I, Am a Living Yama, Empress Advises Me to Stay Calm - Chapter 193

Two hundred lifetimes! Two hundred miserable deaths! Leon is a 27-year-old man who experienced a rollercoaster of 200 reincarnations within 180 days. He was so unfortunate that he even died once when he was about to masturbate to hentai! Each death carries the regret of his virginity as he keeps dying without getting a chance to fulfill his only wish…losing his virginity. But his luck finally changes after the 200th death, and he encounters the Goddess of lust, who makes him an offer to be reincarnated with a gift. (Ding! System awakening…) (The super Harem system…) (Ding! The host has seen the secret garden of a heavenly beauty, reward!) (Ding! Mission issued: have sex with the sex mistress!) “All heavenly beauties shall be mine!” Join Leon on his journey to enjoy life to the fullest as a virgin who got his hands on a sex hack, conquering heavenly beauties and even Goddesses! Additional Tags: R-18, HAREM, ACTION, ROMANCE, ADVENTURE, REINCARNATION, SYSTEM, Overpowered Protagonist, ANTIHERO, SMUT

Like every (Isekai) protagonist, I got reincarnated after getting hit by a hyper-speed truck.

That was an empty and dark life anyway, so I was already looking forward to a decent, unknown afterlife.

But... the world had a unique thing in mind.

In this new world, I had parents, amazing ones at that.

My father was a talented mage, and my lovely mother was a sharp and cunning merchant.

Ignoring all of my weirdness, they loved me unconditionally.

This was the life that anyone would love.

Eating and cooking delicious food, practicing archery and magic, and playing with my parents.

Everything was wonderful until... those demons separated us and it left me in a ferocious forbidden forest, just to be eaten alive by beasts.

But dying wasn't even a question.

I will go back… to them.

Catching arrows, running up walls, crushing boulders and bending metal, these are but petty parlour tricks in the eyes of martial artists. But where can a genuine martial artist stand in an era where martial artists are nothing more than a myth?

[ADULT CONTENT WARNING: Explicit intimacy and mature relationship themes. 18+ only.]Seven years together. Two years married.To the world, Alexander Montclair is the perfect husband gentle, patient, and calm. A man who never raises his voice and believes love should be quiet and understanding.But behind closed doors, his silence speaks louder than anger.In our marriage, his family comes before everything. His mother’s wishes dictate our lives, while my own needs are expected to wait. Every compromise, every apology, every sacrifice, it’s always me who gives in.The only time I feel chosen is in our intimacy moment, when desire briefly drowns out duty and that's when he listens to me instead of his family’s voice.But sex moments can’t hold a marriage together.This is not a story about cruelty or violence.It’s about emotional neglect, quiet obedience, and the slow ache of realizing that love without choice will eventually break you.After seven years of loving him, I must decide: Remain the husband who is always second or finally choose myself.