarina nodded at Eve’s praise, while Julian asked Katarina again.

"Who is your friend who created that potion? Why don’t they show themselves if they’re that great?"

Katarina sighed, she leaned back on the sofa, her blue eyes glanced briefly at Mira’s back. She remembered her friend’s words, words she would never forget, Katarina smiled faintly.

"She doesn’t want her name to be known, she only made that potion for people who need it, because she doesn’t want people like her... someone who lost the person she loved due to demon energy infection..."

Mira who heard that immediately looked at Katarina, she held Katarina’s knee.

"Is it really okay if I do it?"

Katarina looked at Mira for a moment, she stayed silent for a few seconds.

"Of course... my friend will be happy if you do it."

Mira shifted her gaze, she held both of her hands and nodded.

Katarina who saw that wanted to speak again but her smart bracelet suddenly vibrated and rang.

Katarina looked at her smart bracelet, a screen appeared and a name was shown there. A sigh came out of Katarina, she answered the call.

"What is it?..."

A voice came from Katarina’s bracelet, mixed with the voices of several people talking and the sound of a child crying.

"What do you mean what is it?! You said you would only leave for a moment and stop by Julian’s room! But you’ve been gone for hours! Where’s the food you promised!"

Mira who recognized the voice immediately looked at Katarina’s bracelet, the name Alex was displayed there.

Katarina held her forehead, while Alex spoke again, his voice echoed throughout the room.

"How can a princess stay alone with a man for so long!"

Eve’s ears twitched hearing Alex’s words, she grabbed Katarina’s hand and shouted at Alex.

"They are not alone, you bastard! I’m here too!"

Alex went silent for a moment, his voice sounded annoying.

"Ah, you’re there too, pink-haired girl! Is that cleanliness freak also there?"

Arthur who felt offended approached Katarina to shout at her bracelet, their voices echoed like a zoo, Julian who heard it just chuckled.

Meanwhile Katarina’s ears were getting hotter, she immediately turned off her bracelet and stood up.

"Alright, I’m leaving first. If not, that bastard will come here and disturb you all."

Eve clicked her tongue, she sat back on the sofa.

"That bastard, why doesn’t he just use a VIP room?"

Katarina shrugged, not knowing the answer, she looked at the others.

"Well then, I’ll go first. It’s been a long time since we hung out, how about we hang out after you all leave the hospital?"

They all nodded in agreement, Katarina then walked out, but her hand was held by Mira.

"Wait, I want to come with you."

One of Katarina’s eyebrows raised, she looked at Mira who was still sitting.

"You want to meet Alex?"

Mira’s golden eyes widened, she stayed silent for a moment, but quickly answered.

"Eh, no... why would I meet him? I want to meet Aril... I want to apologize to him too."

Katarina’s eyes narrowed, she heard Mira’s tone sounding a bit strange, but she quickly nodded.

The two of them then left Julian’s room, now heading toward the place where Alex and the others were being treated.