Captive: Sold To The Fox-eyed Alpha Who I Hate
Chapter 81: I’m still going to hate you sometimes
Ren slept for hours. It was a deep, heavy sleep, the kind he hadn’t experienced since the days before the Pierce Manor turned into a house of whispers and secrets.
When he finally opened his eyes, the room was dim, lit only by the soft glow of a lamp in the corner.
The sharp scent of chili oil and garlic hit him instantly.
On the bedside table sat a white carton of noodles, steam still curling from the top. Beside it was a small, handwritten note in Cilian’s elegant, sharp script: Still hot. Eat slowly.
Ren reached out, his hand much steadier than before. As he pulled the carton closer, he noticed a small silver object resting next to it. It was his old medical pager—the one he thought had been destroyed during the massacre. It was cleaned, polished, and fully functional.
He picked it up, feeling the cool weight in his palm. It was a silent message from Cilian. He wasn’t just giving Ren noodles; he was giving him back a piece of the identity his father had tried to trade away.
Ren picked up the chopsticks and took a small bite. The spice burned his throat, and the familiar flavor brought a rush of memories—real ones this time. The times he snuck out of the mansion to go hang out with Cilian.
The memory brought a faint smile to his lips.
He ate in the quiet, the silence no longer feeling like a threat.
The door opened softly. Cilian stepped in, looking even more tired than before. There was a fresh scratch on his jaw, and his knuckles were bruised, but when his eyes landed on Ren eating, the tension in his shoulders dropped.
"How are they?" Cilian asked, leaning against the doorframe.
"Smelly," Ren muttered, though he took another bite. "My brother was right about that much."
Cilian walked over and sat on the edge of the bed. He didn’t try to touch Ren this time. He just watched him.
"Julian is gone. He fled the city. The Mordecais have retreated to their borders. It’ll be quiet for a while."
Ren swallowed his food and looked at Cilian. "And what about the French? My father’s deal?"
"That ended a long time ago, Ren. Back then, I sent a message to France along with their money. I told them that if they ever come looking for a Pierce Omega again, I’ll personally burn their docks to the waterline." Cilian reached out, finally resting his hand near Ren’s knee. "The contract was dead a long time ago. You’re just Ren now."
Ren looked at the man who had turned into a monster just to keep him.
This man was so impossible.
"I’m still going to hate you sometimes," Ren said, his voice quiet but firm. "I’m still going to remember that you’re a psychopath."
Cilian’s lips curved into that familiar, dark smile. "I wouldn’t expect anything less, darling. As long as you’re here to tell me, I don’t mind."
Ren looked back at his noodles.
This was real, right? It wasn’t a dream he would wake up from any second now, right?
"Cilian," He called, looking up. He didn’t know if this was a sweet dream or a nightmare, but... he did not want to wake up from it. "Hold me," he said with a soft voice. "Hold me like you love me. Hold me like..." His breath hitched, and his eyes grew teary. "...You will never let me go."
Cilian didn’t move at first. He stood frozen by the door, the word "Hold me" echoing in the sterile room like a gunshot.
Then, he moved. He crossed the space in a blur, as if he were afraid Ren would vanish if he took a second too long.
He sat on the edge of the bed, his weight making the mattress dip. When he pulled Ren into his arms, it wasn’t a gentle embrace—it was a reclamation. He buried his face in the crook of Ren’s neck, his breath hot and ragged against Ren’s skin.
"I will never let you go," Cilian rasped, the words vibrating against Ren’s collarbone. "I have killed for you. I have knelt for you. There is nothing left of me that doesn’t belong to you."
Cilian moved the tray of noodles aside with a sharp, impatient motion. He looked at Ren, his golden-brown eyes dark with a hunger that was terrifyingly beautiful.
He began to undo the ties of Ren’s hospital gown, his fingers trembling—a rare, honest crack in his monster’s mask.
When the fabric fell away, revealing the thick, white bandages wrapped around Ren’s stomach, Cilian’s breath hitched. He traced the edge of the gauze with a feather-light touch, his expression a mix of worship and agony.
"I’ll be careful, darling," he whispered, his forehead pressing against Ren’s. "I’ll be so careful."
The air in the room became thick, charged with a heavy, magnetic pull. Ren reached up, his fingers digging into Cilian’s shoulders, pulling the Alpha down until there was no space left between them.
The intercourse this time was slow, a deliberate and pained ritual of making love.
Cilian supported his weight on his forearms, his muscles jumping with the effort of not pressing down on Ren’s stitches. Every thrust was a slow, deep vibration that seemed to reach the very center of Ren’s hollow chest. It wasn’t just physical; it was Cilian pouring his obsession and love into Ren, trying to fill the void where his family used to be.
Ren’s head thrashed back against the pillow, a broken, shaky moan escaping his lips.
It was even more agonizing as it was slow.
He watched Cilian’s face—the sweat dripping from his brow, the raw, unhinged devotion in his eyes. This was the man who had turned the world into a graveyard for him.
"Cilian... Cilian," Ren choked out, his eyes filling with tears.
"I’m here, Ren," Cilian whispered and then leaned down, his lips catching Ren’s tears, tasting the salt.
He moved steadily, his body a shield and a cage all at once.
For Ren, the pain of his wound blurred into the intense, grounding heat of the Alpha. It was the only thing that felt real. The lies were gone. The revenge was gone. Only this—the friction, the scent of cold frost pheromones, cedar and blood, and the weight of a man who would burn heaven to keep him—remained.
When the end came, it was quiet. Cilian collapsed into the space beside Ren, pulling him tightly against his side. He didn’t let go.
He wrapped the blanket around them both, his hand resting protectively over Ren’s bandaged stomach, feeling the steady beat of the life he had saved, even though there was a life he couldn’t save.
Ren lay there, his chest heaving, staring at the ceiling. The hollow feeling wasn’t gone, but it was being filled with something new.
Something darker, heavier, and infinitely more permanent.
"I’m sorry," Ren suddenly began to apologize, tears filling his eyes as he felt Cilian’s hand on his stomach. "Sorry, sorry,"
He did not say why he was saying sorry continuously even while breathless but Cilian seemed to know.
Now that Ren knew the truth, he felt guilty for the fetus he had not loved or cherished even for a second.
"Stay," Ren whispered, his voice fading as his shoulders shook. "Don’t leave me alone with the silence."
Cilian kissed the top of Ren’s head, his grip possessive and final. "The silence is dead, Ren. You have me now. You’ll always have me." 𝓯𝙧𝓮𝓮𝒘𝓮𝙗𝙣𝒐𝒗𝒆𝓵.𝓬𝓸𝒎
In the dim, quiet clinic, Ren finally closed his eyes. He wasn’t a hero, and he wasn’t a victim. He was just a survivor, sleeping in the arms of the monster who had claimed him.